We have lived and loved

Whisper Sweet

The child in me,the song set free,

and the dance with you in every dream.

~

Dissecting the truth,

I place on you my claim,

like raindrops from the

heavens, my love infused

the same.

~

It is incredible the emotions that want to sing

from the heavens and hide under a rock.

~

Lust is a false representation of love...

but is enjoyable never the less.

~

Love is the energy that embraces hearts

and releases the soul to the heavens.

~

I spoke to my heart and my heart replied

" the dreams are here to soften the cry."

I spoke to my soul and my exclaimed

" you are free to live and love again."

I spoke to the heavens and they chose

to refrain, leaving me feeling a little insane.

~

I believe that any amount of heartache is

worth the opportunity to feel loves infusion with the soul.

~

It's life and the consequence of our choices

is view of our ultimate experience.

~

In a spiritual sense I have met both my soulmate and

my twin flame and stared the devil in the eye.

I found this in the archive, I'm not afraid anymore. It doesn't mean that I don't wonder what the future holds, just that it doesn't have the power and control it once did. I have grown, is it maturity? I thought it was an awareness or maybe an acceptance of the path we travel. But I guess more than anything I realize somethings we can't change nor should we spend energy trying. Ahhhh a Popeye quote," I yam what I yam"I don't need approval or false acceptance, I am not looking for praise or to change reality, what is, is.

I find especially with my own children how my heart will go out to them without actually taking into consideration my own wishes and well being. When I don't I feel a heavy sense of guilt. I am not here to respond or in some sense live out everyone else's dream. The dream that I now fulfill belongs to me.

I am not sure why things happen as they do or why the time is chosen, this I know that my Teddy bear might have taken back seat to the drive instructor, but he remains in the front seat through life. I am not accomplishing all I should be today. I am just dealing with life one day at a time. I think about my goal and yet I know that around the bend it is already set and stone and I am not sure I can alter that. What I do know is I have learned the hard way how to deal with all that will be exposed as we turn the bend. It reminds me when I first got my drivers license, I hated going around those sharp blind bends. But as time goes on you get comfortable behind the wheel of the car and you handle the road with a little more confidence. Now in life I am taking those blind bends and digesting them in away that cleanses the soul.

I found that in business, personal lives and also even in the internet networking that its all loosely bases on a game of sort. Maybe its their goal or all that they are capable of I have heard it called the " cattle mentality" where one follows the other and may make it a cross the field and achieve. But I have learned that success and friendship is not measured by dollars or how many people you know. I am successful beyond my dreams and I have a friend who is truly wonderful and if the wind redirects and time comes to and end I can say I lived life and felt love and dreamt the most wonderful of dreams are the most amazing journey ever.

We do because we can.

Fear
As a child I raced for the light before “ the crocodiles get me”. At times I find myself still racing for the light in life, afraid of the unknown. This anticipation of danger that causes such a anxiety that it agitates the mind. It is control at its wickedest .Many times people who were aware of my background would say “ you are such a strong person”. I found the most difficult situations to be the easiest to handle , because the unknown factor was missing and I could logically handle illness, insanity and death. It was clear like a deck of cards placed sprawled in front of me. No question to how many cards in the deck , take out one and many questions. Fear the ultimate in control of the unknown. It brings to mind the attack of the woulda, shoulda and coulda. The emotion feeds off of what we can’t see and touch. The ultimate weakness with which all other emotions branch. I find that you cannot separate fear from its counter partners , that of risk,insecurities , chance , mystery , madness, doubt and confusion. I have fought several fears through out my life, the fear of height and that of dropping a new born. Yet the greatest fear still lurks , the fear of test , the biggest test “ the test of life” on going and always in a state of metamorphose. Now that is the tough one, I can’t see it , I can’t feel it and it constantly challenges me . Where is the light?Damn those crocodiles!

I was out and about walking as I was taking in the fall foliage and all of a sudden I came across a bend in the road. You can't see around it, so you really don't know what is ahead. Life is very much the same way,there is always something to catch you off guard. I kept thinking how smooth the road and then bam! and your faced with romance, heartache, success, failure, happiness, sadness, various trials and triumphs. Off all the experiences we meet up with each reveals something about our internal response to life.

Feeling the stress of all that needed to be done and reviewing my responsibility. It was difficult as I had to admit that my heart was lenient,my soul weakened and my mind so over confused. Lost in the moment, I found the cool air and the surrounding hills to be comforting. Here in the hills there is no judgement only acceptance. I felt relaxed as my mind went through a cleansing process and yet there was still no certain clarity.

I knew what I was going through was the lessons of tomorrow. Some how out of the negative would rise the positive. Thy sky remained a dark grey and the winds picked up as the misty rain continued to fall. Unprepared for the heavier raindrops, I was drenched as I started back home.

When all was said and done, yesterday and tomorrow matter very little in comparison to the moment. I felt only sadness for those who could not embrace what today brings, rejoice in the celebration of the beauty that life bestows upon us.

I can see beyond the mountains

as the greater view is through the heart.

~

It is clear that the changing of the leaves

documents that we have lived and loved.

Loneliness is its own hell

You can't help as you step forward to look back at your life and review the lessons that developed into today's memories. My son called first thing this morning, you would think I had something to do with all this excitement. He went on to speak of a woman he has had contact with for about six months now, they spent two days canoeing, hiking and playing board games. He shouted " she is perfect, she finishes my sentences,etc. She had done her home work on him, she met with his x and everything his x girlfriend complained but just made him that much more attractive to her. Soul mates? It is possible she is older and a bit wiser a but very intellectual, he just might have met his match. Six am and on the phone he hangs up with" I love ya mom. "

I think of life and all the missed opportunities and they why of it all. I think about the layers of life how separate they are meaningless but together they develop the personality of who we are today. In the English language one word can have many a meaning, this in itself leads to quite the misinterpretation. Or might that interpretation being the reflection of ones own inner soul? One of the words that came up in question was lust. The argument was that lust had no place in a loving relationship, that one who lust couldn't possibly love. That lust was emotionless desire for sex. It is true you can have lust without love and love with out lust, but imagine love and lust together.



–noun
1.
intense sexual desire or appetite.
2.
desire or appetite;
3.
a passionate or overmastering desire or craving (usually fol. by for): a lust for power.
4.
ardent enthusiasm; zest; relish: an enviable lust for life.
5.
Obsolete.
a.
pleasure or delight.
b.
desire; inclination; wish.
–verb (used without object)
6.
to have intense sexual desire.
7.
to have a yearning or desire; have a strong or excessive craving lust pleasure, desire. crave, hunger, covet, yearn.

1. Pleasure. [Obs.] " Lust and jollity." --Chaucer.
2. Inclination; desire. [Obs.]
For little lust had she to talk of aught. --Spenser.
My lust to devotion is little. --Bp. Hall.
3. Longing desire; eagerness to possess or enjoy; -- in a had sense; as, the lust of gain.
The lust of reigning. --Milton.
4. Licentious craving; sexual appetite. --Milton.
5. Hence: Virility; vigor; active power.

My heart is satisfied with the beauty of moment,

my soul is eagerness to share in the passion of desire.

~
If we fail to explore all that we are and all that we can be...


There are many qualities to a friendship, some embrace to comfort, others to excite but the moment you feed the hunger you brought to the heart a great delight.

~
I can no sooner strip the memories from the mind
nor remove your love from my heart.
~

Some people get the chance to hold hands, I have the chance to interlock hearts.

... heart to heart with love and song.

The first bridge ever created was an act of mother nature. The fallen tree that lay across a stream or the mouth of a river clearly displayed away for animals and people to cross a body of water. As human skills improved and technology surfaced we found ways to develop bridges to cross not only bodies of water,roads, railways as well as valleys and rough terrains. There are many ways in which we bridge over obstacles both of the physical and mental restraints. Alexander Graham Bell would have been proud to know how many people were bridged through conversations by phone. The internet has become equally as important in connecting people from great distances. The bridge of hearts is one very few people take time to consider crossing and yet it has such an everlasting effect on those who dare to travel by way of love.

The Bridge of Hearts

We built a bridge, we built it strong, from heart to heart with love and song. It stretches far, its span is wide and as we walk we meet with mind. Excitement paved the first of steps, closer and closer as we lost our breath. Standing high, we looked below and the rays of faith cast a glow. The bridge of hearts stands on trust, extends with laughter love and lust. Over mountains of despair and the valleys where only love would dare. We built a bridge, we built it strong, from heart to heart with love and song. 

 

Sweet Interludes

Like a swallowtail emerging from the cocoon,

I anxiously anticipate tomorrow.

Fly with me!

A dream like intermission, surreal as can be, removes the many mountain as it controls the rhythm of the sea.Whispers of the heart challenge the heavens high, to break the barriers which silence the mind. Pleasuring the moment, pleading with your soul, to look beyond all darkness and allow the beauty of your love to unfold.



~
There Are No Secrets


Reflection of the heavens, from the rivers to the sky,display the beauty of the heart through the hours we call time. Behold the rays of the morning sun, warm against the flesh, a reminder of our love, at the souls request.

Congratulate the seasons they reveal our love so well, from the first fallen snowflake to the song birds of spring all while summer races to the colors that autumn brings.

There are no secrets, our love is everywhere as each day documents how love shall persevere. You know it in your heart and you see it with your soul and still you can feel it as it has us kicking up our heels.
~

I tell my heart that to feed the hunger of desire,

one must embrace the moment and release

the weight of our yesterdays.

~

Why do I cry? Because I allowed my heart to feel the agitation

that comes when need battles with my wants.

~

Wooden petals never die,

they also have not yet lived.

~
Lost in his world or lost to his world?

~

The mind shatters like crystal, the fragments everywhere.

Some so small they splinter as a reminder that you're here.

~

Love has no boundaries, it knows nothing of fear,

the grace of the heavens makes the beauty so clear.

~

Lust is external, its needs will expire,

but love is eternal and there is our power.

Beginning to End

At the top of the ravine, to the edge of the hill, beyond the trees, a barren field. Spring  in waiting for the canvas to change, with blue birds and butterflies making their way. The grass will be green and the water will flow and the leaves of yesterday,will be gone like the snow. I held to the dreams, I let you on in as we challenge the seasons from beginning to end. 

...under the blue of the sky

Breaking through the darkness, the hollow disappeared, as music from the mountains played softly to my ears. Spinning round in circles on the dance floor of life, I felt your warmth infuse like the kiss of the first morning light. I raced to the window, to see if you were there, as silence was befuddled of what my heart could hear. Reaching to the heavens, up to the heavens high, I dance with you my darling under the blue of the sky.

... and the snow falls.

One journey many roads,

destination your arms.

Cotton Soft

Dances in the shadows of our smiles.

One window many seasons,
one view many visions,
one love many experiences.

~
When I question the timing and live in dispute,
the measurements of a day appear to regroup.

~
My heart felt the weakness that distance portrays,
leading the spirit to share in the darkness of the day.
~

Reality is that we are!

You are the smile which touches my heart
and gives light to all darkness.


The simplicity of love is in its ability to breach
all barriers to surface with the breath of a moment.

~
Head to shoulder,
heart to heart,
soul revealing,
light and dark.
~

He who wipes away the tears,
leaves only smiles from ear to ear.
~
How can we improve upon the words of love,
for only your actions have proved to speak of a greater truth.

~
For he who knows when,
knows why.
~

I placed a blanket, cotton soft, upon my midnight dream and there the colors of life appeared from shades of autumn red to that of summer green. The magic was inviting, it knew my wishes well and cast to every season the power of your spell. Love be the artist, the canvas is life and painted in the horizon, the images of delight. Striking the silhouettes left for all to see, empowers the heavens to interlock,heart and soul to heart and soul for all eternity.

Little Bunny Blue

So gentle the stroke of love to my soul,

an indelible script still to unfold.

~

Snow dusted the mountains,

a carpet it lay,to keep warm

the memories for another day.

~

Valleys of sorrow,

mountains of despair,

refrain from allowing,

the darkness to near.

~

The treasure inviting,

gems of disbelief,

welcome your love

for my soul to retreat.

~

...and I smiled.

Little bunny blue,

silly as can be,

sits upon the shelf,

holding memories.

~

Ruched with satin,

trimmed in silk,

embossed with a

rose in white to the

bodice of her dress.

~

I held her very close,

I dusted off her ears,

and I whispered little

secrets of a love so

very dear.

~

Remarkable the little

bunny in her soft fuzzy

blue, that sits upon the

shelf bringing memories

of you.

I can hear you...

Snowflakes falling melt gently on my face, a reminder of the magic that our yesterdays had placed. Ice formed upon the edges of the moving mountain stream; bridged the distance between reality and dreams. The winter white draped all that could be seen, but it couldn't’t block your love from reaching out to me. My voice began to crackle and still I could sing the songs of love and how much you mean to me. Spinning around in circles dancing with the storm, I begged the wind to listen like it never had before. Don’t take my love and blow it out to sea, don’t whisper precious words from memory. I employ all of the earth to embrace the heavens high and with it joint powers, unite our love for all time.
~

Sky Blue on A Winter Day

Living in a high volume technological world adds a thread of vulnerability to our way of life. Interactively connected, world to world, that which unites quickly divides. Each hour our electrical power had been disrupted proved only of our greater dependence upon means from which we have little control. I rolled through the many emotions first of maintaining a safe quarters to coming to terms with the isolation that quickly surrounds you. The first day came with a set of withdrawal symptoms as if our worlds truly had been divided.
The following day I felt numb, not from the loss of power to the every day chores of life, what I was experiencing was more than a mere infraction upon my lifestyle, it was withdrawal from the explosion of this newly created world. The interference with our world to world bond only proved how powerful the outside connection which tightened the grip upon our lives had become. The utility companies quickly arrived and examined the situation as they proceeded to bring some order to the last few days. It was at this time I escaped into my bedroom as I began to read I fell into a sense of clam as I reviewed the magic of our love which no power, technological or otherwise could divide. Pen in hand the ink flowed across the paper. The words were a blend of emotion from the battle to retain to a cuddling warmth of succession. Not sure if it was merely memories that bridged the moment or the energy of the soul which spanned all time and place. All I was sure of was as the words appeared the reality of what is took its rightful place in my heart to whisper of love.

Fate took a mountain and sailed it out at sea,

as the whispers of memory sent your love to me.

~

Powerful such energy to ignite our love and as quick as flashing lights unseen barriers tighten like a glove.

~

The bond of love strengthened as it weaved

the golden sun lit color and the blue of the sea.

~

Winter

Winter approached with fury and a game of misery to play, but it didn't count on love to repave the way. Sings > Whispers of memory, whispers of love, calmed my soul and sent your dreams to hug. La la la la, la la la la you stayed with me and we caught winter by surprise and turned it into spring as we watched the sun rise. la la la la , la la la la We caught winter by surpise and turned it into spring as we watched the sunrise.

Mornin...

Sings>I don’t need a reason and I don’t need a rhyme, to tell you how much I love you, it’s all been soul defined. I don’t need a certain blue bird, to send to you all my love, I convinced the clouds to embrace from heaven above.

There is something special as I hold on to you, you chase away all darkness to only let sunshine through. I felt it in the eve, when the stars were shining bright, I felt it in my heart where you were holdin on so tight.

I don’t need a reason and I don’t need a rhyme, to tell you how much I love you, it’s all been soul defined. I don’t need a certain blue bird to send you all my love, I convinced the clouds to embrace from heaven above.
~

Hold tight the carousel is on full speed,

round and round we go.

The beginning of Autumn

The more I see, the more I know,

the more I know , the more I realize,

the more I realize, the more I understand.

~

There is sadness in every goodbye,

but the magic is in every hello.

Friendship

It takes one smile to erase all the tears, one mountain to remove all the fear. Each moment I share with you replaces the darkness with new shades of blue.

It takes the love of a friend to place the heart on the road and amend. No sorrow, no sadness nor darkness at bay, some how your love repaired what time couldn't fade.

Waiting on the sun with you...

It's a sunless morning, until I met up with you
and I quite can't explain it, your warmth was
still remaining from yesterday's smile.

I was still waiting for the sunrise, until I heard
from you, and deep down inside it was to my
surprise, the sun light came shining through.

... and I speak of love.

When the chill of loneliness drapes over the meadows of despair,
is when I desperatly race to your side to feel the embrace of love.
~
What do I ask of your love ? I ask only that you command the heavens to embrace the night and allow the stars to shine brightly as a reminder of the power of our union.

What do I expect of your love ? I expect only that on the darkest of days the joy of life which you have infused upon my soul will cradle the moment between the earth and the never ending sky.

What do I desire of your love? I desire only to rest peacefully within your arms, rest my head against the warmth of your body and listen as the beat of your heart breaks all silence.
~

I accept only that the passage long
and winding leads to your heart.

Quince

Two hearts, One Love

I question neither the moment nor the experience...

for the beauty of expression is in the conquest of love.

Burn Yea Flame

Energy ungrounded, soul in despair, awaits your presence, as I am needing you here. A world in motion, separate from one, draws a clear image of what needs to be done. Clouds fallen, close to the earth, invitational message to see your worth. The vision appearing over the sea, heart and spirit, love and a dream. The chosen path ignited a fire, causing a blaze to grow by the hour.
~
He reeks of poison which confronts the soul, weighing with a heaviness and the evilest of hold. Weakened and weary I gasp for a breath, to complete a journey and rid life of the mess. I know that your here in the still of night, when the darkness surrounds me, you give me the light.

~

When the stars rule the heavens and lights the dark of night,

I promise to be waiting if takes the battle of my life.

~
... as the gap in the miles close,

distant be your flesh, and close be your heart.

I love you...hold on!