Deep Breath and Sighs

 My father was a smart man and he gave me the foundation in which I based all of adult life. He was a man of many words and he once said " It is not bad to make a mistake as long as you learn from it and not repeat the same mistake. " I must admit I made my share of mistakes and it took longer to learn from some more than others. I know I've aged when I start repeating some of things he said. " Leopard never changes it's spots." " there is more than one way to skin a cat" " Barking up the wrong tree" " turning a blind eye" they are a few of the many things he quoted as I was growing up. 

Mistakes I sure have made some big ones. But in reality or at the time I made excuses for my choices. I have yet to stop learning. I have met a lot of people in my lifetime and one thing is true, everyone has at least one good story. Our stories might differ but the emotions that tie us together are the same. Love, heartache, disappointed are just a few of the emotions that we share in life. 

I woke up in this dream last night. My mother who had passed sometime ago was there with me.  It started out here in the rural area where I live but somehow switched to walking the streets of the city with her. As we talked she shared her disappointment and in that conversation I related as I now experience some of the same issues. Choices and consequences which lead to disappointments  reveals itself often in this journey called life. I try to dwell on the positive but the negative has a way of squeezing it self through the cracks of the door. Dreams are a mix up time and place. I had this dream f you. It was so clear as if it actually. It wasn't like extraordinary in the sense that we just sitting their having a conversation. It brought a sense of peace to me. 

I have learned a lot throughout the years and I find that I am more capable of tripping over those mistakes in my steps to avoid making the same ones over again. One thing is certain is that we are only responsible for our own actions, 

The sun upon rising brings with it a new day,

what in life awaits me in these final chapters of life?

"Don't fall there is no one there to catch you. " Ouch don't I know it

"Don't cry over spilled milk."  I filled my share of buckets. 

"You made you bed now lie in it" Don't I know it.

Loving you has been one of the high lights of my life. 

I have been in my head a little to much lately.