That Something Special

Before the sun had yet to rise

and the stars still ruled the sky

I woke to find it was all a dream

and it was just a pillow by my side. 

My body seem to tremble 

as a chill crossed over me 

and in the dark of morning

I was touched by memories. 

Passion played a card and 

I felt your kiss upon my lips,

our hearts in warm embrace

in a collision of two passing 

ships. 
~
I must be crazy, 
crazy for  you, 
as your on my mind
no matter what I do. 

You are there when 
I first awake and 
the absence of you
causes a heartache. 

I must be crazy, 
crazy for  you, 
as your on my mind
no matter what I do.
~

Peace

I had to come to terms with reality and
accept that your love is a part of me. 
There is no denying what mountains it
can move and as I look unto the blue sky 
I bless the day that I met you. 

It is not about greatness, perfection or a 
dream, the truth is in the heart the day
you gave your love to me. 
Beautiful the kindness I feel lit the darkness
and a broken heart it healed. 


I had to come to terms with reality and
accept that your love is a part of me. 
There is no denying what mountains it
can move and as I look unto the blue sky 
I bless the day that I met you.




I looked to the heavens, 
the stars were so bright, 
there seem to be more 
in the clear winter sky. 

I didn't know the constellations 
that formed  nor there names or 
the meanings or what was in 
store. 

Somehow they seem to reveal, 
the on going story of what my 
heart feels. 

I looked to the heavens, 
the stars were so bright, 
there seem to be more 
in the clear winter sky. 
~
Flip on through the pages
there is nothing to read, 
for I inscribed word for 
word your love to memory. 

I don't need to shout it, 
a whisper will do as I 
whisper to the wind, to 
send my love to you. 

Flip on through the pages
there is nothing to read, 
for I inscribed word for 
word your love to memory. 
~
I thought I knew how to dance until
you took my hand and gave me a glance.
My feet lifted from the ground and
in the heavens I danced all around.

I thought I knew the feelings of love,
that is until you tenderly touched me
and warmed my heart all along
giving to me a life long smile.
~

To harness the heavens and ride 
upon the clouds, I'd direct all my 
energy to keep from falling down. 

I'd master the moment and rule 
the skies of blue as I'd blow 
into the wind and send my 
love to you. 
~
I sit here dreaming, 
dreaming of you, 
wishing and wanting 
them all to come true. 

I sit here and giggle 
with a tear on my cheek, 
as I think of you darling 
and what you to me. 

I sit here alone and yet
grateful am I, that I had 
a chance to be touched 
from inside. 

I sit here and I say a prayer
that I accepted the journey
that once brought you here. 
~
There is always a place that 
is safe to be and that is 
where I go when you are not
with me. 

I can journey the world by a
mere thought, by closing my 
eyes and holding on. 

Over the many miles, I travel
with a tear and a smile. From 
the moment I wake till I say
good night. 

~

I tried to recapture and
hold that moment still, 
the time when laughter
danced upon the hills. 

That something special, 
my lonely heart declared, 
removed the massive void 
when we had time to share.

I tried to recapture and 
hold that moment still, 
the time when laughter 
danced upon the hills. 

~

~

The sun rising from behind the hills 

in a ray of brilliant yellow and a 

sense of awareness came over me

and my knees wobbled as if jello. 

I knew that you were at a distance,

but I felt you close at heart as if the

rays of sun bridged the miles where 

once only the vast emptiness controlled

the dark. 

~

It wasn't by chance 

that our souls came together, 

it was the meeting of hearts 

that made each day feel like 

summer weather. 

No words could explain it, 

no music, voice or song, 

yet it whispers to my soul

that we are truly forever. 

~

Gaze unto the heavens 

and dance, dance, dance. 

~

The only thing better than to wake in your arms, 

is to fall asleep in them. 

~
Lost in a song only to be found in your heart.  

The limit that time places upon is frightening 

as there is so much I want to do. 

~

~
Shattered Crystal and torn lace.

~

Our heart might trick us
but our soul never will.

~

Rodents reveal a lot about humans, 

we don't like being backed into a corner 

and don't step on a sticky trap. 

~

In loving we are shown both 

our weakness and our strengths. 

~


I always wondered how it was possible at the very same poet, to be both happy and sad. I am happy for the experiences that life has granted me, sad that time puts limitations on them all. Life is a balance of wants and needs, and than there is that which both wanting and needing you.

You are the song I sing,
the love that I yearn for,
the dreams that have
yet to come true...you
are indeed love.
~



Sail away sweet love,
I am there by your side. 

Take to the sea and watch

the blue of the sky. 

The sun is shining, 

the clouds puffy white

and I am ready hold

you for the rest of my life. 

Sail away sweet love, 

I am there by your side.

Take to the see and watch

the blue of the sky. 

I find myself always dreaming of you, 

no matter where I am at or what I do. 

My mind drifts like clouds in the wind 

and that is how this amazing love begins. 

Touched my heart with your memory, 

taught me how to once more softly sing. 

Spun like yarn on a spinning wheel, 

accumulating are the emotions I feel. 

I find myself always dreaming of you, 

no matter where I am at or what I do. 

My mind drifts like clouds in the wind 

and that is how this amazing love begins.

I once forgot to dream and 

I lost my direction. 

~

The secret is in how you embrace love, 

keep it close and visit it often. 

The dance... it was never in the foot steps,

it has always been in the partner. 

That something special,
brings life to the day,
tickles the heart in a
warm and loving way.

To rise above circumstance, 

one must remember to dance...

~

Dum dee dum dee da da da, 
no words do we need, your 
love and mine was always 
meant to be. 

Dum dee dum dee da da da, 
no words do wee need, 
for our hearts sing out loud
and that is how it should be. 

Embracing the Moment

...each day is a happy beginning.


~

You are the song that sings to my heart,
the dreams that are infused with your memory,
the love that makes me grateful for each moment of a day.
~

The warmth of the sun, the blue of the sky and
the embracing of the moment, all remind me of my love for you. 

~

They say" this too shall pass" 

but they must have never fallen in love. 

~

Don't go stepping on my toes...

~

The music of love is powerful indeed

it and overcome the walls of evil. 

~

One must stand behind the curtains,

to understand how it feels when they are drawn. 

~

Happiness is found when one nurtures the love. 

~

An acquaintance who frequents the same shops and with whom we share conversation. Said " something looks different about you, you look happy. "  It is incredible the power of the mind. I invested in speakers for my desk computer and found myself listening to music an dancing in the kitchen. In a almost magical way, I was able to break down the barriers and find myself once more in your arms. 

I can't let you go, 

you know I love you so, 

always in my dreams, 

you mean so much to me. 

Heaven is all around, 

hell can't keep us down.

I feel sentimentally, 

all my thoughts pleasantly.

~

You can distance the body

and continue to tease the mind 

but nothing can ever separate,  

as our hearts are tightly entwined. 

You can go about your life

pretending that times have changed,

but deep in your soul you know

that our love truly reigns. 

Forever was written for you and I, 

as we rule the heavens blue of the sky,

we dance as lovers on the clouds , 

as your heart and mine are the only

ones allowed. 

You can distance the body 

and continue to tease the mind,

but nothing can ever separate, 

as our hearts are tightly entwined. 

If you realized how limited time was, 

you would take nothing for granted. 

~

Everyone is special, 

most people just aren't aware of it. 

~

The grass is greener, 

my grass is pretty green here. 

~

I use to wish we could really see into a crystal ball, 

than it occurred to me, we  might not like what we see. 

~

If tomorrow never comes, 

I remind myself how much of your love I hold in my heart. 

~

Life is about survival, 

for even the mostly financially wealthy cannot cheat death. 

~

I am inspired by the song of life 

and of course that entails the music of love. 

~

Sometimes the curtains just open wide on their own, 

amazing how beautiful the most simple of things. 

The warmth of the sun, the sounds of a song bird, 

the blue of the sky and of course 

the magic of memories. 

I have always felt closest to nature. One with the flowers, birds and animals revealed almost everything you need to know about life. From the very beginning of tending my gardens, the flowers revealed our strengths and weaknesses. The power of mother nature and the patience that we must give to time. The willow and its shallow roots, the oak and its strength, the crowding of perennials, the passing of an annual and the need for space that a rose needs to provide us with the most spectacular blooms. With all the lessons that are revealed , there are times when I still sense myself in a state of confusion. Trying to make sense of that which is almost impossible at that moment to understand. As with the lack of nurturing  " you reap what you sow."
I sit here gazing out the window as I watch the melting of one storm and awaiting another. The sun cresting the hill as it looks to take its place in the morning sky and the sky a grayish blue that reminds of us both the positive and negative in life. With the music playing in the background my mind travels from the past to the present. I sit here with no regrets for every chapter allows us to journey forward. When a blanket of melancholy finds a way to cover like darkness, I think of you and I smile and I thank God for each day.

Neglected flowers wilt and dry,
never to bloom, the blossoms die.
Withered their memory fades,
never to see another day.

~


I danced to the music of the heart,
listened to the song of the soul and
rejoiced in the sharing of our love.

~
If you look upon the blue of the sky
think of me, if you can feel the sun
warm your heart, think of me.

If you listen to the song of love,
think of me, if you can hear the
words of joy, think of me.
~

If you dissected every tear that has ever fallen from my heart, you would find each one is formed in your absence and contains all the ache one heart can manage. 

Never Very Far

When heart and soul meet with desire,
the consequential moment is a blazing fire.
Haunting each second of my day and night,
creating magical moments that I can't fight.

Stars in the sky and the moon shining bright,
empty arms beg to hold you passionately tonight.
Once more I close my eyes and this is what I see,
the void of darkness replaced by the sweetest memories.

When heart and soul meet with desire,
the consequential moment is a blazing fire.
Haunting each second of my day and night,
creating magical moments that I can't fight.

Falling tears a river will they make , so I may
sail my love to you each and every day.
The wind is blowing, the waves are hitting hard
as my love for you is never very far.

~

The song released from my soul,
sings of passion that never grows old.
My love for you is but a thought away
and with you beyond my dying day.

Listen closely and this my love you'll hear,
like a whisper meant only for your ears.
Music from angels in the heavens high
and clouds that wait for you and I.

~
Solemn Verse

I speak from heart and soul,
from where you first took hold.
Deep inside where love grows
spoken on a serious note.

Sad impressions of time gone by,
of broken bridges and mountains high.
An ache that never truly subsides as I
wish like a fool on the stars in the sky.

1. Deeply earnest, serious, and sober.
2. Somberly or gravely impressive.
3. Performed with full ceremony

that wait for you and I .

Touched MY Heart

Unlike a book where the chapters are in print unlikely to change the story . I find the lessons in life are constantly altered by the moment in time. As the years have passed by, I find myself looking back at individual chapters as if they were rewritten as a sequel to the present. Maybe it's not the story that changes but our interpretation of the story.

Touched my heart
in an amazing way,
left an imprint on my
soul that can be seen
to this day.

Some things change
and that may be true,
but how I feel for you,
is how forever rules the
blue.

Touched my heart
in an amazing way,
left an imprint on my
soul that can be seen
to this day.

The sun no longer shining
and only stars now rule the
sky but like the love that
you gave to me sparkles
time after time.
~

Forever Dust

It must have fallen
and landed on me,
coated with forever
dust, your love is
all over me.

Some things fade,
like aged ink on a page,
but my love for  you is
stronger and is with me
to this day.

We only walk this earth
for an uncertain time,
but whether I am here or
not our love will never
fade.

Forever dust had fallen from
the sky and I knew at that
moment , I was yours and
you were mine.

I never asked for anything
that money could buy, all
I ever wanted was to be
there by your side.

Within My Heart

I remember as a child lying in the grass, looking up at the clouds and amazed at all the images that the clouds create or we create out of the clouds. The irony of it is, rarely do two people see the exact same image. As I have gotten older, I realize where your mind is at the moment and of course how fast the clouds are moving and changing alters the images.
 I was driving down the road and as I looked up at the blue of the sky, the clouds appeared to be big heart shaped fluff of white staring back at me. The more I looked the more I saw, the more I saw the more I knew, the more I knew, the bigger the smile, the bigger the smile, the kinder the memories, the kinder the memories, the more I loved, the more I loved, the more I thought of you...

There are miles between us,
we are mountains a part and
yet you are still close to me,
you are here deep within my
heart.

We don't need words to tell
how much we care, we share
both the rise and set of the sun
and the starry midnight air.

I see you in the passing clouds,
where we dance the night away
and in the hills of the hollow you
remove all traces of gray.

There are miles between us,
we are mountains a part and
yet you are still close to me,
you are here deep within my
heart.


``
They say time heals
but I think time reveals.

Truth,
reality,
maturity,
vulnerability
and the trials
that span all of time.

~
I sensed a magic...


From my window I watch as
the moon rules the night sky
and from heart I review the
love that grips and holds
tight my very being.

-
I saw the blue of the sky,
smelled the sweet fragrance of a rose
and embraced love as I fell from the clouds .
~
With classical music I can create a ballet,
with love I can soar beyond the reign of hell.

Endless Combinations

In the spring garden where quince is in bloom

I find myself dreaming of the dance under the blue.

~

You and I are entwined into one, 

as we grace the earth and heaven above. 

You know it when you see it , you feel

it to be true, there is no mistaking how

much I love you. 

Hearts that met by surprise and souls 

that account for all the lost time. 

Comforted by my thoughts of you, 

warms my spirit, through and through. 

You and I are entwined into one, 

as we grace the earth and heaven above. 

You know it when you see it, you feel it

to be true, there is no mistaking how 

much I love you. 

~

On the ship and out to sea, 

storms erupting, a blur of scene, 

treading water, head up high, 

felt your hand in mine. 

~

Closer you pull me, 

the more natural it seems, 

your heart and mine 

something out of a dream. 

~

The waves violent, rush to shore, 

hitting the rocks, makes one feel torn. 

The sun speaks in riddles to me, 

warming the heart and still a chill 

takes over me. 

I try to completely understand, 

the many detours that life commands. 

Over the mountains, circling around, 

a few take me further and then I 

stand confronted by a dead end. 

~

Endless Combinations

How many ways can the heart say I love you? The combination is endless, the words change each second of the day, from the moment you touched my heart, the dreams a platform made. Step by step, to the heavens high, whispers of love for you and I. 

`~

Just me and the stars and the angels above

just me dreaming of you my sweet love.

From the moment I wake up till I'm

fast asleep my thoughts are consumed

with your memory.

 

Just me and the stars and the angels above

just me dreaming of you my sweet love.

Something happened as I know as your

love continues  to grow.

 

Mockingbird

The mockingbird mimics many a cry,
but to his mate there is no surprise.
He sings in the morning as the sun
begins to rise with a variety of song
that is a delight.

Same moon, same stars,
same blue of the sky.
Same smile, same laughter
your heart and mine.

Intimate Desires

Obscure but clearly noted,
distant yet intimately close,
no ending nor beginning an
on going eternal bliss.

Absent yet in my heart,
sunny with shards of dark,
reminiscing of yesterday,
when laughter paved the
way.

~

Here In My Heart

Right outside my window
winter creates the scene,
here in my heart I write
from sweet memory.

Everyday is spring,
though snowflakes fall
and with your love I
have got it all.

The magic of life,
the dreams of delight
every moment, every
hour, day and night.

I have you with me,
you're here in my heart,
I'll never let go, I have
you for the rest of my
life.

Right outside my window
winter creates the scene,
here in my heart I write
from sweet memory.

...

Brass horses join in three,
reveal the image of memory,
broken hearts, troubled souls,
lost love in days of old.

Skies of gray, passing storms,
unleash the sorrow still in store,
felt it, held it let it go and melts
the heart like summer snow.

Happy Valentines Day

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 http://www.louvre.fr/en/visites-en-ligne This is the most amazing virtual tour that I have ever taken. Take my hand and walk with me. We have the museum to our self. It is breath taking.

Enjoys the view while I stroll with you
hand in hand , with a kiss or two.
Room to room, fascinating as can be,
sharing a moment brings you closer to
me.


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From my window I watch as the snow falls
and my feather friends to the feeder have me in awe.
Then my mind drifts and I am with you , thinking
about life and how love can see through.

~

Virtual tours, virtual dreams,
with you by my side, my heart sings.
Traveling the world and it seems so fine,
amazed at the images that are seared to the mind.

As long as I hold your love close to me, hold
the magic that makes winter take on spring.
Places I might never have ever seen, are
right here, with you next to me.

The Night Sky

The moon is almost completely full and Jupiter is to the right
and though we are a distance away, you are in my arms tonight.
Time has no way of standing still and so we must make
the most of raging rivers and climbing the troubled hills.




The moon is almost completely full and Jupiter is to the right and though we are a distance away, you are in my arms tonight.Time has no way of standing still and so we must make the most of raging rivers and climbing the troubled hills.


Far as the blue bird in winter and close as the evening sky,that is the love we share morning and night. Sometimes I feel lonely , sad and blue and that is when I feel your hand tighten as you pull me through.

There is the magic of the night sky that brings you here to my side. Smile of happiness replace the tears that
once ruled down my face.

The moon is almost full and Jupiter is to the right and though we are a distance away, you are in my arms tonight.Time has no way of standing still and so we must make the most of raging rivers and climbing the troubled hills.
~
The only guarantee is in yesterday,
as we know nothing of what tomorrow
will bring. So I take this moment to
sends my thanks to all the angels
that showered their gifts on me.

Hope that love would surface and
a warmth with every smile and my
dreams to bring a comfort as
we dance high on the clouds.

The only guarantee is in yesterday,
as we know nothing of what tomorrow
will bring. So I take this moment to
send my thanks to all the angels that
showered their gifts on me.
~
I hummed a tune in a soft way,
no words need come our way,
images as kind as can be , the
reminders of love and what you
mean to me.

I felt a calm, like a peace inside
the warmth of friendship that
eases the troubled mind. Love
tenderly speaks in the silence
your love whispers sweet.

Thoughts that escape the moment

The end of love is to never have loved at all. 

~

Unselfish passion, doesn't look at the outcome. 

~

In my wildest dreams... I always find that you are beside me

and as I awake, I find that everyone is gone and 

you are still beside me. 

~

Reality always spins a different tale. 

~

That which fuels the fire of my soul, 

is made of patience, kindness, passion, 

joy and happiness...did I mention you?

~

The room is cold but as I think of you

I feel the warmth of a thousands suns. 

~

To feed the hunger,

one must not be deprived of love. 

~

I can see a stroke of anger in most, 

in you I see a stroke of gentleness. 

With My Eyes Closed

The moments where I acknowledge the void

is when I miss you most. 

~

I can't imagine dying without first experiencing unconditional love. 

Winter like the storms of life reminds me of the quote

" this too shall pass"

~

I travel a path that I barely recognize. 

~

I didn't create the bond 

therefore I can't break it. 

~

 I am not sure anyone can completely understand,

because I don't completely understand. 

~

There are many ways to die, 

spiritually, physically and emotionally.

~

I believe in love..

~

My morning, my day and my night, my life ...my love. 

It is knowing that I hold love in my heart

that gets me over the mountain. 

Hate is such a strong emotion, 

in the absence of love it is controlling. 

~

Allowing negativity a place is like 

check mate... and I don't like to lose. 

~

Sometimes you need a good cry,

I can give you mine. 

~

I have learned that love celebrates with happiness,if surrounded by peace and kindness, a gentle touch and patience...I learned this in its absence. 

That's Life

Two different pages, 

the same book. 

Life is just that simple, you either embrace the positive or give power to the negative. I felt at times like I was drowning at sea and gasping as I tried to get my breath. Somehow like slipping from the cloud of happiness I fell as if tumbling down through a tunnel of despair. The accumulation of negativity though small and became overwhelming. Desperately trying to overcome my surroundings and the walls of hell that were slowly being built as barriers. I looked to the morning sun, to the birds at the feeder and in my mind the music played and in my heart I danced.

Closing my eyes and feeling your hand reach out to me and pull me close. Two hearts beating as once and all of the world disappears as we rise to the clouds. Faceless yet, recognizable as souls take to the heavens.


" I am here, can you feel me?"
" You're here , yes I feel you."
Like the sun that warms my
cheek and the tremble of
the chill inside

.
" I am here, can you feel me?"
" You're here , yes I feel you."
Like the kiss of happiness left
upon my lips that places me
in the grasp of heaven bliss.
~

Spinning around in circles,
a round and round I go,
dizzy like a child as I
fall in the snow.

Waiting on you to take
my hand and pull me
my heart to yours in
this unwritten plan.

Spinning around in circles,
around and round I go,
dizzy like a child as I
fall in the snow.
~

All I know for sure is how my heart feels and

 with the memory I am dancing upon the clouds. 

Poetry...as the heart reveals it.

I quickly scanned my memories for the days with you,

as I escaped the darkness that seemed to ensue. 

Sunshine in my morning, stars in my night and you

are in my heart for the rest of my life. 

Spin, spin around,
circle upon the clouds,
close as two hearts
can be, in the dance
of my dreams.

Peaceful, our embrace,
heart to heart and face
to face. The Earth below
us and the heavens high
and just you and I.

Spin, spin around,
circle upon the clouds,
close as tow hearts
can be, in the dance
of my dreams.

Hold My Hand

I was dictating to the angels, 

I don't think they were taking any notes. 

...and then you turn the page.

~
On a clear day it all makes sense as I can see in all directions.

~
Winter comes with its own set of drapes.

~
When it is wanted it is love,
when not it is an obsession.

~
The chapter starts with " With feet firmly planted upon the earth and absent of any void the world took on a whole different view. "

~
I feel nothing, not good nor bad, maybe indifferent.

~
Life really is short and getting shorter with every passing moment.

~
It is like having a really good set of wind shield wipers, all of a sudden it all seems much clearer.
~

It is okay to dream...

The world indeed is becoming smaller.

~
Walking on a tightrope and you realize if you don't balance you will fall either way.

~
Loving is important but the pieces have to interlock or the void will continue.

~
I know how a mouse feels when stuck in a sticky trap.
~
When dreams are better than reality, time to wake up and make other choices.
~

~

Have you ever tried to hug a porcupine?

My Heart Belongs To You

.~
In the world where dreams begin the day, 
 happiness is the magic that places you 
in my heart to stay. 

This is our world, wonderful indeed, like 
the warmth of summer and the first of 
spring.

~

My heart speaks the words my hands write,
blue stars, brings your love from afar, my
heart speaks the words, my hands write.

~
If you stop to listen, I know that you will hear,
the words of love that my heart dared to share.
If you stop to hold, I know that you will embrace
each and every moment of each and everyday.

If you stop to see, I know that you will view,
the heavens as love would paint in a variety
of hues.
If you stop to remember, I know the memories
will flow and you will understand why our love
continues to grow.
~
No matter the combination of letters I write,
they all mean the same thing, I love you day
and night.
You are my good morning, the smile that
gets me through the day and my good night
that brings peace my way.


Breaks the silence, rules the night,
it must be love.
Warms the heart and touches the soul,
it must be love.
Wipes the tears from my eyes replaces it
with the blue of sky, it must be love, it
must be love, it must be love.
~



.not your world or my world, but a world in between.

~
Brass bells,crystal and angels,
all a reminder of days gone by.
Restless and weary with a heart
that aches as I hold on to better
days.
~
Every moment I share with you
makes the world a little smaller.

~
I'd trade it all, I'd give it away
for one day with you.

I'd never cry, wipe the tears
from my eyes for one day
with you.

I'd celebrate, the moment,
the hour each day with you.

I'd die with a smile, go out
in style holding on to you.

I'd trade it all, I'd give it away
for one day with you.



~

You can do what you want,
my heart I gave to you and
there is no giving back as
love is like bonding glue.

Strange as it may seem,
foolish am I, but reality
has spoken from earth
and heaven high.

Will You Still Love Me When I Am .....

He try to rob the music and pull the cloud out from under me, 

except the music is in my heart and the dance is with my soul. 

~

The heavy of darkness was lifted, 

when I realized that spring is with 

me twelve months a year. 

~

Everything has a breaking point, 

a rock takes a little longer. 

~

Once upon a time....

~

Silly smiles are equal to warm memories. 

~

Only a fool lets go... even when hanging from a thread. 

~

Winter Wonderland

Memories are like tales yet to be told,
stories of love and friendships of gold.
I traveled the many seas and as I
awake I find it was only make believe.

I walked along the shore, my mind
a drift like so many times before,
I thought of you in my arms and I
couldn't stop the racing of my heart.

~
Silence No Longer Rules

My heart whispers in song and
my soul shouts of happiness
as I dance to the music in
your arms where I belong.


Spinning in circles, round and
round I go as I am spun right
out of a dream to your awaiting
arms.

My heart whispers in song and
my soul shouts of happiness as
I dance to the music in your
arms where I belong


I took to dancing and the steps
led me to you and I smiled
as I dreamed of the sky blue.





The upside is February is lighter later and longer, even though I am grounded from an Eastern snow storm. Stuck inside gives me way to much time to think. So here goes my daily thoughts..People rarely want to discuss personal things in their life. I was pretty much the same way, keeping personal things to myself,  somethings were just off limits. But today I spoke of two sides of sex, the aggressive, forced ugly side and the beautiful consenting lovely side, like my own personal secrets.. Funny thing is I never really spoke about sex out loud. But I felt it to be freeing in an unusual way. As if acknowledgement was conducive to a sense of peace. In my early years I thought of sex as a forced and ugly experience and it wasn't till much later in life that I realized sex could be a beautiful loving experience. With a loving experience comes respect, tenderness, love , warmth, freedom and yes a personal empowerment. In ways that self empowering attitude took over all aspects of my little world. From business, to home life and friendships. It was something my sister said years back she said " you are to nice." It can't be right if in not wanting to hurt someone else you hurt yourself. I know that I have definitely been in that trap for way to long. I mention this only in that in speaking out loud and hearing my own voice allows me to relive the positive and let the negative go.

"Can I leave a tender a
passionate kiss upon
your lips? "  " As long
I can return the same
with a warm and
gentle kiss."


Hold you close and
feel your heart beat,
the image is magical
and lifts me off my
feet.

Whispers of love,
that carry me through
the day, so warm it can
melt the snow on the
stormiest day.

"Can I leave a tender a
passionate kiss upon
your lips? "  " As long
I can return the same
with a warm and
gentle kiss."

~

Feather Soft To My Cheek

Feather soft to my cheek,
reminds me what you mean to me.
Touches deeply from inside as it
brings  peace to my mind.

Always here with me and when
in need you're in my dreams.
Images that bring you near
even when I'm kissing air.

Feather soft to my cheek,
reminds me what you mean to me.
Touches deeply from inside as it
brings peace to my mind.

Celebrate the Moment

Even though I am keeping busy this winter while making supplies for the upcoming season, it doesn't stop my mind from being saturated with thought. I can remember the moment that it occurred to me that my grandmother had outlived most of her family and friends. I never asked her about it but I had always wondered exactly how she felt having to grieve over so many people or for that matter outlive them all. Grandma has buried two husbands, children and grandchildren, siblings and many friends. I began to think about those people who I had to say goodbye. The numbers were adding up, I also lost siblings, a parent,grandparents and close friends. It was never easy saying goodbye. Each time I felt as if it took something from me , rather than leaving something within me. I kept thinking about what my nearest friend Nancy said " when God closes a door, he opens a window." The truth is in my mountain God opened many windows, one at at time, I view threw them and saw images of hope. There was the other adage " you don't know what  you have until it's gone." Both statements were so true as new moments occurred nothing could replace the void left by those doors that had been closed. I found the irony of death was that it had revealed itself in many ways and not always was it the death of a body but sometimes it was death of a soul or the death within the heart.
Closing doors is an incredibly painful experience and yet a necessary part of life. The end cycle of our journey as felt by those who know and love us most. Other than watching love ones suffer in their last days of demise is the reality that we are all vulnerable and death will visit us all.
Tomorrow brings with us a new day, what that new day holds is yet to be seen. Touching hearts and souls has a way of bringing happiness and in the end can weigh heavily upon both heart and soul. Grandma was a magical woman with amazing qualities, she worked hard and loved life. She kept those closest to her in memory through pictures and articles which she proudly framed like a gallery along the walls.
Life is a book of many chapters, the characters evolve and we find that each day is a gift. Most of my life I believed that our destiny was to journey while fulfilling a goal according to the script of life. For some it is a very short time upon the other and for others it takes much longer to complete the journey. What is the journey and what is the plan that needs to be followed out? For each person it is so different as we see very young people leave the earth in what seems like way to soon. As my daughter send a text " I love you mom" I was quickly reminded how one life touches another and how we live on through so many people after our demise.

In the garden of life the blooms are
ongoing as one dies, one opens.



Always in my heart,
forever in my mind,
touched by an angel
you have never left
my side.

Words without meaning,
songs of happiness and
dances on the cloud
where we share that
special kiss.
~



I wanted a blueprint,
a plan that told me so,
which way to journey
and where I should go.

Who would hold my hand
and never let it go, how long
I would have and how many
seasons were left to go.

I had my share of memories,
the smiles that warmed my heart,
embraces my soul both near
and afar.

It wasn't always easy,
sometimes I cried a lot,
but the network was
expanding the journey far
and wide.

We have to embrace the chapter

and celebrate the moment.