Spring Cleaning

 Advice " don't let your emotions rule"  It took me years to actually understand what that meant. I have always at an awareness of others or at least I thought I did. Not understanding where someone is coming from can lead you into a web that is difficult but not impossible to get out of. I am not sure if I have hardened or just learned to put emotions aside. I find that this emotional detachment helps me get through the day, where at one point it was the opposite and I was hanging on to a dream. I had that awareness of people early on. I thought about how adults felt when I was 7 and 8 yrs old. I guess that is why I was the pleaser. Pleasing others gave a sense of peace well to the surroundings but not to the inner soul.  In this time of solitude  it is much different. I have learned to find peace within myself without relying on others. 

I was looking through photo albums of those who smiled the most and realized they were the least to be happy. There is irony in that ...put on a happy face. It is funny you really never stop learning. If you do, you are not longer alive. 

This is the time of no stress and conflict, no want need and yet the world is ruled by the anger of mother nature and man made wars. The ugliness seems far away at the moment or does it , for it is tree everyone has at least one story. Loss, emptiness, financial, heartache blah, blah, blah. 

Doing some spring cleaning and getting rid of the overly accumulated objects that are no longer necessary or as they say no longer bring me joy. Maybe we should do that with memories and thought , spring clean and get rid of what no longer brings us joy. The world would be a whole lot easier. 

Enjoying the warm weather, I promise to never to complain how warm it is after this awfully cold winter. There were a lot of goodbyes over the years like a seed in the wind blowing them away. My emotions no longer rule .