Merry Christmas

My sister called she said" did you hear that they are threatening again to remove the manger in town square." I find it amazing if you listen to the story of baby Jesus that anyone could be threatened by peace and love.  I have read the bible many times and the stories can take on many varied interpretations, but all in all they are lessons that have stood the test of time. I think of Christmas as a time of renewed faith. When you calculate the heaviness that is placed upon us, you find that having a faith can reduce the weight of negativity. Sometimes its about bringing peace and other times acceptance of that with which we have no control over. There are many things in life that might make you want to give up, the tragedies take on many forms. It might be so that the best angels are right here on earth.
Over the years I have lost many dear friends, those important people who helped in the creating of memories. As I have gotten older I find that not many people can fill the shoes of those special people. I was a bit melancholy and really not prepared for company. My son's girlfriend stopped in and asked if I could bring out the paints so she could make decorations for the tree. We cleaned off the table and she sat down with her spirit and smile. Grateful am I for those earthly angels that enter my life.
Life doesn't always follow the plan and as I thought about my disappointments the tears swelled and I could not hold them back. I feel robotic at times moving to the expectations of others. My heart is heavy and I hunger to be held.


Lights on the tree,
christmas bells in the air,
the joy of the season
 is a celebration that nears.

My dreams are all so simple,
and meaningful to me, they
place you in my arms as
we dance to memory.

My eyes are closed and still
I can see through my heart
the love that was always
meant to be.

Lights on the tree,
Christmas bells in the air,
the joy of the season
 is a celebration that nears.

~
On the clouds in the heavens,
this dance for you and I,
take my hand, take my heart
for all of time.


On the clouds in the heavens,
this dance for you and I,
from my heart to yours,
there will be no goodbyes.

On the clouds in the heavens,
this dance for you and I,
take my hand, take my heart
for all of time.

I want to give up in the worst way,

but I don't think it is in my genetic make up.
 ~

Snap, crackle the wood is burning,

the holiday is near. I find myself,

daydreaming  wishing that you 

 were here.

Snap,crackle the wood is burning,

the fireplace is all a glow and the 

season is coming fast as I sit here

all alone.

Snap, crackle the wood is burning,

as I vision you with me. Cliche, 

a bear skin rug and a look at my 

dreams.

~

I look at the stars, they are shinning awfully bright,

knowing they are a glow in your world and min each night.

~

My arms open and my heart waits for you,

my dreams of forever of a love of two.

I sit it wondering the night away, wishing

and wanting you both night and day.

My arms open and my heart waits for you,

my dreams of forever of a love of two.

Sliding on rainbows, jumping the clouds,

a silly dance spinning around..

~

If every dream brought you near, 

enough to feel your love, I'd never 

open up my eyes, in fear you 

disappear from sight.