Pictorial Prose

Pictorial Prose
Indulging my most lucid daydreams

Saturday, May 30, 2009

I Can Dream..

I always believed there was a certain amount of peace that is attainable by bringing a sense of balance to life. In my youth my goals were rather simple, to live within the guidelines set by my soul. I thought my goals were quite within reach and that I could achieve it by making steps forward one at a time. I compared the depth of my thinking from the various periods of my life and the one consistent property that I battled for was structure. My life had detoured from the goals I preset for myself, as I continued on a journey aloof of my dreams. 

The journey had become a part of the process of developing the mind. What appeared to be inequitable decisions along the path,  in themselves became lessons leading the spirit in various directions. Again I thought about my goals and what was attainable. What is it I truly seek to accomplish or experience? There were the obvious that the outsiders viewed, such as house, children, etc. I saw very little of the material things in life to be an accomplishment, that which I seek is the inner peace that quiets the soul. 

Each morning I open my eyes to the visions which brings clarity to my life.  My thoughts surrounded with the images of the beauty of love. There is a certain amount of energy that is absorbed and it performs as it directs through a motivational course. Guided by love, I challenge each waking moment as I explore the possibilities of such a powerful devotion to the emotions created from pure love. 

There are the obvious sequence of events which literally become the stepping stones throughout life. In one aspect, the journey would be incomplete with out each experience and the adjustments necessary to stand back and view and again alter the plan or the bigger picture.  

There has always been the variables, the clusters of survival of the moment, kind of like a paradox, one which leads to happiness and struggles through a certain amount of sadness. The key is in removing the anchors which were so heavily placed within the journey. It is those who choose to companion with the soul, who have the ability to unlock the path of destiny and release the energy of the spirit. 

I Can Dream

It doesn't take a river to flow my love to you, I can dream about tomorrow and all that we can make come true. If balance be the master than the blue sky is for two, a little bit for me and a little bit for you. I am confident we'll make it, the reality is a blaze as our hearts merge together to create the ultimate flame. There is no fear where you are concerned, I am focusing on the fire, as I gaze into your heart it gives to life the power.

My gratitude is for the happiness you bring, you taught my heart to laugh again, you taught my soul to sing. I  surface beyond the dark of night and the morning gray and with your love I dance and dance until I have danced the day away. Extending my hand, come and walk with me, we'll make it over the mountains, we'll brace for the rough of the sea, we'll challenge every moment,  through all that life can bring. The dance upon the heavens, to feel your warm embrace, to love you forever and on your soul my love i'll  trace. 


It's been said that everyday can't be lived in a state of romance. Romance isn't something we desire to create, it is the souls display of emotion. It's smiling at the sunshine, dancing in the wind, the kiss of life from the moment you walked in. The wonder of your embrace, the magic of your smile, the happiness you bring me from across the miles. 

I went for my morning stroll down to ten mile creek, as usual I took my camera to capture the beauty of nature. I stopped for the first photograph to only find that I had forgotten the chip. At first I was disappointed in that I wouldn't be able to share all that I was experiencing in the early morning, until I stopped and took in all the sites through the many senses. 

Even before I caught sight of the delicately cascading wild roses as they arched from the lower branches of the elm trees, I was enthralled by the heirloom fragrance. The soft sweet smell of the wild roses had a seduction of its own,one that seem to summon me closer as my mind felt the calming of the moment. 

 A pair of mating ducks nestled amongst the new season of dancing cattail in the wind, their long stems snapping back and forth.. The ducks startled let out a call and took flight to the cloudless blue sky. The further I walked, the closer to paradise I became. The air was  filled with the sounds of the migrating song birds and the kiss of the suns rays,peace had surfaced. A few of the song birds chose the shrubs near the reservoir to build their nest, other birds high atop the trees could only be identified by the beauty of  their sweet song.

 I sat on the log down by the water, fish were jumping and the kingfisher perched on a branch over the waters, waiting the time to dive in for his prey. The train hummed from a near distance and the melodic sounds of nature came together in a symphony like performance, one that echoed the beauty of life. 

As I started for the return back home, I had realized all that we encompass becomes a part of the experience, from the extension of memories to the hope for the future. I gathered the visions, the sounds and the touch to my soul and stored it in my heart to retrieve at any moment. 


No one can bring us happiness they can only 

encourage the release of the magic from within.


I had this dream, the characters vivid and yet I can't bring forward the actions as it is both distant and close. I was outside my comfort zone in a place I had never been. The quality was not surreal, but had a clarity in the sense that it was and everyday moment in a not so everyday place. It was as if my deepest secrets and the passion of my love was placed in a setting that I could sense beyond the dream itself.  

The dream enabled me to bring you closer and share not only my day but the magic of our love...I needed your love, I needed to feel your touch, I needed you beside me and the dreams of love brought the dance floor from the heavens, so that I could whispers the words, I love you so very much. 


Sings>I heard the song of love in the air, I heard the words, I love you dear. The sun has set and the moon we can find as the stars take their place in the blue of the sky. I felt the magic that comes from life, the spells of love cast from morning through night. I see just how life can be as long as your here to journey with me. 

I heard the song of love in the air, I heard the words, I love you dear. The sun has set and the moon we can find, as the stars take their place in the blue of the sky. Dreams are a tool of the heart , to bridge the love from afar. It closes the distance as it brings you near and does it all with out one trait of fear. 

I heard the song of love in the air, I heard the words, I love you dear. The sun has set and the moon we can find, as the stars take their place in the blue of the sky. No tears in darkness, no sorrow you'll find as I hold to this moment in time. My pillow fluffed for you and I as we embrace with heart soul and mind. 

I heard the song of love in the air, I heard the words, I love you dear. The sun has set and the moon we can find, as the stars take their place in the blue of the sky. Close your eyes and I'll kiss you goodnight, hold me close and allow your heart the sight. Only love like ours can see the beauty of every magical dream

GOOD NIGHT MY LOVE, romancing with passion empowers

 the dreams to bring you as close as my best memory. 

Friday, May 29, 2009

Behind Those Rain Clouds

Are emotions responsible for tears behind the eyes? What are our emotions? The dictionary states it as an affective state of consciousness in which joy, sorrow, fear, hate, or the like, is experienced, as distinguished from cognitive and volitional states of consciousness. The tears are the lingering emotions which have not been reasoned with. I thought about the first time I realize they existed and it occurred to me it was from the very first time I held back my emotions and allowed others to lead me, rather than standing up for myself. I believe our response to life masters all emotions.
I leaned back in my comfy desk chair and gazed out the window. The rain had given the hills a weepy dark green canvas, one which seem to reach out and pull me into the world of dreams. The darkened sky and the heavy rains set the mood and I felt as if fell into the pit of what if, what if , what if? What if I had found the courage to stand up for what I believe sooner, what differences in my life, what changes might have occurred? Would the inevitable have been sooner? So many questions, so few answers.
My body quivered from the chill which raced through my body. The path traveled revealed my own weakness and through the ongoing journey allowed me to experience as I strengthened from my inner spirit out. I could since sense a mild case of tears behind the eyes and I held back from speaking out loud as I wondered to myself, what do they mean? what do they represent? As if a book had opened in front of me and there was a list, my beliefs, needs, wants, desire, and happiness and on the opposite page was the beliefs, needs, wants, desire and happiness of everyone else. As we move forward we realize we are students of life, experiencing the lessons of a long and winding journey.

Delicately entwined are the colors of life.

Behind those rain clouds...

Behind those rain clouds, beyond each drop of rain, the sun is still shining on this dark day. The blue bird singing, I'm listening to him now, he sings about the blue beyond those dark clouds.
Behind those rain clouds, beyond each drop of rain, the sun is still shining on this dark day. I felt it in my heart, with just the thought of you and it made me smile at the baby sky blue.
Behind those rain clouds, beyond each drop of rain, the sun is still shining on this dark day. I saw it in your eyes, the reflection of your soul, took my heart and made a really tight hold.
Behind those rain clouds, beyond each drop of rain, the sun is still shining on this dark day. Felt your kisses sent via the wind and it touched my spirit from deep within.
Behind those rain clouds, beyond each drop of rain, the sun is still shining on this dark day. Painted a rainbow, clear across the sky, to connect our love through the heart, soul and mind.
Behind those rain clouds, beyond each drop of rain, the sun is still shining on this dark day. It is the moment, your warm embrace, as your love cascades through the sun rays.


Thursday, May 28, 2009

love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love...

When your love surfaced,I was taken my surprise, my world took on a different hue and to my heart a sign.Love the ventriloquist, the world became its tool, mountains and rivers they all fell to your control. 
Closing my eyes to allow my heart to see 
the beauty of life when you are here with me.

In Love is the vulnerability of allowing 
someone so close that there is no divsion between the souls. 
He who wiped the tears brought eternal sunshine into my life. 
The touching of flesh compares
 little to the embrace of hearts
 and the bonding of souls.

...holds you close and whispers the words of love. 

There shall be no greater love than that which is
returned through the heart to continue the journey.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

... where the streams come together.

     Pure of heart is the willingness
      to allow the soul vision. 
Each bloom races to document a moment,
 like the beauty of love as it embraces each day. 
We come across the most amazing gifts in life,
 when and where we least expect it.  

The beauty of freedom comes with 
the privilege to exercise our rights. 

                                                                 Simplicity is heaven...
    The graceful bloom of the Fushia reminds me
 how fragile and yet beautiful life is. 
                                                         Smiling and sending xox.

The narrow view is widened as we open our
hearts and fearlessly journey forward.
As the stream carved the hills creating a display of beauty,
so has your love braided my heart and soul in a flow of unity.
Sings>I'm knocking on the forever door,
anxious to explore, our forevermore,
you and I.
Step by step direct to you,
your arms were open when
I walked through. Dancing
throughout life, with the
partner who touched me
from deep inside.
I'm knocking on the forever door,
anxious to explore, our forevermore,
you and I.
Unleash the many dreams,with love
both heart and soul sing. The power
of such love is found dancing from
the heavens down. Hold my hand
and dance with me, let it out and let
it sing, let your heart close to me.
I'm knocking on the forever door,
anxious to explore, our forevermore,
you and I.
Whispers>I'm knocking on the forever door, anxious to explore, our forevermore, you and I.

...in the sweetness of your caress.

Let's Take The Day Off
I just want to spend my day with you,
there is nothing particular that we would
need to do. To feel your hand interlocked
with mine, in hopes the wedge would slow
the hands of time.
I just want to spend my day with you,
skipping rocks or laying around gazing
at the blue. To feel each beat of your heart,
as your love inside me ignites a spark.
I just want to spend my day with you,
there is nothing more I'd want to do. In
the mountains or down by shore each
moment is just waiting to be explored.
I just want to spend my day with you,
sharing in all that we do. One look into
those sweet eyes would melt this
heart of mine.
I just want to spend my day with you,
twenty fours just won't do. Let's make
this time last forever, our love flows
like the longest river.
I just want to spend my day with you,
can you imagine all we could do? We
could sit out back and share a lemonade
and laugh giggle in a child like escapade.
I just want to spend my day with you,
to see all that love can do. The simple
sweet moments of life are honey
soaked and wonderfully bright.
I just want to spend my day with you,
all curled in your arms and loving you.
Listening to the rain dropsfall, or simply
doing nothing at all.
I just want to spend my day with you, i'll
fluff pillow to share my life with you. From
the morning we wake up till the stars kiss
down good night, I just want to spend my
day with you.
Runs as fast I can and leeps in to yours arms,
like a deer which gracefully crosses the stream.
I shan't let the drapes of darkness
block the sunshine of our life.

Sings>There are no needs of my heart,it can sense your love from a far. Feel the rhythm of each beat, to my soul a heavenly treat. There are no needs of my heart, it can sense your love from a far.

Rain, rain, falling down each drop makes a lovely sound.The music of the hollow sings love song for you and me. The leaves dance within the breeze as they conjure up new dreams. Rain, rain falling down, each drop makes a lovely sound

La la la Sings My Heart

I saw the shadows on the wall of life, it cast your silhouette, it cast it to my side. I felt your happiness and joy, I felt the darkness as my heart it toyed. La la la sings my heart, la la la sings my soul ,la la la in dance, la la la in your fold.

I felt the magic as it placed you in my arms, whispers words of love and gave to life a song. I saw it in the mountains as they laced the skies of blue, again in the valley where I danced all night with you. La la la sings my heart, la la la sings my soul, la la la in dance, la la la in your fold.
If simplicity has its way,
love will blanket the earth.
I don't think about what can be,
I think about what is.
The shadows were of body,
but I saw those of soul,
for your love crossed the
mountains and took a
forever hold.
If I could write the words of love and
scatter them in the blue, they would
block all rays of sunlight as they
bridged my love to you.
Time may change the stage upon which our lives begun,
but only love can build the platform in the heavens above.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

life and love on an amazing journey.

The dreams a doorway to hearing the beat 
of your heart and the sweetness of your embrace.

Every song echos your love.. heart and soul, 
I fell in love with you heart and soul.

Love fuels the heart with an absolute, to pleasure the heavens as we dance upon the blue. I return to you the experience found within the dream, the affection a strong reminder of what you mean to me. Intense are the emotions, ineffable desire as actions take center stage and feed each passing hour. Passion for the intimacy that the flesh might never know and surely for the love within that continues to grow. 
It is from the center of my being where the words first took command and announced the joy and mystic of a love which blankets over all the lands. Powerful are the motions, magical indeed as they lift the spirit beyond the tales of a common fantasy. I recognize the beauty it is with me when I awake and I fear if I open up my eyes the joy of love might fade. Saturated by desire, caught up in the dream it gives me hope that yesterday will encompass tomorrows spring. 
I laughed as I was introduced at the farmers market as Rachel, aka Autumn. I have met so many people I have begun to lose track of conversations and names etc. I am amazed at those who relish in the moment and carry it on to our tomorrow. I think there is a split in all of our personalities, rejoices as they come together to strengthen the spirit and fill the gaps of weakness. Rachel seeks the comfort of simplicity and Autumn she reached for the shore and walked the sand leaving behind a trail that documents the rise beyond the struggles. 

I feel your presence in all that I do and have felt
 your strength lift me to the celestial heavens. 

In celebration of our unity I rejoice that we are...

La la la I Love You

The words are written for all to see but the song of love is for you and me. Sings so that the mountains bow to our demands, as we embrace across all the lands.

 Sings>Place your fingers to my lips, feel the vibration of my kiss.My love for you, can be seen from sun lit mornings, through the midnight blue.

La la la sings the heart, la la la sings the soul,
la la la my darling, la la la I love you. 

Hold me close, don't let go,my heart beats for you, this much you must know. It was yours from the first day, you chased the darkness away. Hold me close, don't let go as I whisper I love you so, hold me close my darling, hold me close.

La la la sings the heart, la la la sings the souls,
la la la my darling , la la la  I love you.
Here in my heart is where the dreams are found,
as we dance in the heavens on the white puffy clouds.

My lips whispered of love,
 my heart embraced the beauty
 as my soul danced in your embrace. 
I love you so much...In the depth of my dreams, in the dark of night, when the stars in the sky shine. Each breath I take exhales to you a reminder of my love. In the depth of my dreams, in the dark of night, when the stars in the sky shine. I sing my darling of our everlasting love.

... till the end of this journey.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

One day when the sunrises...

I traced upon my pillow the letters of your name
and framed it with all my love to keep the magic

Scripted by the heavens, sent down onangels wings,
to introduce the heart and soul through the use of
kindred dreams.

Comforted by your memory, embraced with all your love,
the tenderness of the moment joined our hearts into one.

Powerful the emotion, amazing as can be, recording
every moment you shared with me.

Water flows through the river, its aim is out to sea,
my heart overflows with happiness from just one memory.

The wind changes direction no longer to the sea, the waves
rush to shore as my soul begins to sing.

The melody and enchantment of haunting memories,
taught my soul to hold to faith in a song we have yet to sing.

My eyes tear of loneliness and your love wiped each tear away,
as joy and happiness is all that shall remain.

~My heart was an empty vessel, no direction and no lead,until you placed your love aboard and set my soul free. ~Love is and unwritten combination, waiting to be unlocked. No words escape my lips, each written word is from the heart, directed the soul. ~... I shall move gently into your arms and feel the warmth of your embrace... my promise.Love is an extraordinary energy generated by desire on a platform of respect.
The True Essence of Love

If love is merely an emotion that the heart and soul capitalize on, than the same would be true for hate. What initiates the emotions of love to step in gear and flow through the heart? The Intense energy is generated by the visual and internal response to survival. Our need for companionship is ranked high, as we are aware of our social skills and our desire to share in the moment as it compliments our being.

Love is extremely powerful and in is true state it is capable of creating miracles of a sort. In the land of romance, it is known to be able to close the gap of distance, branch out in a state of euphoria, bring clarity or confusion to the mind.

On this very limited journey which we call life, we find we are confronted with many emotions. It is the simplicity which is guided by right and wrong which leads up either to a state of happiness or turmoil. Can you imagine or one moment if people considered the statement " if you think it is, it is" In reference to how we express ourselves and what it is we want to feel in

In the most magical of moments, there is no judgment, no age, no sadness, and through these moments we actually get to experience the simplified beauty and joy of love. I believe when like minds come together, the heart simply follows, it is not about a collection of choices it is about the comfort and excitement that comes when souls engage.


When I said I love you and you said you love me too
... at that moment I knew our love would remain true.

That which brought the most amount of joy is seen
through the soul and felt by the heart.... hold my hand.
Each day of the month, each month of a year, compounded my dreams to bring your love here. I wished and I waited and the time flew by as I dreamt of your arms under the blue of the sky.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

I need you...

The conflict between what we need and what we
want is in response to the hunger of both heart and soul.
The power of a smile is seen
through the images of love.

The stars Were Shining Bright

I woke in the night to the stars shining bright, I knew you weren't far, as we shared the same star. Awake till sunrise, I took it all in stride, I knew, you were here with me and you never left my side. All a glow, as if no one else could know the secrets of the heart, which you play the leading part. Love had found me here and erased all signs of despair, there is no letting go of the love which continues to grow. I dance for all to see, it's the gift you gave to me, the love that is always felt as each day you melt my heart. I woke in the night to the stars shining bright, I knew you weren't far, as we shared the same star. Awake till sunrise, I took it all in stride, I knew you were here with with me and you never left my side.
To share in the light of the stars,
to grasp the power of the sun,
is to feel the closeness of hearts,
as we meld from two into one.

I can't think about tomorrow, nor dwell on yesterday, the moment holds me captive in the dreams that never fade. I can see you clearly in the reflections of life, from the moment you entered my heart you lit the dark of night.

I keep on holding, I'm afraid of letting going, the shadows are following and I don't know which way to go. One fallen tear drop holds the memories and mixes it with desire to lead beyond the dreams.

Troubled spirits grasp for what they don't know, wandering in circles, troubled they fail to grow. Desire leads us to walls mountain high, if hadn't been for faith, I would have failed to seen the sign.

As I read on tobeme's blog about people needing people, I thought about the timing and the people who have come into my life and how it alters the journey. I have always enjoyed various styles of music and lyrics, they are so important in the way that they cross the many barriers to deliver their message. One that I find myself singing a good bit is " People, people who need people are the luckiest people in the world"
I attended commencement at Penn State today and as I looked on at the class of 2009 , I couldn't help but think of what the future holds for the hopeful. Looking back at my own life, I reviewed my own dreams of the past and the expectations that I held for myself. In one perspective the time passed so fast that I could hardly grasp the lessons from the experiences and in other ways it felt slow without the expected accomplishments. I teared a few times as I glanced over at my son in his cap and gown, there was a certain amount of pride to view a stage in the ongoing educational journey. It was as if time was documenting life with mile markers of achievement. Sometimes these mile markers are not part of the norm, occasionally our experiences of success and failure in our everyday journey open and close a chapter.
I myself have felt an unbalance in life, where I was strongly leading to one side or another. Why was it that some people seem to have a clearer path, no gravel, no brush, no mountains and others had one to many mountains to climb. My mind drifted back to the middle of the week, a woman stayed a bit to long to talk. Trying to get my work done, I kind of brushed her off a little. There were a few things that she said that really stuck with me, one was about her choices, her path, her journey. She said I really don't like it here in Greene County, but I am here cause through my experiences I can make a difference in others peoples life. She was once a hardcore drug user, who did many things to get her next high. Clean for the last fifteen years, she said I celebrate each day, but more importantly I gain strength and helping others to find their way and become strong. She went on to say, had she not had the experience but the education, she would never have known how to help others. I thought to myself that lesson to have to go through. She spun in a circle her hands in the air and she said " its okay to be me" After we finished in conversation she gave me a big hug, she said 'you know why you are here? You have been given an opportunity to experience and with your intelligence you are capable to express your emotions and that is your gift. Sharing in your experiences to help others" If I gained nothing from her conversation, the reality is that we do experience to learn, to gain strength. I thought about years back where I had only two choices, one was to be stagnant and suffocate so that I would drown in my own fear and the other option was to reach out. There have been several people along the way that somehow reached out and took my hand and guided me to another plateau. Still there were mountains in front of me, ones I have yet to climb. How was this all going to come into play and who would benefit from my experiences? Sometimes I feel like running when I have yet to walk and find that I still crawl because I have stumbled over my insecurities.
The chapters of our life are filled with pages of our needs and desires. The tears still fall because I saw a different path then the one I chose. I don't know if maybe this woman was right and the other was chosen so that I may help those who cannot help themselves. On the other hand our needs are really quite simple, I rate companionship high on the list, for it is wonderful to write and receive a response, to hear a voice on the other end of the phone, to love and be loved. How simple are these needs and how easily we find ourselves in situations complicated by our own desire.
It is so important to challenge loneliness as we reach out to others in need. I reached out to you and you reached back. Life is indeed a large puzzle and those who think they have found all the pieces have missed the true challenge of life. The more I know, the more I realize how little I really do understand. One thing is for sure if we allow fear next to our soul we keep our soul grounded and fail to complete the journey.

Friday, May 15, 2009

..as I sit here and dream of you.

Sings>Green, green grass growing everywhere, my heart sings only for your ears. Invitation sent via the wind to you my love, and my best friend.

Green, green grass on the hillsides, invites you to sit by myside. Birds singing and happiness fills the air, words directed to the one who cares.


I am sitting here thinking about how much I love you. I love you so much! Pulls you close and kisses you good night. The magic of the moment is in the miracle of a dream.


Captive the moment when dreams come true, if I had my choice I'd be there with you. Gently I'd brush the hair from your face and gaze into your eyes as your lips I trace. Incredible the hunger deep in the heart, as our lips press it ignites a spark. Pausing my love, I begin to review the magic that brought my soul to you.

Slipping into the abyss

I battle the darkness, the mesh of web surrounding me, it clings like madness and it barely lets me breathe. You've been waiting, I saw you  standing there, your heart inviting to block the path of fear. The sun is shining and still I feel the rain ... 

I began to write this morning and my words started to reflect a negative state of mind and for a brief moment I reached out and felt your hand pull me to safety. I smiled felt the warmth of your love and knew that everything would be okay. In all honesty I was standing in the shower and looked down at my toes and they were red with white polka dots. When I fell asleep my daughter painted my toes nails polka dots and I only noticed this morning. lol Laughter is the best medicine.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

and when the music stops...

Had it not been for the detours of life,  

I would not have been directed

 the long way around and

 into your arms. 

Accept the moment and explore the possibilities!


Our response to life reveals our inner spirit. 


The beauty of a memory is in the retelling of a story.


Love is an infusion, absorbed by the heart

 and filtered through the soul. 


Good morning little blue bird, hello Carolina wren,

 the hollow came to life when I found my friend. 

My heart began to skip and dance in the blue of the sky,

as the music plays from the heavens high. 

The hills in shades of every color green, painted 

the hollow in an awesome spring.

I didn't see a rainbow, the sun a blinding light,

and yet the treasures of my life were still in sight.

The view was on the mountain and in the reflection of

the stream, the celebration of what you mean to me. 

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

My Soul On Canvas

I felt the need to get away, hold my hand and we'll challenge the day. We'll climb up the mountains high, so we can get a clear view of the blue sky. The sun shines through the thicket of trees, as it reflects down upon the muddy stream. The gift of life I share with you, is seen on the earth from the mighty blue. The heron feeding on a creek chub and a frog sitting on a rock waiting for his love. Everything takes on a different hue, the moment I share my life with you.

I have had a fear of heights since I can remember, fear or I just didn't like it. The little red wildflowers are called pinks and they like the rock cliff edges above the hollow to put on their spring display. Each year I climb a little higher and I get a little closer to the edge to get a view of the flowers and reinforce a sort of courage to do more and be more. I walked close to the edge and I felt a bit dizzy, I thought to myself, " don't look down" . I needed this time away, the sun always seems to shine a little brighter and feel a warmer as you leave the hollow. I thought that statement was true in many ways, the further I escape spiritually or physically from the hollow, the more energy I gather, an energy that both warms my spirit and guides in a positive direction.

I wasn't sure what was more beautiful, the field of Dogwood in bloom or the blue of the sky with those soft cotton clouds which seem to stand still awaiting our dance. I than realized that neither were separate from one another, they were layers, one upon the other. The beauty of the mountians is comparable to a new day of love. You can take the layers away one by one and the changes become a reflection of the steps it takes to grow in love.

Springs renewal brings the colors to life.
This is one of my get away places where I sit back and take in my surroundings, it is a step away from the rest of the world. It is also a place of confusion as this special place was slightly altered by the actions of a weakened spirit. Takes back the beauty of the hills and creates new memories.
The beauty transforms the moment life is shared,
 thus creating our heaven. 

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Smiles, sings and whispers I love you.

Sings>I woke up in song and the music was clear, each stroke of my heart, played I love you dear. No mountains between us, no river nor sea, your love is always here with me.

I woke up in song and the music was clear, each stroke of my heart, played I love you dear. The sun shining and the sky is so blue, signs from the heavens of my love for you.

I woke up in song and the music was clear, each stroke of my heart, played I love you dear.I gazed out the window and the magic appeared and in all of the visions you and I were there.

I woke up in song and the music was clear, each stroke of my heart, played I love you dear. Happiness had found us it was certain and true, that love is a mend able glue.

I woke up in song and the music was clear, each stroke of my heart, played I love you dear. I reached out for you and I felt your embrace, as we dance the morning and I kiss your face.

Love is a powerful emotion, one which crosses all barriers of mind and body to share in the beauty of life on a platform of unconditional acceptance. I am not fluent in any foreign language even though I studied for years both Spanish and French. I found the various languages brought a unique charm as they bridged love on a international level. Through music, lyrics, stories and poems the various languages enhanced the beauty of the inner being. It was many years back when I watched my children interact with a cousin who was visiting the states from eastern Europe. My children didn't know anything in czech and she knew nothing in English. It was their facial movements that allowed them to create a bond from that of the twinkle in the eyes to the warmth of a smile.
Many times when I am writing I'll incorporate various languages into my work. The most searched for words that led people to my blog was " cara mia ti voglio bene" my darling I love you. I was amazed how many times people clicked on my blog that these few words moved pictorial prose to the number one search for " darling I love you"
Words capable of distancing or bringing close cultures as they weave across the world tying us all together. I find it remarkable the different ways to say " I love you" I included a list of languages and the way each shares the emotions of love with words. Though I believe there are other ways to say I love you that have nothing to do with words. Our actions are extremely important as a way of displaying love. Sometimes I think I can only dream of holding your hand and feeling the warmth of your flesh. Can you imagine a day here with me? We'd walk between the orchard happy hearts and souls free and laying on a blanket with nothing to do but dream. The simple little pleasures that people overlook, like you washing by back and I washing yours. I'd shower in the falls where the mountain streams runs, dancing and laughing, like a child having fun. I'd grab a towel and dry us off as I cuddle in your arms and let the heavens be the boss.Lighting several candles while the music softly plays, as I whisper the words I love you forever and a day.
There are no worries, nothing would be a chore, cleaning and cooking and listening to you snore. The seasons would all be summer and like a sun that dries the rain, our love would make all the tears of yesterday fade. To share in each moment from morning through the night, everything like magic as I'd kiss you goodnight.  Holding hands and running through a field, dancing and laughing we'd break down all the shields.
Imagine waking up and rolling over to see the love of my life laying next to me. I'd romance the morning with petals everywhere, I choose pink, soft and feminine their fragrance through the air. I'd kiss you all over from head to toe as we hold still the moment, I'd would never let you go.
My list ist very long and it doesn't ever end, as long as the clock is ticking my love will always transcend. Lying on a blanket underneath the stars, listening to the rhythmic beat of your most treasured heart. I'd hold you close every chance I'd get and thank the heavens for each moment that it is in your arms I rest.Every word is written especially for you, it is my gift of love that ties the heart from the earth to the sky of blue. 
I celebrate each day though we are a far, from the moment we came together and you took my heart. I dream of loving you morning noon and night and as I write the words and place it on a public display I validate my love in this most passionate of way.
We dance in the heavens every night and day, but I'd trade it all to just once feel the warmth of your embrace. The words are here to tell you how much I love you so and to hold the moment and never let go. I hope you don't find it obsessive for all my love of you, you are so special and you know our love is true. Whispers I love you , whispers to the wind, to circle from the earth to the heavens to you my dearest friend.
English - I love you

Afrikaans - Ek het jou lief
Albanian - Te dua
Arabic - Ana behibak (to male)
Arabic - Ana behibek (to female)
Armenian - Yes kez sirumen
Bambara - M'bi fe
Bangla - Aamee tuma ke bhalo aashi
Belarusian - Ya tabe kahayu
Bisaya - Nahigugma ako kanimo
Bulgarian - Obicham te
Cambodian - Soro lahn nhee ah
Cantonese Chinese - Ngo oiy ney a
Catalan - T'estimo
Cheyenne - Ne mohotatse
Chichewa - Ndimakukonda
Corsican - Ti tengu caru (to male)
Creol - Mi aime jou
Croatian - Volim te
Czech - Miluji te
Danish - Jeg Elsker Dig
Dutch - Ik hou van jou
Esperanto - Mi amas vin
Estonian - Ma armastan sind
Ethiopian - Afgreki'
Faroese - Eg elski teg
Farsi - Doset daram
Filipino - Mahal kita
Finnish - Mina rakastan sinua
French - Je t'aime, Je t'adore
Gaelic - Ta gra agam ort
Georgian - Mikvarhar
German - Ich liebe dich
Greek - S'agapo
Gujarati - Hoo thunay prem karoo choo
Hiligaynon - Palangga ko ikaw
Hawaiian - Aloha wau ia oi
Hebrew - Ani ohev otcha (to female)
Hebrew - Ani ohev/et otcha
Hiligaynon - Guina higugma ko ikaw
Hindi - Hum Tumhe Pyar Karte hae
Hmong - Kuv hlub koj
Hopi - Nu' umi unangwa'ta
Hungarian - Szeretlek
Icelandic - Eg elska tig
Ilonggo - Palangga ko ikaw
Indonesian - Saya cinta padamu
Inuit - Negligevapse
Irish - Taim i' ngra leat
Italian - Ti amo
Japanese - Aishiteru
Kannada - Naanu ninna preetisuttene
Kapampangan - Kaluguran daka
Kiswahili - Nakupenda
Konkani - Tu magel moga cho
Korean - Sarang Heyo
Latin - Te amo
Latvian - Es tevi miilu
Lebanese - Bahibak
Lithuanian - As tave myliu
Malay - Saya cintakan mu / Aku cinta padamu
Malayalam - Njan Ninne Premikunnu
Mandarin Chinese - Wo ai ni
Marathi - Me tula prem karto
Mohawk - Kanbhik
Moroccan - Ana moajaba bik
Nahuatl - Ni mits neki
Navaho - Ayor anosh'ni
Norwegian - Jeg Elsker Deg
Pandacan - Syota na kita!!
Pangasinan - Inaru Taka
Papiamento - Mi ta stimabo
Persian - Doo-set daaram
Pig Latin - Iay ovlay ouyay
Polish - Kocham Ciebie
Portuguese - Eu te amo
Romanian - Te iubesc
Russian - Ya tebya liubliu
Scot Gaelic - Tha gra\dh agam ort
Serbian - Volim te
Setswana - Ke a go rata
Sign Language - ,\,,/ (represents position of fingers when signing'I
Love You')
Sindhi - Maa tokhe pyar kendo ahyan
Sioux - Techihhila
Slovak - Lu`bim ta
Slovenian - Ljubim te
Spanish - Te quiero / Te amo
Swahili - Ninapenda wewe
Swedish - Jag alskar dig
Swiss-German - Ich lieb Di
Tagalog - Mahal kita
Taiwanese - Wa ga ei li
Tahitian - Ua Here Vau Ia Oe
Tamil - Nan unnai kathalikaraen
Telugu - Nenu ninnu premistunnanu
Thai - Chan rak khun (to male)
Thai - Phom rak khun (to female)
Turkish - Seni Seviyorum
Ukrainian - Ya tebe kahayu
Urdu - mai aap say pyaar karta hoo
Vietnamese - Anh ye^^u em (to female)
Vietnamese - Em ye^^u anh (to male)
Welsh - 'Rwy'n dy garu
Yiddish - Ikh hob dikh
Yoruba - Mo ni fe

For you and you alone, I give my heart, my soul and all that I am for that one sweet embrace.

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

Good Night

It is because I want to be as close to you in life as in death, that where the body rest came to mind. So instead of worrying about decaying matter I envisioned our souls entwined for all eternity. 

Life and the time it takes to say I love you

We are here for such a short time, we don't know the when and why, all that really matters is that I'm in your heart and your in mine. Forever cast us lovers, bonding soul to soul, in a dance in the heavens where I feel your hold. 

I tried the varied combinations, with letters from a to z but nothing could describe what you mean to me. There's no magic in one, no dream without you, there is no journey to complete with out the love of two. 

Head on pillow,
blankets high,
snuggles close 
and feeling fine.

Heart beating ,
comfort found, 
souls dancing,
heaven's sounds.
I love you so much, stands on mountain high and yells out loud.... I LOVE YOU!

There are no walls around me, no lock upon the door, the entry is always open and you're welcome to explore. I come here in the morning with my first hello and in the evening when all the stars are a glow. Spacious the dwelling, wonderful as can be, it is my safe haven where I can just be me. No judgement on the moment, no pain from memory, directed by the heavens and scattered in the breeze, is love's invitation for the heart to sing. There are no walls around me, no lock upon the door, the entry is always open and you're welcome to explore

Monday, May 04, 2009


Each day I watch as the leaves grow and bring to the hollow lush shades of green. The seasons reveal that there is hope beyond the days of stormy weather. I find mother nature to be quite encouraging as she shares in her ever blooming gardens the mystique of life. One lesson that surfaces is the need one plant has for another. The tables of the forest shows the needs of the various plants and how they are dependent upon one another to flourish and provide for the animals that live within. The trillium carpeting the hills nourished from the rich and moist soil hidden under an array of tall and stately trees.
I understood my need to hold your hand as I felt the rain upon my face and the thunder rattle my soul as the lightening lit the sky striking fear into my being. Your smile shines down on me and thus warms my very soul and your embrace is felt like the tree embrace the mountains, strong and secure. But most of all I feel the growth of my spirit as it is surrounded by your love

The tantalizing smell of lilac in full bloom. I can get lost in the fragrant blooms of lilac as they tease the spirit into an entrapment. An invitation to the soul, one that has it falling back into our yesterdays as it documents the current moment. I literally spun around in dance, as if the hollow had summoned me to partner with spring in a celebration of a season in its full expression. Briefly I felt such glee as I became one, one with the moment, one in spirit with the hollow, one with the dreams of my heart.
It has been five months since I made my new years resolution, " to thine own self be true. " Have I been honest with myself? My heart and soul again raised the question? Have I been honest with myself? I hadn't removed all traces of fear, nor had I gained in the stride in which I had hoped. We all at times feel the restraints from both our inner and our outer vulnerabilities. I see a few accomplishments as well as personal failures. I feel the weight of my surroundings and the anchor of my choices. I thought back to the moment when the journey took a great turn. It was a time where I had succumbed to the walls of despair both physically and spiritually. At this time it was a rapid period of growth, I had seen my own worth in the world, my value as a woman and a friend. It was a rather simplistic time without pressure, one that worked with my spirit and enhancing the soul and encouraging growth. The experience did not stop there, there was much to learn and I was learning at a rapid speed.
Moving slowly I was now at the mile marker where I first escaped, I left behind the memories that haunted me so and I walked away to feed my own personal needs. Here is where I began to explore my own emotions, some that had not surfaced till that very moment. I felt a happiness that I never had experienced before.
In time more lessons would be revealed as I moved forward and embraced friendship and love in the most unique way. From a time when "ignorance was bliss" to the struggle to stay a float to and again to a period of growth which took me to another level.
I at times feel as close as the angels to the heavens and as distant as a fish to the dessert. Turning the pages in the book of truth, what do we see? I thought about the purpose of this life and where the journey leads. It is not in the ending of a book but the path we taking getting there. Brush and thistle, Brier and rambling rose all seem to barricade the path.Forging ahead through thorn and thicket, I am aware of the struggles on the climb. The claw of the anchor digs in deeper to try and hold me back. Release his hold and set me free, allow my heart and soul to dream.
The more I experience, the more I crave.


The hunger is fed by knowledge.

One lie causes the rocks to crumble for the foundation is weak.
Because I dared to love...

Sweet Love you will see!

If I dwell on the moment, I allow in despair and soon sorrow will follow and certainly fear. I erase the memories, the darkness and gloom and run for the flowers like a hummingbird zooms. It is here in the hollow where the leaves of green appear and the rains on the hills makes it luscious and fair. I am not in the heavens, I am here on the ground and my heart feels the ache as the soul teeters up and down. If I dwell on the moment , I allow in despair and soon sorrow will follow and certaintly fear.


Through the window of the soul, sweet love you will see. The hearts reflection in the mountains and the stream. Like the fragrance of the lilac, I hold sweet memories from the start of the child who ran between the trees.
My refuge the flowers, oh! the seeds we sow, beautiful and fragrant like the wild pink rose. Paradise was found from the first day you came around and I've danced to your love on every passing cloud.
Through the window of the soul, sweet love you will see. The hearts reflection in the blue and through every dream. Wonderful the day when love came to stay and we skipped over fields of our yesterdays.
I listened to the song bird, how sweet her sound, she returns each spring to her nesting grounds. One are we with the flowers and the trees and like the bee buzzing around the garden, a puzzle is now complete.
Through the window of the soul, sweet love you will see. The magic of the heavens brought your sweet love to me. From the moment you smiled my heart just said wow! and love and happiness were sent for us to seed.

Do you really see me? and if so you know, the waters is rising, the stream is out of its bed tilting backwards I raise my head. Do you really see me? and if so you know, my heart is struggling, my soul in despair as I grasp for your hand to hold me here.