Friday, July 31, 2009
A little bit of rain and a little bit of sunshine,
a balance of the mind, brings you here in real time.
Wipes the fallen tears and replaces it with laughter,
dreams of happily ever after, spent here with you.
A little bit of rain an da little bit of sunshine,
a balance of the mind, brings you here in real time.
Love assures us of a balance in our life, it is capable of bringing us through times of difficulty and also of basking in the sun. As I do often, I look back over my life and review all that has happened, the struggles to survive through less than situations and the magic that transpires creating the positive of memories.
I have yet to reach port and anchor as the journey long and winding edges me to travel further on. Rough currents and unseen barriers slow us down but never stop us. I have felt the reigns of survival for so long, that I almost had forgotten what the journey is all about and what direction it is truly to take.
Yes, I have begun to gain a certain amout of control over my personal matters. Cliche as it may sound I understand the vision of "seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. " Not completely through and yet I know that I will get there and I will not lose sight of those who have remained by myside in one way or another.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Open your mind and free your soul,
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
be heard in the blue sky.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Love is the reflection of our soul as seen through the beauty of life.
Friday, July 24, 2009
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Monday, July 20, 2009
Elizabeth Barrett Browning (1806-1861)
|How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.|
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, --- I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! --- and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.
Friday, July 17, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Monday, July 13, 2009
The fives major and most used senses consist of sight, hearing, taste, smell and touch. In many ways we share parts of our self that we are not aware of and it's only when we recognize an underlying sign that a flag is raised, bringing to the forefront an awareness. It is amazing what you can pick up in someones voice or actions and how we trace the emotions felt to explain that which we don't really understand.
Our keen perception leads us to explore deeper into a moment to decipher what is going on. I have found the closer you are to someone the more you can read into them. Again I think of the misinterpretation that we fall victim to and how we may see something that doesn't exist. This is where communication is so important. I have never really been one to want ask or dig into another persons life and so I always hope that if something is bothering them, that they would feel free to discuss it with me.
I find it amazing that when we lack the time by distance and place that one sense can over power the others and that we gain a stronger ability to either see or hear. It is like having receptors and they are out there to protect, understand, develop and gain a better understanding of the current moment.
The heart has the ability to do tread through many of the senses, it can see, feel and hear. I myself have had many reactions to life and love. I felt emptiness, desire, pleasure and ache, I have heard the angels, the music of love and the silence of the darkness. From the hollow looking out I have seen through the sun, and the rain the ability to nurture and through the beauty of the mountains tasted the sweetness of its fruit. The fragrant reminders brought a sense of calm and hunger that battled for the same stage.
I believe the heart and mind perceive life on different plateau's. I try to to file my thoughts accordingly and to listen to both my heart and my mind. There is a major cord that has me dangling like a pendulum back and forth, an emotional battle with the positive and negative of life. I try to reach to that which is positive and hold on tight and not let go. I am am afraid to let go.
The rains prevails and again clouds another summer day. As the darkness takes over the room fear reveals itself. Frightened of the demons, those which you cannot see but can feel,sense and almost taste. A chill could be felt as it raged through my body creating an awareness of the physical. My spirit had somehow felt the entrapment of being neither here nor there, like an existence without any real meaning.
I reminded myself that no answers could be found by trying to tap into the hunger and allowing my soul to feel the emptiness. I race to clear the images and bring a sense of gratitude to the forefront as I rejoice in the exploration of life that brings such joy. Months into my new years resolution, I reviewed " to thine own self be true"
I reached out for you and pulled as hard as I could on the string of memories that brought me the most joy. I hated this part of myself, this weakness that showed its face. The day is warm and yet I feel as if the wind had touched down whispering of winter. We challenge the days from moment to hour as we beg to understand the cold and the fire.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Friday, July 10, 2009
Thursday, July 09, 2009
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
Monday, July 06, 2009
Quickly I looked around and found a place near the waters edge where could I rest for a moment as I absorbed the beauty of nature in succession. The rhythmic sound of the waves as they clashed with the large protruding bolder like rocks was melodic and calming to the soul as it brought a sense of peace to the moment.
Like a page out of a story of a book, the scene was constantly changing. Never dull the beauty of life altered the canvas often within a short period of time. Face to face with reality, you could see mans imprint or should I say interference with nature. Few places if any exist where the impact of man had not challenged nature to a battle.
The sounds of the river water accompanied by the passing train created a hum as it joined in chorus to provide us with a harmonic song to the ear, which for one moment brought mans intervention together with nature. The song of life, soothing and some how a tease to the spirit created a doorway beyond reality. Passing through the gateway, I became aloof to the my space in time as I drifted to the recreation of the day and felt your hand locked in mine and your soul to mine , one to one on a distant journey.
As quick as the day began it ended, the sun set and the night began its reign. I was mesmerized by the fullness of the moon and its control upon the night sky. There were few stars to be see as the sky was covered in a blanket of haze and yet the silhouette of trees came to life as the fireflies took to the branches. I sat in an amazement at how simplicity could compliment the darkness with its magical dance that lit the dark creating a three dimensional view.
Like the closing of a chapter the earlier part of the day recorded the moments. The bass hooked by the local fisherman, the robins nest destroyed by yesterday's storm and the heron as it fed upon the minnows. The minuscule reminders document the power of life and the vulnerablitity in which our souls rest. It was at this very moment that I accepted the dreams ast the gift they are and I appreciated more what life had to offer. I gathered all that I could see and all the sounds of the day and I filed them accordingly, to share them with you at any given moment.
Hold still the dream and allow it to breathe the love for him held deep in me. Feel the embrace beyonds the heavens blue, the secrets released of a love so true. Whisper not in the voice of song, the music of life is short, yet strong. Sun light, moon dust and river or bay, it is how we make the distance fade.