Behind Those Rain Clouds

Are emotions responsible for tears behind the eyes? What are our emotions? The dictionary states it as an affective state of consciousness in which joy, sorrow, fear, hate, or the like, is experienced, as distinguished from cognitive and volitional states of consciousness. The tears are the lingering emotions which have not been reasoned with. I thought about the first time I realize they existed and it occurred to me it was from the very first time I held back my emotions and allowed others to lead me, rather than standing up for myself. I believe our response to life masters all emotions.
I leaned back in my comfy desk chair and gazed out the window. The rain had given the hills a weepy dark green canvas, one which seem to reach out and pull me into the world of dreams. The darkened sky and the heavy rains set the mood and I felt as if fell into the pit of what if, what if , what if? What if I had found the courage to stand up for what I believe sooner, what differences in my life, what changes might have occurred? Would the inevitable have been sooner? So many questions, so few answers.
My body quivered from the chill which raced through my body. The path traveled revealed my own weakness and through the ongoing journey allowed me to experience as I strengthened from my inner spirit out. I could since sense a mild case of tears behind the eyes and I held back from speaking out loud as I wondered to myself, what do they mean? what do they represent? As if a book had opened in front of me and there was a list, my beliefs, needs, wants, desire, and happiness and on the opposite page was the beliefs, needs, wants, desire and happiness of everyone else. As we move forward we realize we are students of life, experiencing the lessons of a long and winding journey.

Delicately entwined are the colors of life.

Behind those rain clouds...

Behind those rain clouds, beyond each drop of rain, the sun is still shining on this dark day. The blue bird singing, I'm listening to him now, he sings about the blue beyond those dark clouds.
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Behind those rain clouds, beyond each drop of rain, the sun is still shining on this dark day. I felt it in my heart, with just the thought of you and it made me smile at the baby sky blue.
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Behind those rain clouds, beyond each drop of rain, the sun is still shining on this dark day. I saw it in your eyes, the reflection of your soul, took my heart and made a really tight hold.
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Behind those rain clouds, beyond each drop of rain, the sun is still shining on this dark day. Felt your kisses sent via the wind and it touched my spirit from deep within.
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Behind those rain clouds, beyond each drop of rain, the sun is still shining on this dark day. Painted a rainbow, clear across the sky, to connect our love through the heart, soul and mind.
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Behind those rain clouds, beyond each drop of rain, the sun is still shining on this dark day. It is the moment, your warm embrace, as your love cascades through the sun rays.

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