Vulnerability

Troubled recently by my sisters need for a kidney, it shed light on our own vulnerability. I am not a stranger to death of siblings and parents. I have already buried a sister,  two brothers and my father. I have written many times to bring peace to those who have lost love ones. But as I standby helplessly and watch as my sister suffers and makes decisions, I again become aware of the limit time places upon us. 

I read an article in the news , where a news caster just tied the knot at 80 years of age. My sister didn't' get out of her 30's before she died and so you wonder about the journey in which each of us are on. I know we can't live in fear and saying goodbye is never easy. 

I ran through the memories

as I tried desperately to hold on,

I didn't know what else to do, 

as I knew time was moving on. 

Time is precious this life we know, 

there is no stopping like wind that blows.

I wanted to tell you before you are gone,

how much I love you and in my arms

you belong. 

~

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I have trouble with goodbyes

this you must already know, 

I can't understand how 

fast time really goes. 

I only want forever if forever 

means being with only you, as

all I ever think of is your hand

in mine as we stroll under the 

blue. 

I have troubles with goodbyes, 

this you must already know. 

I'll hold you in my heart and I'll

never ever let you go. 

~