I Treasure Each Moment With You

Where there is a why, there's a how

The young fruits of the peach tree now document a time through memories. Glancing up beyond the branches I stood still and breathtakingly took in the blue sky. Was it that I was missing you or that the sky to was a reminder of what we share? Like an umbrella blanketing over the earth, I realized that all that which was around me was a moment waiting to be shared. I promised no tears, but feelings of despair weighed in heavily. What is truly the goal, what is it we seek? I continuously questioned myself. If I could run at this very moment it would be into your arms, to feel your love embrace like no embrace that I had ever confronted. I wiped away the tears and I watched the dancing of leaves that looked like a well conducted performance of the tree's of the hollow. Stop I shouted! and the wind looked surpised, I have someone special that I charted in my heart and my mind. I want him to feel my kisses tonight and I want my love to reach him from high. The wind responded with a roar through the trees and all of sudden he conjured a breeze "step aboard the clouds with ease and I'll blow you into his arms beyond the mountain of trees." I smiled and I laughed as the wind wonderful and warm brushed against my heart and raced like a storm. " I'm on my way to give him your love, to land in his heart from the clouds up above. Happy and wonderful the hills seem to bow and I knew at that moment where there's a why, there's a how.

Rambles

The garden is a paradise in itself, with it comes an understanding and a respect for the lessons of Mother Nature. She teaches us about the calm before the storm, growth, blooms, heartache, faith, hope, desire and the lessons are ongoing. Today was a mixture of thunder storms, high winds and sunshine, it seem to stir a varied amount of emotions. After the storm we see clearly that the strong rooted and most healthiest of plants stood the storm better then the new weakened plants that had not yet grabbed root and collapsed with the pounding of heavy rain. The Peonies are preparing to bloom, I find the buds as beautiful as the blooms them self and have learned to respect all stages of its growth from the moment it breaks the earths crust to it reaches its full bloom.

I feel distant today, partly I find that I have done just a bit to much daydreaming and also that I am trying to bring some order to my thoughts and remind myself of my early in the year, New years Resolution and that was "to be honest with self through all that transposes. " I had wondered was life indeed like nature, all answers carefully hidden awaiting like a treasure chest to be found and the jewels exposed?

Bringing order into a life that had been in a disarray for many years is more difficult then one can imagine, I find my head spinning as I wonder what direction I should be heading. As puzzling as nature can be, I also find the heart to be a big puzzle, not necessarily in the same way. The heart is made up many pieces, just like chapters in a story, various kinds of love and those we love. I tried not to look at the pieces of the heart as a measurement of size but to find the place where they belong and accept the beauty of difference. It tends to lean towards organizing emotions, not lessoning the value of them, but understanding and also understanding that we cannot be responsible for the thoughts and dreams of others but only our own.

I looked back over the last thirty years and I see that much of it had teetered on the goals of the future that somehow collapsed over the years. I found myself treading in waters unidentified and somehow camoflauged but having the texture of quick sand. One foot in and I felt consumed by all that was happening. How was it these walls were built and was I responsible for mortering the brick? I had to question my part or the lack of it and the final outcome.

I looked at what it was I truly needed, or maybe what it was I wanted and I found it all to be clouded, with life comes death and with death an end. I looked around of that which had become my home the children rafting in the stream , the dog laying beneath my feet and the flowers from the garden setting on the table next to me. Enriched with a simplistic beauty and yet lacking something more , what was it that I truly needed to bring or fulfill the completeness that the soul so requires?The answers seem to flow like the stream into the river... in a partnership we seek friendship, I shall turn to you in time of need, but also in time of want to express and share my love for you. Respect, I will not fail to respect you and view life through your eyes as you view through mine. I will keep in confidence that which speaks without words but embraces with the heart. I will keep my mind open and listen to all that you have to say, who you are, your goals and all thoughts that make up your spirit. I will be honest with myself an allow that honesty to flourish within our relationship. I will promise to be better, for myself and for you so that we may enjoy all is we have to give of each other. I will continue to grow and experience and in doing so turn to you to share as we journey forward. I will express gratitude for all that you are and all that you are to me. I will find joy in each morning and a warmth each night and I will savor the smiles that we are able to give each other. The ever importance of touch, I will embrace from a distance further then the stars in the sky or the mountains that expand the miles. I will always love and recieve love and never question such beauty. I will see in you, what you see me, the bonded reflection of love

When love comes home...

The sun had already set, but it was one of those evenings where there was neither wind nor chill of night. It seemed almost perfect until the dogs became spooked by the owls that had gathered in the trees along side the winding stream. As I hushed to them to settle, I sat back to take in the rather calm and yet very much alive sounds of the hollow. It seemed to be a relaxing end to a rather busy day.
Today had the the effects of a question and answer session. How much does one person feel for another and how much would you do to share totally with a individual to complete a experience of passion and spirit. I closed my eyes and allowed the fragrance of the scattered Bouncing Bets to seep deeply, almost as if the deep hint of sweet floral were saturating the whole garden. Peaceful, I can't remember the last evening that ever had such a tranquil effect over me. What seemed to be the drapes of nature closing in to create a calm, was only complimented by the completeness I was feeling at that very moment.
I had never imagined a love so pure that it could conquer all evil, so simplistic it could see between the varied shades of color to bring definition to the moment. There I was standing alone, the trees appeared to inch closer almost as if I was cradled in their embrace. Somehow I felt an acceptance of being, beginnings and closures all seemed to mingle in a twine like that of wisteria growing tightly as it wrapped around everything in its path. I stood there not able to move in any direction and I absorbed all that is. At that very moment I realized the tears of a lifetime had finally dried and I no longer felt a sadness for the past. It wasn't a matter of acceptance that I combated, more of awareness and a deeper sharing of individuality as the bond of spirits, strengthens and finds the ultimate pleasure in sharing.
An ever so slight smile broke the stillness of night as my thoughts like many times before drifted to the warmth of your embrace. I stood there and I questioned nothing, love, so kind and wonderful had made its way forever into my heart and I reached into the darkness and I knew wherever you were and whatever you were doing you were reaching back.

All I know

Sings>All I know...

All I know is what I see,
blue skies in every dream.
Your arms around me and
life is how it should be.
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All I know is how I feel,
spinning around like a kids
pinwheel. Fast and faster I
will go, I doubt my heart
will ever slow.
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All I know is what I hear,
music that courts the ear.
Love and laughter every
where and songs of passion
fill the air.
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All I know is what I taste,
life sweet and hearts that
baste, magic with a hint of
faith and memories that
slowly bake.
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All I know is where we go
above the clouds is a romance
show, side by side we lay,
you and I everyday.
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All I know is that your mine,
in my heart and by myside,
souls soar to find the place
where love can dine.

Wild Rose

The muskrat swims the resevoir, the turtles bask in the sun
and the wild roses cascade over the hills, while spiders webs are spun.
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Magical the moment it placed me in your embrace and brought your
love so close, I feel like we are face to face.
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So wonderful a feeling, overflows with joy, heart to heart touch forever
to be enjoyed.
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Lost Charm - Beyond The Sea

Harmony

It is pretty amazing what you can sense in another person, through voice, response and lack of response. But this guessing game only promotes the building of a wall call misinterpretation. The imagination can be the tool for positive as well as negative emotions and only through communication can we rise above with the ability to not place ourself in judgement of another. If avoidance exposes itself and pain digs a hole and fear surfaces from what remained a soul, then darkness has gained and tumble shall we, to the existence of evil that keeps the heart from remaining free.
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Allow the guidance of love to bring you closer into my heart

and the joy of happiness to place you next to my soul.

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My heart is heavy, what it i sense...