Heart

My promise day in and day out, 

to document our love on earth and in the clouds. 

Writing heartfelt words of my love for you 

as only my heart would know how to do. 

~

Go on and do it, 

hold me in your arms, 

I've been holding you, 

holding you in my heart. 

Go on and say it, 

if saying it makes it so, 

I say it every day, 

"I love you so."

Rest of My Life

I'm gonna close my eyes
and hold you so very tight,
as long as they stay closed
I'll hold you day and night.

I'm gonna whisper
sweet words of love
and send them to you
via the clouds above.

I'm gonna pull you near
and dance through life,
keep you in my heart
for the rest of my life.

~

I reached out to the heavens,
the skies no longer gray and
in the blue of the moment
all sadness began to fade.

 Like the roar of the wind
 as it tapped at my window pane,
I feel your love within me
day after day.

Bright like sunshine
as you warm my soul ,
giving meaning to this life
when your love first took
hold.

I reached out to the heavens,
the skies no longer gray and
in the blue of the moment
all sadness began to fade.

~

Hold my hand,
my heart is yours,
forever and ever
my forevermore.

Looks to the clouds,
reach for the stars,
mine and yours
no matter how far.

Hold my hand,
my heart is yours,
forever and ever
my forevermore.

No sadness for us,
these tears of joy,
united in love
cannot be destroyed.

Hold my hand,
my heart is yours,
forever and ever
my forevermore.

~
Life is fragile,
fragile indeed,
I give you my love
when you are in need.

Whether I am here
or my soul at rest,
the words I leave
are a testimony of
our love I confess.

Life is fragile,
fragile indeed,
I give you my love
for you to do as
you please.

Everyday is ...National I love you day.

It's one of those mornings ...I am awake but not so anxious to get out of bed and face the day. We are at the verge of turning the calendar to 2017. I kind of laughed as I looked at the holidays that have been created. There is actually on September 22nd a " deary diary day."  Well obviously I don't need a day set aside to write,  I thought I would start with January so you don't miss any holidays or observances  I was going to create my own holiday  the " Dear I love you more day" but actually everyday is Dear I love you more day.  


.JANUARY 1
National Hangover Day
New Year’s Day

JANUARY 2
National Buffet Day
National Cream Puff Day
National Personal Trainer Awareness Day
Science Fiction Day #ScienceFictionDay
National Thank God It’s Monday Day – First Monday in January

JANUARY 3
National Chocolate Covered Cherry Day
National Drinking Straw Day
National Fruitcake Toss Day

JANUARY 4
National Spaghetti Day
National Trivia Day #NationalTriviaDay

JANUARY 5
National Bird Day
National Whipped Cream Day

JANUARY 6
National Bean Day
National Cuddle Up Day
National Shortbread Day
National Technology Day

JANUARY 7
National Bobblehead Day
National Tempura Day

JANUARY 8
National Argyle Day
National Bubble Bath Day
National English Toffee Day
National JoyGerm Day
National Sunday Supper Day – Second Sunday in January

JANUARY 9
National Apricot Day
National Static Electricity Day
National Clean Off Your Desk Day – Second Monday in January

JANUARY 10
National Bittersweet Chocolate Day
National Cut Your Energy Costs Day
National Save The Eagles Day

JANUARY 11
National Human Trafficking Awareness Day
National Milk Day
National Step in the Puddle and Splash Your Friends Day

JANUARY 12
National Curried Chicken Day
National Marzipan Day
National Pharmacist Day

JANUARY 13
National Peach Melba Day
National Rubber Ducky Day
National Sticker Day
Stephen Foster Memorial Day
National Blame Someone Else Day – First Friday The 13th of The Year

JANUARY 14
Dress Up Your Pet Day #DressUpYourPetDay
National Hot Pastrami Sandwich Day
Ratification Day
National Vision Board Day – Second Saturday in January

JANUARY 15
National Hat Day #NationalHatDay
National Strawberry Ice Cream Day

JANUARY 16
National Fig Newton Day
National Nothing Day
National Religious Freedom Day
National Without a Scalpel Day
Martin Luther King Jr. Day – Third Monday in January

JANUARY 17
National Bootlegger’s Day
National Hot Buttered Rum Day

JANUARY 18
National Peking Duck Day
National Winnie The Pooh Day

JANUARY 19
National Popcorn Day
Get to Know Your Customers Day #GetToKnowYourCustomersDay – Third Thursday of Each Quarter

JANUARY 20
National Buttercrunch Day
Cheese Lovers Day #CheeseLoversDay
National Disc Jockey Day

JANUARY 21
National Granola Bar Day
National Hugging Day
Squirrel Appreciation Day

JANUARY 22
National Blonde Brownie Day

JANUARY 23
National Handwriting Day
National Pi Day #NationalPieDay

JANUARY 24
Beer Can Appreciation Day
National Compliment Day
National Peanut Butter Day

JANUARY 25
Community Manager Appreciation Day #CMAD
National Irish Coffee Day
National Opposite Day

JANUARY 26
National Green Juice Day
National Peanut Brittle Day
National Spouses Day

JANUARY 27
International Day of Commemoration in Memory of the VIctims of the Holocaust
National Chocolate Cake Day

JANUARY 28
Data Privacy Day
National Blueberry Pancake Day
National Have Fun At Work Day
National Kazoo Day
National Seed Swap Day – Last Saturday in January

JANUARY 29
National Corn Chip Day
National Puzzle Day

JANUARY 30
National Croissant Day
National Bubble Wrap Appreciation Day – Last Monday of January

JANUARY 31
Street Children’s Day
National Backward Day
National Inspire Your Heart With Art Day

Cruel Fate

As 2017 quickly approaches I find myself not so much filled with regret as questioning time, fate and circumstance. I didn't go looking nor did I hope to find a love so gentle it calms me through my most troubled times. I never expected my heart could feel this way, until I met you and I was never quite the same. I feel a certain amount of happiness to have you in my life and a touch of sorrow that doesn't feel quite right. I do believe circumstance keeps us apart and time passes so quickly as tool of cruel fate. I'll take this moment to tell you how I feel as long as you are listening the tear will be still.

My heart is beating
for you and you alone
from the moment
you first said hello.

My eyes are closed
and my heart is open wide
and you quickly entered
and are there inside.

My heart is beating for
you and you alone ,
from the moment
you first said hello.

We share what others
may never understand,
a love that strengthens
without any demands.

My heart is beating for
you and you alone,
from the moment
you first said hello.

Our flesh is parted
our souls are one
and that is the story
of this special kind
of love.

Calm and not as emotions flow

and a chill races through my body. 

2017...Hope and Faith

I am skipping Christmas and going straight to 2017. Goodbye 2016 I don't know how it was for the wine industry but it wasn't a very good year for family and friends. I spent the first months of spring two months at that, next to the bedside of unequivocally the devil. Kind of reminded me of a baby when they are sleeping  you say ahhh but when they wake up and screaming and you don't know why you shake your head. But again on a positive note as my son would say " we are on the right side of the green grass."
Summer was busy and working had me looking up , ok ok , so I am known to walk with my head in the clouds. It was quite the option than to keep my feet on the ground and deal with the negativity that can surround us on a regular basis. But all in all my head afloat I survived Summer with not much fanfare.
Labor day use to be our big holiday celebration and open house of sort  where friends and family came , ate , partied , laughed and played games...on a sad note most of them have passed away...no stopping the aging process lol. Well except for me I am forever ten years old...my son inherited the gene for forever ten years old. That is good and bad. Speaking of passing away, I had to say goodbye to another sibling, the down side to a big family is that you have more to lose. My sister went out with a big bang ...literally. Who in their right mind tries to beat a train...well key word there is "right mind." Yesterday my favorite Aunt passed away ...Good bye Aunt Josie...she was up in age and lived a good life but then again on the down side for all her family nothing puts a damper on the holidays than dying at Christmas etc. 
There were days I didn't think I would pull through , felt like hands around my neck squeezing the life out of me. Well I guess God just isn't finished with me yet, I am still here. My sister Lex is still hanging in there , health issues, dialysis, bronchitis, slipping on the ice destroying what little brain cells she has left she calls me and says" Rachel I don't think i'll be here to take care of you. Those are definitely not words I wanted to hear. But I thought about that, I am her little sister no matter how old we get. When I was a small child and my earliest memories were of her pushing me in the old carriage she was more of a mother than a older sister. Through the years as I got older the relationship changed she still was the big sister but then she became my best friend.  Watching her going through the struggles to survive is a hell in itself. 
Crappy as it all sounds there are some good times.....conversations where we laughed and a few where I cried. I come to realize rich or poor everyone has a little hell to deal with, okay some have a little bigger hell .. Life is a balance of circumstance , choice and well a bit of fate. Everyday is not going to be sunshine and blue skies and there is no magical cure for the downside. well maybe  has be reverting back to " thinking you're still ten years old "  The key is to bring balance...I didn't write the song but you have to sing...
"You've got to give a little, take a little 

And let your poor heart break a little
That's the story of,
That's the glory of love

You've got to laugh a little, cry a little
Before the clouds roll by a little
That's the story of,
That's the glory of love.

As long as there's the two of you
You've got the world and all its charms
And when the world is through with you
You've got each other's arms.

You've got to win a little, lose a little
And always have the blues a little
That's the story of,
That's the glory of love.

On this journey people come and go .... " hey I am not in kansas anymore" lol "people come and go so quickly here."    I  am grateful on this journey for those who have crossed my path and for those who dare to journey along side me. I am blessed and filled with love. Just thinking of having you in my life touches on many emotions, I am more at peace, filled with passion and a spiritual connection. At the core of my being when I am most fragile and filled with doubt I reach out and find you reaching back....yeah yeah yeah reached for your hand and  found your heart. 

But with each day that passes we still have hope and faith. I sure do hope 2017 is better and I have faith that it will be. 

Upon the Heavens

I looked at the clouds
both dark and gray
with snowflakes falling
on a typical winter day.

I found myself dreaming
loving image of two,
on the cloud dance
there was me and you.


~

Heavenly Blue

When the sun sends warm rays
and the wind whispers your name,
when the skies are a heavenly blue
at that moment I know I am there
with you.

When my soul feels peace of mind
and your love with mine entwines,
when the clouds go passing by
at that moment I know you're
mine.

Take it to the attic...

Raising children an all to popular line when asked what to do with something was " take it to the attic." I hadn't been up there in a while and as I rummaged through the various boxes I found myself traveling once more through an array of memories. From the tiny snow suit that was passed down to each child to papers that were tucked in boxes from their school days.
The attic was more than a place where you hung on to items that should have been long ago donated to the second hand store, it was a place of solitude. I remember it as a safe haven when I couldn't necessarily get away. Sometimes a place of deep thought and occasionally a place where I could hide away from everything.
With the holidays approaching my mind reviews life like a child's flip book. Where you flip the pages and a picture story reveals itself. Maybe its more like the title of the movie " the good, the bad and the ugly" as life contains all of that and more.
Another year and another holiday approaching ...wishing you a Merry Christmas!

Again... reached for your hand and found your heart, 

touched your heart and found your soul. 

Cherished Love

Star light, blue skies,
good night my love.
Daylight, sunshine,
good morning my love.

Whispers of the morning
and song in the night
all have the same message
of you whom I love.

Star light, blue skies,
good night my love.
Daylight, sunshine
good morning my love.

The dance upon the heavens,
finds me in your heart
and that is where you've
been from the very start.

~

Your love carries
me to a faraway land,
our very own heaven
where the heart commands.

I simply close my eyes
and there I am with you,
visualize the silhouette
the bonding of two.

~

Tighter and tighter
your hand in mine
weaves the flesh
as our love entwines.

Gentle spirit
comforts my soul
with a whisper of love
that daily unfolds.

Evening Skies

When stars scatter
over evening skies
the dreams of love
my heart confides.

Sleep well my darling
and wake unto me,
that is how each day
was meant to be.

Peaceful and loving
no magic of sort,
the soul in motion
is what we court.

When stars scatter
over evening skies
the dreams of love
my heart confides.

Forever My King

The stars don't write the songs
the words don't mean a thing,
I spend my time expressing
all that you mean to me.

Rearranging letters
and trying to make sense
but nothing really matters
in how the song is penned.

Like a collision in the heavens
with our passion and desire,
fuels the inner flames that
sets our love on fire.

Ba da da da da dum
ba da da da da dum
from my heart the emotions
to you whom I love.

The stars don't write the songs
the words don't mean a thing,
I spend my time expressing
all that you mean to me.

You're the reason for my smiles
the love that's in my heart,
the joy of a thousand heavens
when two souls are complete.



~

Forever my King
and forever your Queen,
that's the magic
only happiness can bring.

Forever and a day
when heaven awaits,
I'll be there with you
in the dream we made.

Sweet moment of peace
it's not make believe,
when hearts come together
and souls dance and sing.

Forever my King
and forever your Queen,
that's the magic only
happiness can bring.

CM for the Charm

Kiss good morning,
a dance upon the clouds
an embrace of hearts
keeps the feet off the ground.

The hills are a blanket of white
and a chill is in the air
but I feel the warmth of love
with each moment we share.

~

I courtesy to my king
and he bowed to me
a smile upon my face
and I began to sing.

The melody of love
that only he would know
inspired by the heart
this love of ours grows.

Poem or Emotion or Happiness in Play

I gazed on out the window

at the newly fallen snow 

and my mind drifted to you

on this winter of white day.

I thought about the moment

you came into my life and 

brought your sweet happiness

that makes life feel right.

Some may it calling dreaming

or some kind of fantasy in play

but I know very different 

as our souls found their way.

Bonding of the spirit, 

friendship that doesn't fade,

with you in my heart 

it's a celebration a day. 

Fluffs Pillow

Get close to me,
it's snuggle time,
your heart beat
in sync with mine.

Fluffs the pillow,
and holds you close
for you and I alone,
share what others will
never know.

Get close to me
it's snuggle time
your heart beat
in sync with mine.

Kiss

Reality has spoken
in the dance upon the clouds
the flesh has not yet bonded
but the heart is truly bound.

When the days are stressful
and I need that break away,
your love reaches on out to me
in this wonderful kind of way.

It is incredible the visions
the images of soul to soul
when we meet upon the clouds
and an everloving hold.

So as my fingers type the words
that will live beyond this earthly time,
I am quickly reminded
how hearts first entwined.


~

Tears upon the page fade the words of yesterday 

but scripted to the heart the love of two remain.

~

Courtesy to my king ....with a kiss. 

~

Sometimes you just need a good cry... 

~

My love for you is infinite. 

~

In My Heart

It's not a dream
or a fantasy of sort,
the dance in the heavens
is joined heart to heart.

It eased the tension
I soared in disbelief,
with you my king beside me
we mastered such a feat.

It's not a dream
or a fantasy of sort,
the dance in the heavens
is joined heart to heart.

~
Soft white silk billows
as it takes to the wind,
the visual quite haunting
as here the dream begins.

Your hand reached out to me
and pulled me so ever close ,
no longer two silhouettes
one image now a pose.

Tears of emotion fell
as if lifted from a spell,
the dance of lovers
now a story tells.

I can feel your heartbeat
though distanced by the day,
you are here in my heart
and in my heart you'll stay.

...rest of life.

I don't know if it was the music playing
or the clouds that blanketed the night,
but a calm found me in your arms
and in your heart for the rest of life.

I don't know what you are thinking
or what tomorrow will bring
but my heart took to the heavens
where it once more began to sing.

I don't know if it was the music playing
or the clouds that blanketed the night,
but a calm found me in your arms
and in your heart for the rest of life.

The stars were hidden in the night
and the moon fell behind the clouds
as I reached out into the darkness
it was your love I felt surround.

I don't know if it was the music playing
or the clouds that blanketed the night,
but a calm found me in your arms
and in your heart for the rest of life.

More..

No ordinary kiss
from my lips to yours,
this kiss is from my heart
to you who I adore.

It comes via the heavens
on this detour we call life
by passing the darkness
to bring you sunshine bright.







~

My fingers on the keyboard
and my heart there with you
as I write the words of love
and what this love can do.

It eases my troubled heart,
bring sunshine to the gray
and when I share the words
it brings happiness to the day.

Destiny was written
on a page up in the clouds
and sent down to join us
as the world spins around.

My fingers on the keyboard
and my heart there with you
as I write the words of love
and what this love can do.

Brings a smile to my face
and warms my very soul
with the message of hope
that we forever hold.

~

Winter upon us,
skies dark and gray
and still the sunshine
finds the way.

Love across the mountains
no rivers to divide,
our love is awfully special
when you are by my side.


~


I reckon fate
had something to do
with bringing us together
and making gray skies blue.

Wipe away the tears
erase all signs of pain,
you're love is in my heart
each and everyday.

~

Like a breath deep
within my soul,
when I write the words
the darkness no longer
has a hold.

I can feel the power
and magic of love,
like an angel of heaven
sent down from above.

~



Powerful reflection
the shadows of my heart
reaches out to you
like the heavens touch the
stars.

Incredible emotions
a freedom from the start,
soothes my spirit whether
near or far.

Powerful reflection
the shadows of my heart
reaches out to you
like the heavens touch
the stars.


~
Words, words, words
mean nothing to me,
until infused with happiness
than love is set free.

I danced in the kitchen,
I giggled from the start
holding you close to me
as I held you in my heart.

~

It's not a dream,
no story to tell,
this feeling releases
me from my hell.

Tears of emotion
neither good or bad,
unlocking the gateway
where all can be had.

~

The words bring me closer,
how could that possibly be?
But somehow it channels
your love directly to me.

There is a calm within me
that somehow sets me free
as I begin to write the words
of the love that feels like a
dream.

Amazing

How can I say, 

what words can't convey?

the love I feel for you

day after day.

Sown in my heart 

grows more with each day,

the blooms of our love 

blossoms in an amazing way.

How can I say

what words can't convey?

the love I feel for you 

day after day.

~

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