My Soul on canvas, "Pictorial Prose": FRAGILE OR SIMPLY SOFTENED WITH FAITH?

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

FRAGILE OR SIMPLY SOFTENED WITH FAITH?

Fragile as a China doll that sits upon the shelf !

I thought about my weakness and strength's that appeared over the years. Determination is based on decisions and there is a time and place for everything. I view life through a varied faucet of crystal ,it constantly morphs depending on the refraction of light. Therefore each interpetation of a situation is unique to the moment of quest that searches to understand.. The difference in which the mind conceives each conflict shakes the inner soul. The old adage "let your conscience be your guide" There were times that a curtain of darkness blackened my choices, a lapse in judgement found me drowning in my own indecisiveness. Frightened as the shadow behind me reminds me of how many times I stumbled rather then stood tall to face off my own demons. In my heart there was no doubt what I felt, how I saw life and the right and wrongs of choice . Challenging the tears that forever drip with sadness , I battle a lifetime of misinterpretation of my own reflection.Was it weak to not flee or was it stronger to hang on to what I knew till I was strenghtened with time.
No perfection in the movement of the rivers quake, the movement of the water dances to the memories of the past. I did not hold to yesterday nor see tomorrow, I was keeping my head above the water. Each semblance of decision as minimal as it seems directed a path that sent detours through life.Circling and circling till a gate opened and I stumbled on my own truth. The lessons of life carried their own burden ,as all is so dependent on the choice of the moment.

The China doll appears fragile but the polished bisque is stronger then one would imagine. Fallen from the shelf it lays shaken a fine hair line crack run along the arm of the weakened bisque. A curtain opens am I holding on to you or are you holding on to m?.The hands of the clock cannot be moved backward nor will the bisque ever be the same but it can be repaired. The choices were not evident nor was Simplicity the title of life.

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There are many things I cannot change and many questions that lay unanswered. I am so sorry I wasn't stronger sooner.

1 comment:

John said...: Don't be sorry as that slows you down, just stand like I know you can, and don't wait to build tomorrow stronger.; 3:06 PM

Light Up The Cloud

Light up the cloud,
the dance floor is ours,
if only to hold you
for a little while.

Your heart to mine,
rhythmic they beat,
spinning in circles
to memories.

Light up the cloud,
the dance floor is ours,
if only to hold you
for a little while.

Stars above us,
in the night of calm,
where we dance as one
all night long.

Light up the cloud,
the dance floor is ours,
if only to hold you
for a little while.

Your lips of sweet,
pressed gently to mine,
sharing a moment
please stand still time.

Light up the cloud,
the dance floor is ours,
if only to hold you
for a little while.

Not Only in My Dreams

Singing>I wanna hold you forever, I wanna make dreams come true.I wanna love you like no other and make you love me to.Not only in my dreams....no! no! Not only for a day, no! no! I wanna create our eternity, where you are holding me.

I wanna feel you inside me, I wanna dance the night away.I wanna make you need me .... the way that I need you....Not only in my dreams....no! no! Not only for a day, no! no!. I wanna create our eternity , where you are holding on to me.

Not only in my dreamssss

Lyrics by Rachel Charlotte Miller

The Dance in the clouds

Welcome to Prose, my daily escape, where sweet fantasy mingles with reality, to create the magical land of romance.
Dreams.....

1.
a succession of images, thoughts, or emotions passing through the mind during sleep.
2.
the sleeping state in which this occurs.
3.
an object seen in a dream.
4.
an involuntary vision occurring to a person when awake.
5.
a vision voluntarily indulged in while awake; daydream; reverie.
6.
an aspiration; goal; aim: A trip to Europe is his dream.
7.
a wild or vain fancy.
8.
something of an unreal beauty, charm, or excellence. –verb (used without object)
9.
to have a dream.
10.
to indulge in daydreams or reveries: He dreamed about vacation plans when he should have been working.
11.
to think or conceive of something in a very remote way (usually fol. by of): I wouldn't dream of asking them. –verb (used with object)
12.
to see or imagine in sleep or in a vision.
13.
to imagine as if in a dream; fancy; suppose.
14.
to pass or spend (time) in dreaming (often fol. by away): to dream away the afternoon. –adjective
15.
most desirable; ideal: a dream vacation. —Verb phrase
16.
dream up, to form in the imagination; devise: They dreamed up the most impossible plan.
Close your eyes and open your heart, and step into my world where the clouds carry us through the night sky to the awaiting sun lit mornings. ...

Soul Mates

Most people relate to the study of Greek mythology, the magical stories of the heavens and the gods that ruled them. Zeus the God of Gods, ruler of the universe struck bolts of thunder down upon mortal man. The myth that humans were combined of four arms and four legs and a single head made of two faces which struck fear into the Gods, caused Zeus to split them in half. Zeus Condemned split souls to spend eternity searching for the other half that would complete them giving them the energy and power.
In our modern day era there is all kinds of talk of searching for soul mates, a loosely used term for finding the person who has the perfect fit. Soul mates could be defined as very dear friends who have a strong bond, two people who walk in harmony, a life lasting connection, spiritual companions, twin flames that burn as one, one that has an extreme , positive influence over another or in a more romantic way some have referred to soul mates as the reuniting of
split souls.
There is no doubt in my mind that an energy does exist between people, on a scientific note, they would break it down to mere adrenaline. I believe soul mates are much deeper, it is the equilibrium that causes an inner balance of happiness.
In our society there are the expected norms, dating marriage, love an life that we are somehow predestined to perform. As you look around you find that rarely do people find such a perfection connection. In my mind is a view of all the perfect weddings that I had attended to find that very few lasted the miles.
In the bonding of a soul mate, both must be standing on common ground, that which feels comfortable and in a state of normalcy. Each knows the others moments of weakness as well as days of strength and brings out the best in all situations. The positive cognation from one partner to the next creates a platform of encouragement, promoting one to strive for better, to create a desire.
In a bond of two inner spirits there is no demand set upon the souls, but an understanding that speaks without words. Emotions rise up from the flames to possess the energy of desire and create lasting moments that lift and bond two into one.
What is the possibility that two people will find such a positive energy of attraction, both in the spiritual and physical sense? I can address no formal number to the combination of a puzzle that interlocks two souls.
Do I believe soul mates exist? I in every sense of the word believe there is a connection from one human to another that is above the normal expectation. The interaction of souls is rare and gifted with trust, respect, faith and love. The crucial ingredients must be met with self first before they can be shared with another human being. Standing at the gateway of self respect, allow faith and the trust in oneself guide you to Love.