Friday, January 17, 2014
My sister and I spoke earlier in the day. I said " I don't know the where, what or why of my life. " She said there is a future that awaits you and soon you will see where the journey truly will take you." At this point in my life I didn't believe that tomorrow had anything else awaiting me. My mind slowly slid back to the snow storm. I never drove in a snow storm that was so blinding or that accumulated so fast on the road side. Yet there I was meeting a new challenge. You might say many people drive in snow storms and that would be true. Today was my very first. There I was behind the wheel , with a train of cars behind me. I made the decision what speed to travel, how to handle the car and I was responsible for myself and my daughter. There is a certain amount of self respect one gains when meeting a challenge, no matter how simple it may seem to someone else.
Throughout the year and especially during the winter I find myself in a rutt. I battle to make it through the day and I can't see tomorrow. What does the future hold? I guess we won't know that answer until it is ready to present itself. I said my new years resolution was accepting the truth. The truth not as I want it to be, but the truth as it is.