Lesson

 I accepted this life 

for what it can bring, 

chapters written 

stored in my memories. 

Some are filled with sorrow

that never fades away and

the happiness I hang on to

gets me through the day.

I'll never quite understand as

the game was not in the plan,

I let my guard down and 

you found your way in. 

Nothing can replace

or take the place of you.

no matter how I try 

I am trapped in those days

with you.

It is a lesson 

on how heartache feels,

the coming together and

breaking down the shield.

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That feeling of running

when your feet are standing still, 

the emotions within that never

seem to heal. 

I needed the courage 

to stand alone, 

but wanted you 

no matter where I'd go.

Days became years and still

 I stood on the path of fear,

wanting to get away and 

make my life anew.

I just kept reaching 

out for your hand 

and the sadness moment

was when I realized you 

didn't understand.

It was a blend of want and need

that found me begging on my knees,

you'd think the tears would no longer fall

and I'd be over this once and for all.