Good Morning... rolls on over to give you a kiss!

 I raced to reach beyond the heavens 

to find that your love was always right here in my heart. 

Have you ever watched a movie over again ? I am amazed how the interpretation can morph each time we view the movie. I imagine that there is several reasons why that happens. One, we are in a different place in time, so hopefully smarter and can view the moment with a more knowledgeable outlook. We also relate to a situation that is parallel to our own and that also changes throughout our life.
I was having Internet problems this morning and I found that to be troubling on different levels. My need to say good morning is overwhelming as is my need to be acknowledged. It is  amazing how this connection through technology allows us to broaden our hemisphere and how dependent we have become on it. With no access I decided to put a CD on my laptop and re-watched an old movie. I had seen it before and previously related to the characters in the movie. I found there to be an underlying message one that I refused to accept at one point. The reality of the people who cross our path and the reason behind each one. Sometimes I find that all to be very troubling, it would be easier to hide, to pretend that nothing ever happen. But that would mean to remain stagnant and without growth. Excepting our part is crucial to understanding why we are here and where we are going.
I do believe that we have to follow our gut instinct and listen to that inner intuition that is both natural and important in our choice making decisions. I know I tend to brush aside the negativity and hold on to the positive of life, for me that is a very important as a tool for survival. Yet I know that not allowing the positive and negative to integrate, is basically denial.
It is kind of a cool morning and the clouds are thick and they blanket heavily over the hollow as they block out all rays of sunlight. The house is quiet and I feel as if I am aloof of my surroundings. There is a chill I really can't shake, I feel my body quiver as I try to focus on my goals of the moment. Long term goals are always a little more tricky, because of the vulnerability of ourself and those in the network of life. It's not like when your a child and you think of easily attainable goals, age in itself now plays a part on how much we can achieve and how long we have to do it.
I always believed the less dependent we are on society and government, the happier we are. It is a case of the less is more, I think about that a good bit. Of course ironic as it is we need more to appreciate less. But when I think of my greatest desires, they really are rather simple. I do believe with all my heart, that sharing life with that special someone who loves you above all and whom you love is the greatest of gift. All that sheds itself from such a love is always positive. Whether that be taking a walk, holding hands, watching the rain fall, catching a glimpse of the sunrise or simply sitting down by the stream and watching the water flow. As I write of those moments I can actually feel the warmth of your love as if your arms at this very moment are holding me tight. I feel at times a bit melancholy and so I race ahead of the moment to embrace your love as I have done at this very second. Images flash through my mind and I feel like a woman of many ages as I scan the many dreams that include the magic of life. The visions are a reminder of the importance of giving and receiving love. I think of  my desperate attempts to escape from the heaviness that the years have created and again at all we have achieved and the truth of our strength.

The Rainy Day Blues

..
I'm sitting by the window and the rain is falling down and I listen to each raindrop as it pitter patters to the ground. Spellbound by the moment I can hardly believe that simply closing my eyes brings you next to me. Charmed by your presence taken by your smile, your heart beating next to mine, makes my soul go wild. I can feel your love stir the passion in me and all I want to do is hold you and kiss you tenderly.The darkness has no power over you and I for our love is like the sunlight that lights up the sky.  This is a sweet seduction, a rarity to find, gratifying to the heart, it stop the hands of time. I'm sitting by the window and the rain is falling down and I listen to each raindrop at it pitter patters to the ground. You possess the energy to ingnite my heart on fire and the flames are like a forest burning faster with each hour.

Singing>I've got those rainy day blues,

lying here thinking of you and

wondering if you're thinking

of me too.

The sun isn't shining, no 

blue birds to sing along,

all that I hear is my

heart crying out in song. 

I've got those rainy day blues, 

lying here thinking of you and 

wondering if you're thinking 

of me too. 

I'm dancing in a daydream

on the clouds in the sky 

and pulling you close to me

if only through my mind.

I've go those rainy day blues,

lying here thinking of you and

wondering if your're thinking 

of me too. 

I envisioned a walk down by

the river side, holding your 

hand and watching the boats

floating on by.

I've got those rainy day blues,

lying here thinking of you and 

wondering if you're thinking

of me too.

The rain it keeps on falling

like tear drops from the sky

as a reminder of the distance

that keeps you from my 

side.

I've got those rainy day blues,

lying here thinking of you and

wondering if you're thinking

of me too. 

The time is passing quickly and 
the night is almost near and
still I lay here dreaming of the
moments we have shared.


I've got those rainy day blues,
lying here thinking of you and 
wondering if you're thinking 
of me too.


I can't explain, I really don't 
know the why, but I can surely
tell you, I need you by my
side. 


I've got those rainy day blues,
lying here thinking of you and 
wondering if you're thinking 
of me too. 


. 
Gone with the wind moment....You caught me before my fingers starting typing.
~
My Intended Audience... is the one who holds my heart.

I write the words the words of the heart, joy and love
are only a part of the dreams and magic, the happiness
we share, I write the words "I love you dear"

I sing the song, the song of the soul, that begs the heavens to put
time on a hold, so that I may spend my life with you, living and
loving like lovers do..

I embrace each moment we share, it shows me how much you
truly care,passion is set on display when your heart and mine
embrace for the day.

Sunrise..counting my blessings!

Love's testimonial ... this declaration certifies that it is true, 
I have felt the magic of  deeply loving you. The heart reveals the romance 
and passion which entwines, the heart and soul together to make you 
forever mine.

Counting my blessings... I rejoice not that tomorrow shall come,
 but that today I have lived and I have loved. He who brushes up

against the heart merges with the soul to reveal our most precious love. 





To watch the sunrise before my very eyes, 
to share a day with you and make a dream 
come true. 


To watch the fish swim and see the daylight 
dim, to dance under the blue with no one else
but you.


To live each day and celebrate, the joy of 
your love sent down from up above. 


To see the world and on the ocean sail, 
like gulls in flight, this day is a delight.

To know it is true, the blanket of blue,
keeps us warm in all of life's storms. 


Wake up my darling! the sun begins to rise, it is early in the morning and you are on my mine. Wake up my darling! the day has just begun and as we journey forward we document the fun. Wake up my darling! I am waiting here for you, to share my life and make our dreams come true. Wake up my darling! I'm here to love you, it is early in the morning and all I can think of is you.

Sings>Loving you is all I think to do,
just to be with you would be a dream
come true.

To watch the sunrise and gaze into
your eyes as I whisper I love you.

Loving you is all I think to do,
just to be with you would be
a dream come true.

To hold you in my arms,
under the midnight stars and
again awake to watch the
sun break.

Loving you is all I think to do,
just to be with you would be
a dream come true.

To hear your heart beat
would be a sunrise treat,
as I were kissing you
good morning my sweet.

Loving you is all I think to do,
just to be with you would be
a dream come true.
~

Bitterness puts out a flame, 

love keeps it burning. 

~

I Set My Heart Free

It has been a very hectic week and trying to accomplish a variety of things seems to put an added pressure on the moment. The early days of autumn are a bit titillating, they are a combination of the warms days of summer and the coolness is a reminder of what is yet to come. In some ways as I walked through the garden, I saw not only nature documenting the moment, but the reward of such a moment through the bountiful harvest. There is an eeriness, it is as if I were one with this so called canvas of life. Spinning and still at the same moment, almost like running and not, my heart races and my feet yet to move.  I laughed as I glanced back and than forward, the past and the present and the future teasing my spirit. I felt at times childish, questionably so, as I wanted clear cut answers for that which there are none. Taking a deep breath and exhaling , all thoughts to the wind. If it were simplicity which spoke the heart would step forward and in your arms I would be standing. I again imagined your heart next to mine and a chill came over me. I quivered as if you were being pulled away by the abyss. Desperate to hold on to your love, I reached with my mind and pulled you next to me. The embrace of such joy brought a happiness that soothed troubled soul.


Everyday a little bit more,
there is so much still in store.
Loving you is a daydream
come true.


Roll on over, this pillows to share,
I am now in your arms and there
is no room for tears.

One moment, one day, one night with you,
it's the magic of love that makes
dreams come true.

Roll on over, this pillows to share,
 I am now in your arms and there
is nothing to fear.

One hug, one kiss, one lifetime with you,
and it is so obvious how much I love you.

Roll on over, this pillows to share,
I am now in your arms and in your
eyes I stare.

One heart, one soul, now into two,
as this bond is sealed with my love
for you.

Roll on over, this pillows to share,
I am now in your arms and I'm
whispering I love you dear.

~
Shhh close your eyes my love and sleep peacefully, shhhhhh close your eyes my love , you are here with me. Shhhh close your eyes my love and i'll roll into your arms, close your eyes my love as I embrace your heart. Good Night....

Sings:>;I need, I need you now,
 I want you to want me,I can't hide that smile.


The stars now shine in the sky and here
I wait for the love of my life.


I need, I need you now, I want you to
want me, I can't hide that smile.


The dreams are waiting to come true,
they cast you my love with only skies of blue.


I need, I need you now, I want you to want me,
I can hide that smile.

My body quivers at the mere thought of you and
just one night of my loving you.

I need,I need you now, I want you to want me,
I can't hide that smile.

The heavens are now open wide and we're
on the clouds and we're sailing up high.

I need, I need you now, I want you to want me ,
I can't hide that smile.

I took all of my emotions, I gathered all of my dreams, I counted the nights and I added  the memories.  I tossed  them to the wind and I set my heart free and they landed with you for all eternity. I felt the magic of love, I knew that it was special, sent from the stars above.

I held the moment, I held it with my mind, your voice so awfully special it soothes like years of time. I kept the words, the words of love and stored them in my heart for future research in the heavens above. There is no mistaken what you bring to me, your embrace so warm and tenderly.


My eyes adjusted to the dark of night and
all seemed rather simple to focus on my life.

There were days which rarely made much
sense, until I opened the gate in the
surrounding fence.

Free am I to allow my heart to feel to share
in the moment with a love story to tell.
 
I feel your love in the night, your voice so
gentle makes everything seem so right.

The stars a blanket, the moon leads me
to you and there I find you waiting in
the heavens blue.

Love is magical indeed, it can take a
mountain and flatten it with a dream,
turn a puddle into a a raging sea and
sail your love directly to me.


I feel you at this moment, I know you
are here with me, you are the love of
my life and are meant to be. The sun
that shines,the stars in the night, we
are the moment that give sense to this
life.

I don't know how to explain, except
to tell  the world the heavens are to blame,
indecisive they waited way to long, to
send us on a journey where I would
end up in your arms.

To love you is not a dream come true,
 it's destiny in the making where I spend
 my life with you. 

I can't stop dreaming, dreaming of you, to feel your warmth would make all of my dreams come true. To live and love at the angels request, I give you my heart on this life long test.

I can't stop singing, singing of you, to bring a voice to the silence with words of I love you.Dancing under the skies of blue, I'm dancing with my heart open to you.



My hearts revelation reveals in away,
the map of love which leads me to
this day.

Circling on a detour, you seemed
a lifetime away, I knew not where
the road would lead or if I'd find
my way.

Somehow it happens, in away I
can't explain, like sunlight in the
night that makes the darkness
fade.

The road is much more clearer
and I now understand, that I
am your woman and you are
my man.
~
Some thought they were a chapter,
others believed they were the whole
book and a few are just a memory
and not worth a second look.

Time Reveals All

Balancing the heart and soul is really a concept that has to do with listening to ones own inner self in a positive manner. Allowing the good within to surface brings us on a plateau that is one with nature and the world around us. The early autumn sun shines down in a way that reflects rays light which dance on  the leaves of gold giving off an essence which creates an ambiance of peace. There in the wide spectrum of life's bounty is the revelation that today has all that we need to bring about the joy of love.

Simple pleasures... to wake up in your arms,

 to feel your lips to mine, to erase all sorrow,

and to live to dream another day.

I thought to myself, is it that we are not ready to see and understand or is it that all is revealed in its own good time? Some say that "time is the great healer "and that with time we not only get a better understanding, but we allow our heart to find a sense of peace. There are so many important messages to be gained through the lessons of life.I never imagined that I would get to this place in my life where I would have a deeper and better understanding on that which we are exposed to through out our daily life. I wondered why it took so long to digest some of the more difficult experiences and than it occurred to me that it is true " time reveals all/ and heals all" It is rather complicated when you are deep in the heat of the moment and it is at this time that we need to step back and look on and take in a wider view. Yet it is at that very moment that we do the opposite and we almost drown by the weight of our own decisions. Like a delicate weave the network in which we are a part of provides us with a complex view of life. I know that today the sun had risen and as it set the moon found its place in the starry night sky. I know that my ability to experience is only limited by my own indecisiveness. I know that truth will guide us and love will follow and all will be as it is. The beauty is not in looking back nor is it about tomorrow, the joy that I celebrate is in magic of the moment. Our emotions insurmountable so much so that we are incapable of breaking through the walls that are built to protect the heart. Each person we meet has a story, a journey and a path to follow.It seems almost as if it our own personal conquest and as we surface we find our internal being becoming more complete.  I am neither separate from the heavens nor the earth, as I am one with the world around me. The blue of the sky that blankets us both day and night, is the great reminder that we are as close as two spirits can be. The stars that shine bright are the treasure that we await each night. I glanced not once but twice out the window and I felt a chill race through my body almost as if its destination was to pierce my soul. I rejoice that today we live, today we love, today we have reached beyond the dreams of tomorrow. The sky blue, the water cold, the rocks stretch across the shore and when I look into your heart I get a glimpse of our love and all that it has in store.. Evergreens rarely change, they reach to mountains high and as the sun reflects from the river, we are gifted to see,a view of life and how much you mean to me.

Vulnerability

We might be at the top of the food chain but there is no doubt we are as vulnerable as any other living creature. One brief second ,an action, whether by our will, nature or by the actions of another our life can be altered forever. Life is a blend of our needs, wants, dreams and expectations and even with the most well thought out plan we lie next to the wind of vulnerability. It blows like a storm, sometimes guiding us in the right direction and other times tearing us apart. My thoughts battle the restlessness of the present confusion as I try to understand and keep my feet firmly on the ground.
The network in which we are a part of is ever changing and allows for a sense of instability.  Like being pulled in different directions, survival, passion, desire, happiness, sadness. It only takes one person and their action to change the path we are on, either for good or for the bad. I sense my own fear, fear of tomorrow and yet I know today I achieved what I had never done before. I traveled to a place I have never been, even though it wasn't that many miles away. I set up my poetry and skincare at a festival. I left earlier than I normally would if the children were with me. I gave myself that cushion of time in case I got lost and slowly unloaded and set up for the Saturday and Sunday event. You would think this milestone would bring pleasure, instead it brought mixed emotions. It felt as it I had indeed stepped into the future. In all reality I am as I was one spirit in the wind. Yet the familiar faces, hugs and laughter reminded me that the benchmark documents not a moment of sadness, but the ability one possesses if one believes in oneself can and will achieve, thus rising to the occasion.
I am frightened and not, I know that I can, I know that I have and I know I have lived day made a difference and as they say if tomorrow never comes I have loved and I have been loved.


Why is it I am so restless? What is in the tears that fall? I have no answers, I know not the why, but as I turn the page another chapter shall I write. Sorrow is waiting, the day I cannot erase, but surely as the sun shines, darkness will take its place. When all seems so empty and fear maps the path, I'll reach for your hand my love and free my soul from my hellish past. No more tears will I weep, I have not chosen nor have I  bequeathed, the time that is so unsettling is replaced by calm and peace.


 

Because I loved...

The Song Within My Heart

Traces of red, orange and  yellow gold, a painting of autumn,a treasure to behold. Leaves prematurely pirouette to the ground, like a dance with autumn the leaves keep falling down. I feel no betrayal that summer is now gone as the memories I hold remind me where I belong. I am aware that nature documents each moment of the day with the coming of tomorrow, I'll say goodbye to yesterday.  Life has away of surprising you and I, from spring through winter its magic can't be denied. It seem to cast a spell from the heavens high and it placed me in a trance where I dance with my closed eyes. Tic and toc the moments don't stand still but as long as I am with you our love will be revealed. Traces of red, orange and yellow gold a painting of autumn a treasure to behold.





Sings
>       ;I've been on clouds high,
           gazing down from the sky,
           wishing you were here,
           side by side with me.

           I've danced the morning through,
           to my dreams of  loving you,
           holding you with my mind, my
           heart and soul are now aligned.


 



 The day is awfully special as I hold you
in my heart, nothing else matters as we
dance under the stars.

          I've been on clouds high,

          gazing down from the sky, 

          wishing you were here,

          side by side with me. 

          I've danced the morning through,

          to my dreams of  loving you, 

          holding you with my mind, my

          heart and soul are now aligned.

It is not about the difference, but 

what makes us the same, for you are

the half of me and I the half of you.

           I've been on clouds high,

           gazing down from the sky, 

           wishing you were here,

           side by side with me. 

           I've danced the morning through,

           to my dreams of  loving you, 

           holding you with my mind

            my heart and soul are aligned.

Delirious is my spirit, magical like the 

breeze,as it blows your love ...

and brings the magic of you to me. 

           I've been on clouds high,

           gazing down from the sky, 

           wishing you were here,

           side by side with me. 

           I've danced the morning through,

           to my dreams of  loving you, 

           holding you with my mind

           my heart and soul aligned.

     


Apple pie there is nothing

 better than a blue sky.

You and I and there is

 nothing sweeter than

 when you make me sigh.

Holiday time is any day 

that I'm with you,

as my heart is celebrating

what my soul already knew.

 I love you, you know that
it  is true, there is nothing I
wouldn't  do to spend my life
with you.

My heart is celebrating what 

my soul already knew that I'm

in love, my darling with you. 

Sings
>       ;I've been on clouds high,
           gazing down from the sky,
           wishing you were here,
           side by side with me.

           I've danced the morning through,
           to my dreams of  loving you,
           holding you with my mind, my
           heart and soul are now aligned.

 

 The day is awfully special as I hold you
in my heart, nothing else matters as we
dance under the stars.

          I've been on clouds high,

          gazing down from the sky, 

          wishing you were here,

          side by side with me. 

          I've danced the morning through,

          to my dreams of  loving you, 

          holding you with my mind, my

          heart and soul are now aligned.

It is not about the difference, but 

what makes us the same, for you are

the half of me and I the half of you.

           I've been on clouds high,

           gazing down from the sky, 

           wishing you were here,

           side by side with me. 

           I've danced the morning through,

           to my dreams of  loving you, 

           holding you with my mind

            my heart and soul are aligned.

Delirious is my spirit, magical like the 

breeze,as it blows your love ...

and brings the magic of you to me. 

           I've been on clouds high,

           gazing down from the sky, 

           wishing you were here,

           side by side with me. 

           I've danced the morning through,

           to my dreams of  loving you, 

           holding you with my mind

           my heart and soul aligned.

  

My Do Nothing List

It is in the do nothing stage that we receive the greatest of pleasure... 

I choose your arms for my do nothing day.

~

Sharing ice tea,

a walk along the shore,

a kiss in the tunnel of love,

holding your hand,

feeling your heart beat,

and waking up in your arms. 

~

Little drops of rain,

and a smile upon

my face as all that I

can think of is to

your lips trace.

The love between us,

the magic that just

won't let go and when

the day is over I thank

the Lord so.

Somethings are brief, like

a rose in bloom but when

I am with you forever is

on show.

Dreams bring you so near,

and when I close my eyes,

I'm always holding you my

dear.

Nothing can change what

became a part of me, your

love is so wonderful, beyond

what others see.

A look at a season in passing

The water reflects the season,

the heart provides us with a glimpse at love.

~

It is nice to set goals but more important to

appreciate the moment... sends my love via the wind.

~

When Death Nears

I found this from an older post and I thought to myself what has changed from that period of time? If the words are heard by one, if a heart is touched just as mine, if a soul understands the journey, than I am free to soar beyond the heavens high.

~
I have put off writing to my Aunt, she has outlived her children and her husband, I think that is the worst of pain to not be able to share that love with those you love the most. To grieve many times over in the passing of a soul.

We are cast a part in our time here on earth,
sometimes is is as short as a day and occasionally
we live longer only time has the last say.

The journey is in the touching, the love we share,
the magic of a lifetime for those with whom we
cared.

The complicated network  consist of heart and
 souls, one upon the other reveals the treasure we
hold.

Created with memories that no one can take
away, I dare not cry for the flesh, for the love
always remains.
~
Held a child, held him close,
whispered words of love,
felt such pride as I watched him grow.
Took my hand and my heart through
out all of life and now in the wind his
spirit blows.

I believe that we are set upon this earth to journey in away that leaves something behind for the next soul. In the short time period that we are here on earth, we reach out and touch more people than we can imagine. Sometimes it really is that listening ear, the smile, the hugs and the memories that are created as we touch one and other in the most profound ways. I am not sure anyone realizes the power they are given to alter a moment. So precious is the gift of life that we are never quite ready to give it up. The beauty is from the impact that those who have come into our life behind. There is a lesson to be learned from all those who cross our path, even moments that seem at the time less than pleasant,teach us something about our own human emotions.

I have lived, loved, touched and have been touched in away that is eternal, such is the magic of life.







.

Rainbows Fall

 The last dance

The tree leaves of late summer dance through the
 mid day rays of sun light, leaving shadows upon the wall.


So powerful is the mind that it can take you anywhere and bring to you anything. Close your eyes and open your heart and you'll find that I've been with you from the start. The waves race to the shore and you can feel them reaching out like my love reaches out to you. My arms tucked safely in yours as I sing softly, we are the sunshine in the morn and the stars in the night that have yet to be explored, we are love straight through the hearts core. 


There was a real sense of peace as I woke up this morning. Nothing had really changed from the long days of yesterday other than the beauty of acceptance that comes with releasing any traits of selfishness. It was and is the power of love that transforms the moment making everything possible. Surrounded by darkness and yet your love shines brightly through like a rose that blooms in winter. I felt as if I were cradled by the heavens and stars that twinkle above the blanket that provides a warmth of connection from my soul to yours.Tomorrow will not be like today nor will day have any resemblance of yesterday but through the eyes of love we shall view all that has surfaced from the heart.
There was a mountain of negativity that seem to weigh upon my spirit, none of which I can change but all of it can has been removed from my being. I cannot change the mass of people who allow hate and ugliness to guide them, One by one I can reinforce the power of love and allow that positive energy to flow. Saturday provided the stage in which the ground work was laid. I spoke with a woman who was intrigued by the poetry and skin care products she was seventy years old. We spoke of individual gifts. She said "you are so talented,". I told her what I have told my own children, from birth we are given a gift and the journey is in finding that gift and using it to better mankind. She said " I don't think I have a gift, I surely can't do what you do" Each person is unique and there gift unique. She again asked "what gave you the gift to see?" I laughed and joking responded " insanity" There were a few people who stood out that day, There was an officer of our military who spent some time reading the poetry. I had found that my concern was not in reaching every soul, but reaching out to those souls who indeed needed to be heard, spoken to and touched in away that makes my journey necessary.
I am at peace, not because of what I have lost in life, but for that in which I have gained. " Tomorrow will be nothing like today and today is nothing like yesterday " It is not a path of sorrow nor the worries of a wanting soul and as I journey forward the memories I will take are to remind me that your love is from the road called fate.



Rainbows fall, watch the rainbows fall,
listen to the mating call of love birds
everywhere.
 
Dreams come true, you can make those
dreams come true, all you have to do is
whisper words of  I love you.

I am but a thread stitched into the canvas

There are days when my want for more clouds my judgment of all the good in life. The trails and tribulations of my personal experience reveal the love that expands within each moment . Because we cannot step into the mind of another we are only responsible for our own thoughts and actions. Like the threads in the canvas as each is pulled tighter to prevent a hole, we so want to pull people closer to prevent a void from forming in our very own life. It was my misunderstanding of various situations that placed negativity and doubt in my mind. I now have comprehended more on a level that explains how people like the treads of life are woven to create and provide us with the full experience.
I thought of the many people who have been stitched into my own heart and soul and how I wanted to unravel the threads of experience. It occurred to me the canvas of life is filled with many beautiful memories and that I am ever grateful for all the joy and happiness that was so magnificently and powerfully stitched into my life.


I have seen the love and joy,
and felt it touch my soul and
as the canvas of life is stitched,
it is woven with friendship in
threads of gold.

The sunshine warm each morning,
the moon light bright each night,
all simple reminders of the love
which I cannot deny.

Grateful am I  for all the blessings
graciously bestowed and I thank
the Lord daily for the gift  of love
which continues to grow.

You are my first thought in the morning

the arms that hold me in the night and

when the silence surrounds the day

you're the voice of song that

 brings our love to life.

~

I love you more with each breath of day,

for my heart is yours in the most magical way.

~
I have been given the greatest of gifts,
friendship all rolled up in a state of bliss.
~
I am ever so aware of the beauty of life and
 I shall respect each moment as the magic it truly is.
~
I have been given the gift to see 

and in your heart I see the dream.

Kaleidescope of Thought

There is a chill that runs so deep within me,

even on the hottest of days I cannot shake it. 

The dreams reflect my restless and lonely hearts desire and
the love empowers more and more with each waking hour.
I don't really understand it, the journey is not how I planned
it.I'm dancing under the skies of blue and all that I can really do,
is think about how my life would be, as I share it with you.

The spectrum of color is in every shade and hue and as I
close my eyes the river turns from red to blue. The passion
is of lovers a magical embrace like no other. I'm caught up
in this silly dream and all I can really see, is the  mountains
between us and the water beneath us, as I try to reach the
heavens high and release the love from inside.
~
There are those who conform and thus believe love is born,
but I know that life is less certain and much more is in store.

~

The largest piece of the puzzle comes with self acceptance. 

~

The more I experience, the more confusing life becomes. 

~

One thousand deaths cannot compare with the ache

from the loss of love. 

~

It is possible that my own failure to interpret correctly

created a false sense of love. 

~

It is not what I can be for you,

 it is what can we be for each other!

~

The tears fall like shards of hot steel and embed into the heart.

leaving behind a piercing reminder of the dreams which 

are the making of a fools desire. 

~

I cannot run nor hide...

~

My happiness is not a part of the equation. 

Forever Love..

Complete love is when you can see it with your eyes closed 

and feel it at a depth so deep that it touches your soul.. 


~

I have stood strong against the many storms of life and yet my soul feels the abrasion of the mighty winds as they tether my spirit anchoring it to the pits of hell. In my own foolishness,I have explored the many emotions that have surfaced from the diverse experiences that teased both the heart and the soul. As the darkness fell the ache inside of me became a fresh reminder of the past. It was not until I reached and you accepted my hand and pulled me close with my heart to your heart that I felt a renewed sense of hope. The gates of reality had opened and I walked side by side through to a sunlit valley that replaced the stars in the sky.

~

Am I saving you or is it you that is saving me

? In the vast endless ocean to the shores of
make believe.

I reached for your love and I found you
reaching back and there is something awfully
special and that my friend is a fact.

Am I saving you or is it you that is saving me?
In the madness of the moment I felt a love
that sets my soul free.

Like the wind against my face and a kiss out
of a dream, I held to your love in a dance
to the song my heart sings.

Am I saving you or is it you that is saving me?
Reaching for your hand I felt your push as I
pulled you next to me.

I can't deny and I dare not let go of the
mystery in the making that through the
soul flows.

Am I saving you or is it you that is saving me?
The reality has me surfacing above the heavens
high in bond that entwines our soul in the blue
of the sky.

One moment of laughter and a forever smile
comes from the love of you which I declare
crosses many a mile.

Am I saving you or is it you that is saving me?
The answer is simple as the love that brought
you here on a journey of forever where I am
in your arms my dear.

Beyond the darkness and the gates of despair,
I found the warmth of your love that sent
which I wait each day to share.
~
I never saw a brighter sky with stars to many to count,
but as I looked at the vastness of the heavens blue, I
realized there was nothing that could keep my love for
you.
~

Why is it that when you do without,

you more easily recognize the 
beauty of a forever love.

~

It is my hunger for love that 

so understands your very own needs.  
~

It was from the very first moment that I realized who I was on the inside that I knew how important it was to have someone who understood that internal part of me, loved that part of me and wanted that part of me. 

Our Embrace

Dreams

I had at one time thought that the journey was decided for us and that we were carrying out some kind of greater plan and that it was all written into our genetic and spiritual code at birth. As time went on I thought that choice led us down one path or another and again that circumstances played a big part in whether we climb mountains or drown at sea. But I don't think anything is ever that easy and so I realize it is a combination of factors that is important for this time on earth. Will finish writing later...


There is nothing in this world more wonderful than the love of you,
 it's what I dream of and what I  live to do. To feel the magic of
 your most gentle touch, to share in the moment from earth to the
heavens above.

~
My heart is open and you are welcome to step on in,
for there is nothing more special than the gift from within.
I know that wherever I may travel, I packed your love
 to go, it is filled with all the elements that gives to life
its glow.


Before the sun blinds my eyes,
before my feet hit the floor,
I find myself dreaming of
you walking through the door.

Before the day is started,
before the dreams fade,
I find myself in your arms
as the joy of my day.
~


My head upon your shoulder,
my spirit worry free and when
I gaze into your eyes I know
we are meant to be.

Tears from the heart of all
the years that have gone by,
the struggles on a journey,
where the mountains were
awfully high.

Dreams are in the making,
and a smile is upon my face as
I feel your love and the magic
of our embrace.

~

I reviewed the chapters, discarded quite a few and filed the more precious ones on the clouds above the heavens blue. I placed them securely, so they would be around to light up my life when only darkness blankets the ground. I mastered sorting the memories and saved the ones with you,for they are the ones that guide me and tell me what to do.They led me over the mountains, they taught my soul to soar and when I felt a little weak that washed me upon the shore. I reviewed the chapters the ones on trust and truth and placed them all together until my heart and soul regrouped. Words are but a passage for my love to flow, because no matter where the journey, I'm never letting go.