My Soul on canvas, "Pictorial Prose": I ask the Lord that I be loved the way I love... and the Lord sent me you!

Friday, January 04, 2008

I ask the Lord that I be loved the way I love... and the Lord sent me you!

Difficult when people look at life as if something must come to an end, I see it as a continuing saga. The truth is life is much like dominoes and we lean one upon the other to find our way. I myself had felt tears of sadness as I looked back in review at the years. Speaking with my long time friend this evening, she asked me if I had stayed in the city would my life be different? Every step, every path lead us in different directions but I believe it is like a hound chasing a rabbit you always come back to where you were meant to be, even if means running in circles.

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I have come to terms with the reality of what is and yet I still felt an unsettling of a sort. I had wondered if at some point we were attracted to certain personalities because of our own weakness or strengths. I tried to remember what the young teenager saw in making a commitment at such a young age. I can honestly say there was a big desire to please. I had always felt the need to bring a smile to those around me and of course the big need to be wanted... ever so important. In many ways I felt as if we were growing and exploring together to find that there is truth to one partner out growing the other. Reaching beyond our abilities or settling for becomes and intermittent behavior that is some how lost as we try to find who we are, what are our desires and where in the bigger picture do we belong.
Comfort zone we all know it we all have been down that path, accepting what is whether it be an inappropriate action or not. This I am sure of the timing is for an all important reason. " I wish I had met you first" If we had met earlier in our lives, we would not be the people we are , would we have been better off or worse is to be seen. But this timing comes with a reasoning of its own. As we explore we get a better understanding of who we are, what are our needs and what is important in our life. I know that the day I met you it was meant to be, at that very moment, at that split second when you said hello and I answered. It is as if we spent our lives building up to this very moment.
I do not regret the past for I now know who I am , who you are and why we are here...... I love you with all my heart and all of my soul . From today forward I promise to give to you the same respect you have given to me and I vow my love for you for all eternity.

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Light Up The Cloud

Light up the cloud,
the dance floor is ours,
if only to hold you
for a little while.

Your heart to mine,
rhythmic they beat,
spinning in circles
to memories.

Light up the cloud,
the dance floor is ours,
if only to hold you
for a little while.

Stars above us,
in the night of calm,
where we dance as one
all night long.

Light up the cloud,
the dance floor is ours,
if only to hold you
for a little while.

Your lips of sweet,
pressed gently to mine,
sharing a moment
please stand still time.

Light up the cloud,
the dance floor is ours,
if only to hold you
for a little while.

Not Only in My Dreams

Singing>I wanna hold you forever, I wanna make dreams come true.I wanna love you like no other and make you love me to.Not only in my dreams....no! no! Not only for a day, no! no! I wanna create our eternity, where you are holding me.

I wanna feel you inside me, I wanna dance the night away.I wanna make you need me .... the way that I need you....Not only in my dreams....no! no! Not only for a day, no! no!. I wanna create our eternity , where you are holding on to me.

Not only in my dreamssss

Lyrics by Rachel Charlotte Miller

The Dance in the clouds

Welcome to Prose, my daily escape, where sweet fantasy mingles with reality, to create the magical land of romance.
Dreams.....

1.
a succession of images, thoughts, or emotions passing through the mind during sleep.
2.
the sleeping state in which this occurs.
3.
an object seen in a dream.
4.
an involuntary vision occurring to a person when awake.
5.
a vision voluntarily indulged in while awake; daydream; reverie.
6.
an aspiration; goal; aim: A trip to Europe is his dream.
7.
a wild or vain fancy.
8.
something of an unreal beauty, charm, or excellence. –verb (used without object)
9.
to have a dream.
10.
to indulge in daydreams or reveries: He dreamed about vacation plans when he should have been working.
11.
to think or conceive of something in a very remote way (usually fol. by of): I wouldn't dream of asking them. –verb (used with object)
12.
to see or imagine in sleep or in a vision.
13.
to imagine as if in a dream; fancy; suppose.
14.
to pass or spend (time) in dreaming (often fol. by away): to dream away the afternoon. –adjective
15.
most desirable; ideal: a dream vacation. —Verb phrase
16.
dream up, to form in the imagination; devise: They dreamed up the most impossible plan.
Close your eyes and open your heart, and step into my world where the clouds carry us through the night sky to the awaiting sun lit mornings. ...

Soul Mates

Most people relate to the study of Greek mythology, the magical stories of the heavens and the gods that ruled them. Zeus the God of Gods, ruler of the universe struck bolts of thunder down upon mortal man. The myth that humans were combined of four arms and four legs and a single head made of two faces which struck fear into the Gods, caused Zeus to split them in half. Zeus Condemned split souls to spend eternity searching for the other half that would complete them giving them the energy and power.
In our modern day era there is all kinds of talk of searching for soul mates, a loosely used term for finding the person who has the perfect fit. Soul mates could be defined as very dear friends who have a strong bond, two people who walk in harmony, a life lasting connection, spiritual companions, twin flames that burn as one, one that has an extreme , positive influence over another or in a more romantic way some have referred to soul mates as the reuniting of
split souls.
There is no doubt in my mind that an energy does exist between people, on a scientific note, they would break it down to mere adrenaline. I believe soul mates are much deeper, it is the equilibrium that causes an inner balance of happiness.
In our society there are the expected norms, dating marriage, love an life that we are somehow predestined to perform. As you look around you find that rarely do people find such a perfection connection. In my mind is a view of all the perfect weddings that I had attended to find that very few lasted the miles.
In the bonding of a soul mate, both must be standing on common ground, that which feels comfortable and in a state of normalcy. Each knows the others moments of weakness as well as days of strength and brings out the best in all situations. The positive cognation from one partner to the next creates a platform of encouragement, promoting one to strive for better, to create a desire.
In a bond of two inner spirits there is no demand set upon the souls, but an understanding that speaks without words. Emotions rise up from the flames to possess the energy of desire and create lasting moments that lift and bond two into one.
What is the possibility that two people will find such a positive energy of attraction, both in the spiritual and physical sense? I can address no formal number to the combination of a puzzle that interlocks two souls.
Do I believe soul mates exist? I in every sense of the word believe there is a connection from one human to another that is above the normal expectation. The interaction of souls is rare and gifted with trust, respect, faith and love. The crucial ingredients must be met with self first before they can be shared with another human being. Standing at the gateway of self respect, allow faith and the trust in oneself guide you to Love.