Pictorial Prose

Pictorial Prose
Indulging my most lucid daydreams

Saturday, July 31, 2010

In the Garden of Love

My heart like the earth, your love a
seedling grows, with roots which reach
a depth that only lovers know.

Stronger and more vital, the blooms
are sure to show, just how much I
love you and need you so.



Your love can be seen in the sun rays of the blue
shining down through the mountains in every
shade and hue.

I can feel your touch like drops of summer dew,
as each is a sweet reminder to my soul of how
much I love you.

~
Sings>There is no goodbye's my darling,
 no I'll be seeing you, for you have my heart
 and I am in love with you.

Oh! Oh! Baby you took my heart that day,
Oh! Oh! baby and it's never been the same.

It might be cliche but I'll go ahead and say
you had me! oh yes! from the first hello,
from the first hello

Oh! Oh! Baby you took my heart that day,
Oh! Oh! Baby and it's never been the same.
~

I thought about all that life entails and about the world around me and the people who have come into my life. I find that they are all instrumental to our being  in ways that we have yet to understand. It became obvious that life is like working on a puzzle and each piece allows us to get a small glimpse of the past the present and the future. I had great difficulty with placing each piece of the puzzle in the correct place until I accepted the depth of its importance. Once I grasped the meaning and allowed each experience to become an extensional road map leading us through the lessons of life, I was better able to move the pieces and place them into the puzzle where it provides a much clearer view of reality.

I took to the mountains,
I danced and sang and I
spun around in circles as
 if in a child's game.

The air was still , the
sun beaming down and
in the morning silence only
 my voice could be found.

La, la, la means I love you,
la, la, la means I care,
la la la my darling,
la, la, la good morning dear.

Friday, July 30, 2010

Message in a Bottle

The water will erode the bottle, the message will
 float away and it is quite unlike my love for
 you which is in my heart to stay.
~
Centrifugal Force

Spinning on happiness,
spinning on dreams, 
spinning on love and 
your memories. 

Suddenly from the
wall of despair, 
no longer in motion,
and filled with fear.

I think if i had to say what one toy always amazed me and I would say that it was a child's top. It would spin and spin and spin and as quickly at that it would run out of energy and just fall over. I compared life in many ways to that child's top,  The energy from the positive emotions kept me spinning but when I ran out of energy all the negative that I had risen above comes back to hold me still. In many ways the spinning is no different than running away, it is my denial of reality. I keep busy so that my mind no think and doing so keep the negative at distance. Pull the string spin me around, I am afraid to stop. 



Thursday, July 29, 2010

Soft whispers of the heart


Mother earth can champion with time to erode
 everything upon the earth, except love!
~

Time has taught me that I cannot be responsible for the thoughts and
 actions of others and therefore on this journey it is my heart that
speaks in volume through the actions of my very own soul.

~

My heart is guilty of loving you and yet there is a quality
of innocence to my restless soul.
~


Tuesday, July 27, 2010

We'll Cross That Bridge When We Come To It



I believe that years back in both a social and business sense there was quite a bit of value placed on the spoken word. Even a handshake was well respected, it's meaning that we agree on the moment and acknowledge that your word is the word of truth and that you will to the best of your ability stand by the words through the closure of a handshake.
In my life I have given my word many times and I believe that to be an internal part of who I am that which is shared externally. I have kept promises and I believed that the gateway to happiness was down the path of truth. 
Somehow the world in general has pulled away from respect, honesty, faith and that has in itself cheapened our voice. People feel free to speak without realizing what impact their voice will have upon each individual or the world in general. If one person is affected by that which we do or write,then I believe that it is crucial and vitally important that we provide a positive platform in which people can find a peaceful escape to the darkness that a day can bring.
Contentment is when you listen to the heart and you understand the voice from within and you appreciate the journey and accept the perspective as directed by the soul. When you can stand in silence and take in the beauty of the sounds that once had gone unheard and reap the majestic glory of life and know that the path of your journey has indeed been created for you and you alone, You as one with the world have felt the arms of contentment which guide you safely through realities window.  


 You are the love that lives within my heart, the joy of life that gives light to the dark. You are the magic that teases my soul and has me begging to feel your mos tender hold. There are rainbows everyday through the rain a storm blows and there in the moment, your love within me grows. Dreams might be a fools game and reaching beyond the memories I claim, might seem to be a bit insane.

One tear for the moment,
One tear for the ache,
One tear for the dreams,
that happiness creates. 



 The river sings a song with the roar of the waves, some how it seem to summon the heart that for you craves.I felt the magic, it took me by surprise and within my soul it cast the dreams of you and I. Beyond the heavens and the stars in the sky, for the galaxy is yours and the galaxy is mine. So precious this moment, as wonderful as it can be, for there you are waiting arms open and heart inviting. 


The darkness has fallen, the dreams now begin and with shadows on the wall an image of love is cast from within. My soul came to reckon with you my love, for you my darling have entered from heaven through the heart via the clouds above. There is something awfully special and that I can' t deny for you are the passion that I feel from deep inside. I'll hold you close, I'll never let you go, no matter where you travel, your with me don't ya know. This must be my heaven and I think it might be  my hell, to bring you so close and separate like the deepest well. To have an opportunity that few will ever know, so glorious a love that through my life it flows. The darkness has fallen, the dreams now begin and with shadows on the wall an image of love is cast from within. 

~
I refuse to cry, nor let your love tear me up from inside,
I waited years for you,just to hear you say you love me too.
I prayed  night and day, till the magic began to fade, until
something happened and you just went away.

My heart felt the ache, the sorrow made it so and
when the skies darkened I knew I had to go.
Mountains between us, a willow is dead and gone,
as the shallow roots from this earth didn't belong.











I was never really fond of bridges, as far as I can remember I despised crossing them. Even as a small child I would run as quickly as possible across the bridge without stopping to look through the railing at the water below nor look behind to see how far I had traveled. I had quite the imagination that the bridge would somehow crumble or swallow me up and leave me helpless to the river below. Even when I was in my early twenties, I would time how fast it took me to cross the river. I have celebrated this year as my renewal year for my drivers license and though I like to drive into Uniontown there is very long bridge you have to cross no room for error, so I hold the wheel as straight as can be, hold my breath until I am over the bridge. 
Through out my life there were many English Proverbs that had to do with bridges, " don't burn the bridges behind you and you'll cross that bridge when you come to it, it is water under the bridge or it was water over the bridge and it is just one more bridge to cross."   There seem to be an awful lot of lessons about bridges and still I didn't like the bridges all that well. I know that they are necessary to cross a body of water or land and that there would be a whole  lot  more of the world unseen had it not been for the bridges that were built. But it wasn't till recently that I saw the bridges of life in a whole new light.We broke down the barriers of distance, space and time, with the help of technology, for technology bridges places that were once impossible to reach.Today there is no place upon the earth we cannot somehow see and learn by crossing the bridge of experience. 
I have had many experiences and I thought at the time that I understood them, yet I some how tremble at the thought of crossing a burning bridge. But there was definitely something unique about this time period in my life. Almost all of my life I can't remember anyone waiting on the other side of the bridge, the journey over the bridge always made me feel one separate from the world around me. But as I look at all of our accomplishments and crossing the bridge of knowledge, I see how that has taken us to different places and times.  We have been crossing many bridges, sometimes you were right there beside me and other times I could see you in the distance with your hand reaching out pulling me to safety. I am sometimes still afraid and I know we have many bridges that we still need to cross, but I know this is different, I am not alone. I walk side by side with faith and trust, love and respect and I know that each one of them leads me to you. In my heart I see the bridge of destiny and my soul fears crossing it. I have felt the most amazing emotions and as a woman I still try to accept what is at the bridge before I get to it and to also know when it is definitely water over the bridge I have spent many years exploring my own emotions and filing them accordingly.I always wanted to know what lay ahead and yet it is impossible even with the utmost careful planning ,as we don't alway prepare for circumstances etc. I always thought easier had life been a well written syllabus  and outline of life that was short and to the point. 
I see many obstacles and opportunities that have yet to be challenged and I wonder exactly what we will need to build the bridges that will bring us together. I almost feel as if over the years I had to dissect my own heart so as to better understand the experience on this long drawn out journey. But I see beyond the clouding of judgement and there in the distance waiting for me from across the bridge is you. When everyone else gave up and walked away, you did not, you stood firm and tall and you reached your hand out to me and you pulled me close to you. I felt safe and secure maybe for the first time as I crossed the bridge into your arms. I wondered about the why's in life, why such a long and twisted road and why certain people become a part of the journey. 
In the 1960's there was a bridge built in Pittsburgh called the bridge to no where, for the longest time it had no destination. I thought about that a bridge that goes nowhere and I work hard to make sure that whatever bridges we cross that they will lead up in a positive way across our trials to secure our triumphs.
I do believe that the experiences are a little more clearer to me than it has been in the past. I seem to understand more of what I need and what I want and which bridges we will have to cross to get there. I am sometimes a bit fearful and I can feel a tremble from inside, but I also know I believe from deep within my heart that I am not at the end of a story but at the beginning. Steps one foot onto the bridge and reaches for your hand...

We can bridge a river, 
the mountains and the sea, 
like a rainbow across the sky 
we can a bridge a dream. 

We can bridge with memories,
happiness and smiles and with
heart and soul together we
can bridge across the miles
~

Because my heart felt troubled for so long,
it revealed an open wound that had yet 
to heal. 
~
The truth brought forward many emotion...
~
Complicated by lies, redirected by pain, 
I tremble from memories that had 
driven me insane. 
~
Love is the most honest emotion ignited by passion... the key word is honest.





Sometimes people call  the positive nature  "staying on the sunny side" or being optimistic. In many ways I think that it is partially genetic and also a learned behavior. Throughout the years there are moments that surfaced that many might not think were so important, I found them to be extremely crucial on the road of life. It was almost as if sifting through all the experiences and those that remained behind were the elements necessarily not only for great memories but also as a lesson which leads us down the path of knowledge.
My very first and favorite positive memory was of my parents dancing in the kitchen, ironically they did that often, played music and went with the moment, I remember as a child thinking that they looked like they were in a ballroom and reality would fade away. The other experience I had with mature love was of parents of a friend, I remember the look in their eyes for each other and the public display of emotion. Those images stayed with me as if they were photographed and stored in the memory bank of experience. My favorite above all is the musical " the music man" even as a child you realize that the librarian is portrayed as a woman who was well passed her prime for love, as if you can be past your prime. Than her world changes as she falls in love with the traveling salesman and the world indeed takes on a different hue.
I learned several really important lessons that love can be expressed in many ways, that emotion needs no special place and time and  also that we never stop loving, that a mature love can be even more moving than in our youth. Call me the hopeless romantic, but all in all when you feel the magic in the heart and view it as it exudes through the sparkle of the eye, nothing can be more wonderful than the energy from the power of love.




Giggling is a sign of passion and
 passion can be seen in all that we do.
~

Sunday, July 25, 2010

A Cup Between 2 Friends ?

It wasn't until I realized that happiness is a philosophy and a way of life and that you don't find happiness in someone else but it is in the joy of sharing that happiness surfaces. I felt a source of renewed energy this morning, the rays of sun cast a beam of light through the rooms which led me through the daydream to you.

 Cat and mouse... contrived action involving constant pursuit, near captures, and repeated escapes. 
~


When you can see that the true gift is not in that which time will bring, but that which time currently lays before us. 


~
I am wealthier than all the Kings and Queens that have gone before us, for my treasure chest is lined with the power of faith and it is filled with an abundance of your love and kindness. One look at it and you can feel the peace that overflows from it and the patience that your friendship has provided. I am wealthier than all the Kings and Queens that have gone before us, for my treasure chest is filled with all the dreams of tomorrow and the joy which is bestowed upon us from the heavens. The gems of life sparkle brighter than a thousand suns as they lead the way through the light of love into your arms. 


~
This Night is Ours


I felt a little frightened, the bed empty and pillows bare,surrounded by nothing but darkness and a chill  of fear. Time had robbed us all our yesterdays and I stand at the gate of tomorrow begging the dreams find their way. The mountains which once seem so high, disappeared from the sky, rivers wide and deep having nothing on this here dream, for all I have to do is close my eyes and I'm with you. 


I have many times thought about the distance, rivers, roads,mountains and hills and than I look up into the nightly sky and I knew you were so close as the air I breathe. Oh stars of heaven shining down on us, there is no mountains or rivers to stop us. Oh, moonlight, bright as can be, you shine for him and you shine for me. I took the cloud, I bordered it slow and I requested it to sail where only lovers go.


Sings>I love you, I love you, yes I do, silly songs I sing for you. I love you, I love you, yes I do, I love the one who made my skies blue. I love you, I love you, yes I do, the one who holds my heart and soul too. I love you, I love you, yes I do, there is nothing but happiness when I am with you. We removed the mountains, we bridged the sea and we bordered the cloud in our nightly dreams. 


I cannot have enough days upon this earth to remind you of my love for you, nor enough in the heavens to assure you that our love is eternal, but this I have, I have this moment short but true and tonight I whisper of my love for you. It is forever and it is true and it rules the sky of blue. Good Night My Love...

The Art of Kissing


Tilting my head back and a little to the left, I slightly close my eyes, just enough that I feel the passion and still can gaze into your eyes. I eagerly wait for your lips to gently meet mine and with the most gentle touch and mesmerized by your charm fall into a trance. The art of kissing is in the partner we choose for when the souls come together the lips have no choice but to move. Caressing the spirit, teasing my soul, making me hungry for your most special hold. Tempestuous with the tenderness of touch, it brings out the child in me and the woman who feels the impact of this incredible lust. Naturally inviting, the treasure divine to share in the moment in an embrace for all time.


Sings


Just an average morning but not your everyday love, 
there something awfully special when the 
dreams sent you down from above. 


Just an average morning with the flowers in 
bloom and Henny Penny sitting on an egg or two.
But there is something special that I can't deny,
when I felt your love take by surprise. 

Sings>I don't know what to do, 
all day long I keep of thinking of you. 
Dreaming dreams of you and I 
dancing on the clouds in the 
great blue sky.  

I don't know what I can say, 
other than you are with me in every way,
like the rays of the sun you making love
you awfully fun. 


I don't know what to do, 
all day long I keep on thinking of you.
Dreaming dreams of you and I 
dancing on the clouds in the
great blue sky. 

I don't know what others feel, 
all I know is that you removed the
shield and there I was vulnerable
to the dreams of loving you 
while my heart sings.

I don't know what to do, 
all day long I keep on thinking of you.
Dreaming dreams of you and I 
dancing on the clouds in the 
great blue sky.

I know what other others see,
all I know is what you mean to 
me. You took the world and 
gave to it a hue, like a rainbow
across the mighty blue.



Thursday, July 22, 2010

On Our Stroll



Is it that my soul is so needy, that the only true happiness
is when I spend each moment with you?

~
Many confuse their wants with their needs,
I am not confused, I want you and I need you!
~

I have seen the world through my own eyes but it wasn't until I saw the world through your heart that I realized the impact of your love upon my life.
~
I do not yearn for more, for more is so much less without you.
~
Every thought is documented by the heart to ease the soul.
~







~


In reality the interlocking of souls
reveals the power of love.

~
Each tear weeps as I have fallen victim
to time and distance.

~
My need is greater than the passion which rules my heart...

~

Silence the haunting of my soul...

I could stand at the gateway of regret,
but that would not change the years.

~
It is not that I fear death, I fear not having enough time to accomplish all I set out to do.
~
I challenge the Lord, was this path and these years meant as a lesson or was the pain merely a commitment of self destruction?
~



Because we can....that is the beauty of the unlimited possibilities.

~






~






The hollow is a small valley which is cut out between the hills. In the summer it is surrounded with native wild flowers and a variety of northern trees. This time of the year I find it to be at its best, it puts on a showy display of the beauty of nature. In many instances you appreciate the affect it has on you which reminds me of a day long ago and yet it always has you wondering what is beyond the hills. But as I take a moment to share this indentation in the world, I find like the sun that manages to to shine down through the trees that your love has allowed me to see the canvas of life in a whole new light.

I smiled till I giggled,
I laughed till I cried at
the magic of love that
caught me by surprise.

The hills took on a
different hue, when
you took my hand
and shared the blue.

I smiled till I giggled,
I laughed till I cried at
the magic of love that
caught me by surprise.

Spinning in circles that
is what I do, when I
reach to the heavens
and there I find you.

I smiled till I giggled,
I laughed till I cried at
the magic of love that
caught me by surprise.

Humming a silly tune,
I felt like a butterfly
who just left her cocoon.

I smiled till I giggled,
I laughed till I cried at
the magic of love that
caught me by surprise.

Standing under the sky,
day dreaming you here
by my side.

I smiled till I giggled,
I laughed till I cried at
the magic of love that
caught me by surprise.

Sings>I just love, love you,
I just need, need you ,
I just want to have
you here in my arms.

To share the moment
darling, kiss and love
you my darling ,to
hold you in my arms
all night long .


I just love, love you,
I just need, need you,
I just want to have
you here in my arms.

Forever from the start,
dreams of you my sweetheart,
morning, noon and night.

I just love, love you,
I just need, need you,
I just want to have
you here in my arms.

To make the moment
real and allow our hearts
to truly feel, I'd do just
about anything for you.

I just love

~

In the heat of the summer a warm southern breeze could be seen performing a whimsical dance with the feather like branches of the locust tree. Sauna like temperatures,hot and moist found me trapped in the moment. The honey bee and the hawk moth were hovering over the field of clover in full bloom. I felt amazingly wonderful as with my heart I saw the image of your spirit cast in the haze and the touch of your love as it embraced my soul. The moment held me still as if I moved even gently the visual would dissipate like the rays of the sun as the full moon replaced it with the night sky. I lay there and there was no past nor tomorrow, as if I stepped in a realm where love controlled all space and time. My heart beating rather slowly as if I were in a state where only my heart could see and my soul could feel. I refused to challenge the surreal clouds that surrounded me and I allowed myself to fall deeply into the arms of love. I cannot lie to my heart, nor to my soul and neither can they to me, for they know the truth of passion is that which empowers my very being. I took a deep breath and I held it and slowly I blew it to the wind, as inhaled I absorbed all that you are, when I exhaled I released all source of negativity.

I took your hand, I held it tight and we danced and danced till the morning light. I took your heart and I held it safe and I kept it in the most extraordinary place. I took your soul and I took it high, far above the midnight sky. I took your dreams, I made them mine and that my love stopped the hands of time.


If I truly had the power to stop the hands of time,
I'd be in your arms and you would be in mine.





It is okay to reread a chapter,
but more fun creating a new one.
This moment is amazing it is as magical as can be, for at this very moment my soul is soaring free. I am high above the clouds, I'm gazing down below and all my troubles disappear as your love cast a brilliant light that continously glows. I don't need a rainbow to bridge my love to you, I worked on my feather friends and requested they fly my love to you. Listen and you will hear the song of their sweet melody, for I am sure that they sing as a gift that breaks the barriers of our dreams.

I heard the song of love, courting both heart and soul. I reached with all of my being and through the air I pulled you my sweet darling near. The stage was set years ago and it took traveling a long road, until I found you and all my fondest dreams would come true. "Dance" said the heart, "sing" said the soul, love has indeed surfaced on this journey where once the devil had a hold.

La, la, la, la, la, la, la,la I can see the shadows,
cast from long ago but here they have no power,
as I requested that they go.

La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, the morning belongs to
you and I as we dance,a lovers dance under
the bluest of blue skies.

I heard the song of love, courting both heart and soul. I stood in celebration of the day when your love first took a hold. "shout" said the heart, "embrace" said the soul, this moment is showered with star dust and this my love is where the story will be told. High in the heavens on the clouds where you and I dream, in a moment of magic where all is just as it seems.

~
I tried to decipher the dream
and the reality is that I am really tired.
~
No tears, sadness or ache, I feel as if my emotions
as this moment are trapped in a cocoon.


I am guilty of using fantasy to side step reality.


The sun indeed glistened like starlight through the trees and the wind was teasing with its dance upon the leaves. My heart was racing as my soul reached out to you and the magic of it all was the moment I felt your love come shining through. It picked me up this morning and it held me oh so tight and it accompanied me throughout the day bringing joy into my life. I can't hold back the smile and even if I try, you can still see through the sparkle from deep within my eyes.Love has surfaced it is as wonderful as can be, because it's true that I really you and you really need me.

Friendship is founded on the steps of trust and moves forward to the platform of compassion and there upon the stage of life it forms the foundation which will stand strong through any storm that may arise.



Your love fuels my heart with a
energy that allows my soul to soar.



It was from the moment our hearts interlocked that I felt your hand in mine. It was from the first ray of compassion that my soul fekt your love mirror a reflection deep inside. It was from the moment you wiped that first fallen tear, supported my total being that I realize the connection was great than the barriers of earth. It was the first time you dared to say I love you...
The geese flew in, it was by surprise, it's not by choice, it was not there plan. Man took the fields, destroyed the land and than complains of soiled sand. They enjoy the grass and the shallow pond as they also wonder where they belong.

One, to many and their a pest.
to few and their endangered
,if only man put his energy
into love the world would
have a whole lot less anger.


Every creation that becomes extinct
is one step closer to mans own demise.




From the soul to the heart via the gateway of love...the begining of our journey.

This summer in shades of blue, the chicory in the fields in various hues. It moves so fast, it does't stand still and another documented by the hills.


On our stroll we smiled and laughed and saw a butterfly in our path. The sky was blue and God's ray beamed through and at that moment I just knew. The energy of your soul and mine, crossed all barriers from the rivers to the mind. We shared the heavens through the sky of blue and we felt the dampness of the morning dew.

On our stroll you took my hand and we walked down by the water as if by plan. The sun shining and the trees in green seem to frame what the heart could see. It saw your love and felt it near, like the rays of sun glistening on your hair. The geese flew in to take a rest and all of life was at its best.

On our stroll I shared my soul and at that moment I felt your hold, you embraced my spirit and than set it free and it soared high above the trees. Looking down I could see that this was love as it was meant to be, warm and wonderful, beautiful and kind, in the dreams of life where you are mine.

On our stroll we shared a few words, heard the cicadas and saw a few birds, but it all faded like dusk to dawn, as all I could see was the magic of love from the hills to the pond. It held me tight through dark and grey, until one early summer day. Happiness was in the air and like an angler we wound it near.



Where once the water was clear as crystal, now a carpet of green and thus comes the reminder it is not always what your eyes see, but what your soul dare to believe.

Each moment with you is a celebration of life,each moment away from you is hell in action. My soul indeed reached out to embrace your love.


I was memorized by the rays as they reflected on the pond and
the energy of your being as I felt the infusion of your love within my soul.

It was the dew of the morning that reminded me that the gifts of love can been seen through each moment in day.
The summer time treasure is in the simple
little pleasures that I share with you.


Tuesday, July 20, 2010

In My Garden

The angels aren't talking,
the stars don't light the sky,
no rainbow for crossing and
yet you're still in my mind.

The blue birds don't sing,
the sun no longer shines,
the rain controls the
darkness from down deep
inside.

The willow has fallen,
shallow was its roots,
I gave to it the sunshine,
and still they broke the
soil loose.

Somethings are forever,
where truth lay the path,
and others are more fragile
and shatter like common glass.

The oak seed was planted and
it grew stronger everyday
and quickly became a reminder
that we survived to greet
another day.

Love is everlasting and gets
better as time goes on and
with you beside me, I know
your arms are where I
belong.





From my lips a kiss, to your heart I place and when you are busy with the day, I'll allow your heart to relay. Yes, I love you and want you more than words can say and as the clouds drift on by, remember the kiss I give to you each day.

I am off to the farmers market to sell the skin care products I manufacture. I look forward to seeing everyone, getting dressed up and for a few ours reaching out beyond the hollow. I have always believe that those who cross our path whether for a moment or a life time do so to bring us a gift that may somehow be hidden in the mirage of experiences. It is impossible to be with a person 24/7 or is it?

Sings>Wherever I go,
what I do, it is
always with you.

Whenever I dance,
or sing out loud,
it's because your
in my heart.

Whatever I'm doing,
day and night,it's
because your holding
my hand.

On this journey it is you and I baby,
living and loving without any maybe's

Souls entwined make you mine and and I
yours, as we continue to explore.

Heart to heart beyond the heavens blue,
you can see it as the sunshines through.

From earth to the heavens high, I'm caught
in the dreams that brings you to my side.





There is always been something quite magical about gardening,from the moment you place a seed in the ground, watch it grow and bloom. I like it because it is really clear cut, you nourish the seedling and weed around it and pinch it back and allow it to grow strong. For everything there is an answer, what part of the garden does the plant like, shade, sunshine, damp, dry soil. The weather, insects, diseases, it has always been really easy for me to know what to do to make a healthy garden grow.
In my early years I thought I understood like gardening what was necessary to seed, grow and bloom in life, except the answers were not as easy as they appeared to be in gardening.Mostly because in gardening you have a plant and you, you tend to the plant and there is no one else to answer. In life we have many people to answer to and though it would be easier if it was just self but unlikely.
We started out with our parents and pleasing them and wanting to do what is right and than we go to school and its teachers,friends, colleagues and than partners, lovers, family, spouse and the list goes on. It is the ever expanding network. Life is complicated because each person has a choice in what road they travel. There choices may not always be like our own and this complicates the journey.
There are many essentials necessary for growth in life. I'd like to think love is the number one crucial ingredient, but we also need respect, compassion, understanding, devotion, emotion, and honesty. Unlike a garden it is not one on one and so it becomes more like a puzzle and everyone is bringing pieces that do no necessarily fit.
I know what I have experienced and I would have to say anytime a lie comes into the scenario, life is complicated. It is impossible to build a strong foundation upon a lie, it leaves holes which will cause the foundation at some point to collapse. I have seen in my own life how I have been hurt by lies, troubled and lost.


I have never felt more respect
until I met you and felt the
power of your love.

I have never believed that anyone
could love me so much until
I felt your embrace.

I have never imagined such warmth
through a storm, until you
blazed like a thousand suns upon
my soul.

I never dreamed that such a love
existed, until I woke to the
sweetness of your voice.

~

I pray each night that the Lord keep
you safe, for without you I stand at
the gates of hell.

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I cry that I can feel your love so
close and yet be distanced by
circumstance.

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I see the child in you and I laugh,
and the man whose strength gives
me courage.









One by one I selected them well,
with each bloom a story to tell.
One of yesterday, one of today
and the one in bud tomorrow
awaits.

Once a garden of seasonal bloom
until your love came shining
through. Where flowers fade to
anothers bloom as the seasons
go passing through.

In my garden there is only one love
and that is the love that believes
that all is possible and blossoms
as do the flowers.

Monday, July 19, 2010

I Saw you in the darkness- Reading Poetry





What an opportunist, so here goes my poison ivy salve commerical for those of you who can't keep from roling in the leaves.

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Friday, July 16, 2010

Good Night My Love

It is not just the want of you that makes me hunger so, It is the need to have you here beside me that drives me out of my mind.



The Art of Appreciation

I believe that there are many things that we do that is human nature and sometimes it might be the natural thing for a man to generally look at other women. Though I do believe it is the greatest of insult to stare at other women when you are out with the one you deem to love. As important as it to be at your best, that can go across the board as we should try to be our best for each other. Is it my ego talking, when I say want his eyes to be on me and only me? It is a compliment to a woman when a man makes her the center of his attention? I thought about that today, about loving and what it is we want out of that loving relationship. I have always enjoyed being a woman, being treated like a woman. I love the feel of silk stalkings against my thighs and I enjoy fussing to look the best I can.
There is nothing wrong with wanting to be loved. When it comes down to it, if the person who you admire the most and promise to love doesn't have the center of your attention, than maybe you have not quite explored the depth of in love. From the magic of a sweet kiss, the warmth of an embrace, to the gentleness of touch, that is the beauty of loving.
I have been through a full range of emotions this week.Some were simply to understand what it is I need and what it I want so my emotions were stable and I was a little more confident. I want to feel the gentleness of your touch, the pleasure of your company and the joy each day that I experience with loving you.
Another storm is passing by and I feel detached from my surroundings. Almost as if I am part of the passing storm. Troubled spirits all around as if they know what is coming down. Emotions powerful and creative and strong no exactly where I belong. The script already written refuses to say what tomorrow will bring our way. I was leery and a bit afraid, but I will accept the dawn of day. Love is to good to let it go and so to you like the wind I blow, a kiss from the hollow beyond the mountains high through the airways and the clouds in the sky. From my heart through the heavens blue, I'll be sending all my love to you.


I do not like the power of emotions for they reveal
the truth at a depth I am not ready to accept.
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I woke to the darkness and I knew not hour nor day and I listened as the thunder storm rumbled in a most haunting kind of way. The bed surrounded by netting danced with the wind and though I felt a distance, I also felt your love deep within. My eyes indeed adjusted and still I could not see as the barriers of life battled to distance your soul from me. I felt an internal struggle, an ache from heart to soul that caused the flow of tears, of which I tried but could not hold. Raindrops against the window, teardrops against the soul as there is no dividing the darkness that refuses to allow the happiness to unfold. I tossed about without direction,restless as can be as I tried in desperation to set our spirits free. No movement from my lips, no voice of the mind, the sounds that surfaced above the storms was of the heart which cried out to make you forever mine. Hovering is the darkness, no sunlight to be found, for the seed of misdirection planted my soul to the ground.


The plan is greater than I... ~
It is by nature we seek a large, strong tree in a storm,
might be why your arms feel so comforting.

I wanted to stay indefinitely in the same chapter,
but what would appear to be eternal happiness would be death.
~

I never liked the darkness,
I miss the light of your laughter.
~

I am teetering on a limbo, bordering heaven and hell as I have chanced to feel your love and yet I'm caught in the devils spell. Close as the clouds to the heavens blue and as far as a dragon to the stories only reality allows through. Lost as if trapped in the great abyss, where I spend each moment dwelling on what it is I miss. ~

I've looked back on life at the major decisions and how they carved a path, thus creating a tour of the so called journey. Sometimes we are forced out of necessity or survival and than there is the choices that are truly what the soul deems to be. I wouldn't say that I am really a believer of the traditional and yet I have taken the steps that fall into societal norms. Obviously this was neither the heart or soul speaking and so in a troubled way I ask did I make a choice or was it my weakness that I allowed others to make a choice for me? It is incredible the flow of emotions that surface from deep within, most of it teeters on what feels right in the heart, soul and mind. I thought of the void inside and the neediness to always be reminded that I am loved. My spirit is troubled and the ache overwhelming. There is truth to the statement...the more I have of you, the more I want of you. For you breathe life into my soul and comfort through the heart as you ease the troubled mind. With you I step beyond survival into the joy of living, without you I am immersed in my own hell.

The Essentials for finding a soul mate

Soul Mate,I have written on it and you can search the web and probably find another million pages on it. How do we find our soul mate, what it is we are looking for in a soul mate,etc? I first thought you just don't go out and find soul mates. There is an old saying that when you stop looking and start living that is when you find love. When we begin to live through our own value system in an emotional and healthy way we find that the pool of people that are drawn to us may also be in the same arena of positive thoughts.
On yahoo they had a article on what you look for in a soul mate, none of the six essentials were anything that ever came to mind, the article mentioned with little about respect, love, passion and desire nor did it bring up a sense of humor intelligence and compassion. In all reality the things they mentioned most finances, physical appearance, fitness were not as important in a long last relationship as those who were willing to work through difficult times. So that would mean soul mates, true soul mates goes a lot deeper than what yahoo than Dee Anne Merriman the freelance writer and contributor to Happen magazine has suggested. It would be very easy to have and accident and have your body and face destroyed, does that mean you no longer a soul mate? Finances how much you have is not as important as what you you with what you have and so does the lack of money make one less of a soul mate? After reading the article I came with that other than her comment of " looking in the mirror" and yes a value system, it really teamed up soul mates with a shallowness.

A soul mate is someone who knows you inside and out, who has felt your laughter and wiped your tears and understands you completely. Who knows you are not perfect but loves you anyway. Who finds your faults as charming as your strengths. A true soul mate views the simplicity of the moment and appreciates the importance of holding hands and embracing hearts.

A soul mate knows me better than I know my self because they are the very souls reflection. A soul mate can be wonderful and can be very scary because in them, you will see yourself, because in all sense of the meaning they are the other half of your soul and so they know your thoughts because the thoughts equal. They love, they respect, they dream and they believe that love conquers all.

Sings> When I laugh, he laughs, when I smile, he smiles, when I cry he wipes the tears from my cheek. When I dance, he dances, when I sing, he sings, when I soar to the clouds he is there waiting with his arms opened for me. When I believe, he believes, when I dream, he dreams, when I find myself falling , he is there to catch me.

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Some people pass through your life and they leave and indelible marking on your heart and others they don't pass they walk right in and they make your heart their home. I love you for walking in and making yourself comfortable, welcome home.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Reading one of the poems

I am always chasing rainbows...


Butterfly to a flower is like my heart to the sweet nectar of your soul,there is where I feel the infusion of your love.






I know that I have been asked to read the poetry many times and I put it off, so anyways here goes...... Yes Heart I love!




War is grown from the seeds of greed and hate and as they say "no one wins in a war."

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Monday, July 12, 2010

Right Beside You

Every now and then you have to take one step back and take in a larger view,though the time may seem off, the best is always saved for last... like dessert.
When you reached for my hand and pulled me close and together we stepped forward in the same direction I knew that we were on the plain of forever love.




Life without love is dark and cold and
a mere existence with nothing to hold.


Yes Heart! I Love!

Yes Heart! I hear! I know it to be so
that in my heart he lives and
through my soul it shows.

Yes Heart! I feel! The love he gives
to me and in the dark of night,
I dream him next to me.

Yes Heart! I see! The magic of his
love he holds me tenderly in the
clouds above.

Yes Heart! I know! The depth of
such love it reaches through the
moment and surfaces with all
his love.

Yes Heart! I taste! The sweetness
of my lips and without him it
leaves a bitterness.

Yes Heart! I feel! the emotions
from inside as they are tied in knots
wondering how and why.

Yes Heart! I love! I love him more
each day and so I give you to him
forever and a day.

Yes Heart! I understand! It's a
chance we take, but loving him
is an opportunity of sweet
eternal bliss.








Turmoil in the wanting, the needing of you here,
out of the love we created a dream that only
lovers can share.

Agitated is my soul, which begs to feel you near,
as it reaches beyond the moment to meet you
above the celestial hemisphere.

My soul conveys the message as it cries out
in the dark to make sense of this journey,
that once broke my heart.

The mountains tried to separate, the river
to divide, but in truth nothing can keep
from you the love I have inside.










Sings>Mesmerized am I by the blue sky and when I think of you dreaming is all that I can do. I know this much is true that I dearly love you and without you here with me there would no dreams or sweet memories. The clouds passing by a reminder of you and I and what it means to have you here with me. The day has just begun and as I stare up at the sun, I feel the warmth of your most precious love. There so much more in store, for you my love I adore and I won't let you go I just want you to know. Mesmerized am I by the blue sky and when I think of you dreaming is all I can do.

Round and round I go... on a dream that waits to come true.



I call it balance but it is more like feeding the intricacy of the our indepth personality. Excepting and expressing the variations of our individuality allow us in many ways to expand on the necessary balance. It kind of gives a new meaning to the adage" all work and no play" whether we are exploring our need to accomplish our personal or financial goal or merely allowing our being total freedom.


What is the necessary balance? I think that depends so much on where we are and what chapter we are in. In some ways stroking the ego, embracing the heart and freeing the soul have to all come together on the same platform before expanding individually. It bascially comes down to our needs, as I type I feel the freedom that has been granted to me, assuring my soul a place of peace and satisfaction and yet another part of me is troubled.


When the world seems dark and I can't see beyond today, I think of you my love and the sorrow simply fades. My soul cries out and my heart begs for you to hear, the plea from inside that needs to hold you near. Love surfaces with every thought of you and when the clouds dissipate, I just go on dreaming sweet dreams of loving you.


When the world seems dark and I can't see beyond today, I think of you my love and the sorrow simply fades.Happiness ignited the fire in my soul, but I believe it was your passion that caused the flame of desire to take a hold. The silence broken, the darkness can no longer harm, as I reached for you my love and felt the magic of your charm.


When the world seems dark and I can't see beyond today, I think of you my love and the sorrow simply fades. The trembling of my spirit, the ache within my soul, unleashed the memories that the darkness once controlled. Sunshine in my morning, sunshine through the day, with you my love the sun shines when the stars are on display.






When the world seems dark and I can't see beyond today, I think of you my love and the sorrow simply fades. Barriers that only the mind can see , built the walls out of misery. Your hand stretched across the mountains high and when I reached for you, you pulled me to your side. Love is strong enough to build a bridge and as we cross it, we allow our love to live.

Friends Forever



Thanks for holding my hand!

The ten year old, the teenager
and the woman who loves you so.



It is one of the first things we learn as children in our school years is to pride for our country and the freedoms in which we have come to enjoy. Freedom of speech is protected by the first amendment and yet I fine that we only have freedom until someone is offended. I am never been pro war and I am still not, but I am pro military, it is costly to keep safe our values and to protect the freedom we have come to enjoy. The heart views life and all the beauty it gives and yet it knows the turmoil that we all live in. Many have given and everyone will lose as life is so precious for our future we must choose. I support our soldiers, young and old a like, they have given to us the opportunity to to make this world right. To take away the darkness and replace it with light, God bless the souls who protect our human rights.
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My Iconic Design

My Iconic Design - Autumn
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I feel like I am doing a commercial,
"you can leave your hat on, all that
should come between you and your
skin is Autumn's Skin Care, the finest
choice in all natural skin care products. "

The Stars, Sun and the Moon


Sitting here all alone and all my thoughts drift to you. I am wondering what it is your doing and if I am connecting there with you. Sunlight through my bedroom window, shining down upon my face and as I gaze into the vastness my heart through your soul begins to trace. It traces all the love I have for you, for I gave to me that first day the stars, sun and the moon.

Dance With Me

The steps are easy to follow, just take my hand and your half way there. Allow the wind through your hair and my kiss to your lips if you dare. The steps are easy to follow, go ahead and follow me, my heart is the doorway where our love soars free.

Our Love Lives

I call it balance but it is more like feeding the intricacy of the our indepth personality. Excepting and expressing the variations of our individuality allow us in many ways to expand on the necessary balance. It kind of gives a new meaning to the adage" all work and no play" whether we are exploring our need to accomplish our personal or financial goal or merely allowing our being total freedom.
What is the necessary balance? I think that depends so much on where we are and what chapter we are in. In some ways stroking the ego, embracing the heart and freeing the soul have to all come together on the same platform before expanding individually. It bascially comes down to our needs, as I type I feel the freedom that has been granted to me, assuring my soul a place of peace and satisfaction and yet another part of me is troubled.


When the world seems dark and I can't see beyond today, I think of you my love and the sorrow simply fades. My soul cries out and my heart begs for you to hear, the plea from inside that needs to hold you near. Love surfaces with every thought of you and when the clouds dissipate, I just go on dreaming sweet dreams of loving you.






When the world seems dark and I can't see beyond today, I think of you my love and the sorrow simply fades.Happiness ignited the fire in my soul, but I believe it was your passion that caused the flame of desire to take a hold. The silence broken, the darkness can no longer harm, as I reached for you my love and felt the magic of your charm.






When the world seems dark and I can't see beyond today, I think of you my love and the sorrow simply fades. The trembling of my spirit, the ache within my soul, unleashed the memories that the darkness once controlled. Sunshine in my morning, sunshine through the day, with you my love the sun shines when the stars are on display.






When the world seems dark and I can't see beyond today, I think of you my love and the sorrow simply fades. Barriers that only the mind can see , built the walls out of misery. Your hand stretched across the mountains high and when I reached for you, you pulled me to your side. Love is strong enough to build a bridge and as we cross it, we allow our love to live.