Your Love

My laptop is down and my speakers on my desk computer are fried. I think I must be hard on electronics, of course I use it forever thing. Technology in away can be a companion, educational, business, access, friendship, entertainment, with a wide range of other uses. Without sound I find that I sing more and read lyrics more. I also find myself calling my sister more often. It is rather interesting to exchange the past, present and hopes for the future with her. I find that our views though represented differently really are not much different. I haven't read the poems I write to her like I use to. Sometimes I find it to be a safe zone, where only I can visit. Sometimes I feel like winter is taking its toll or maybe life. I'm tired, not sleepy tired, tired of the struggle. For a person who grew up in a very rigid structure, I find that there is so very little in my life. No real plan and in someways as I said to my sister, " I am very much alone ."  Surprisingly she understood, because it is not a loneliness that lacks people for there are many people in my life.
I see a finely coiled network and the weave like thin copper wire entwines. Intricate like that of a spiders web and so many people, places and things a part of it.

I take with me wherever I go,
I take with me your love.
I placed it in my heart and
it warms gentle like the sun.

From the moment I wake up
and all threw my day, I take
with you the love that I hold
in the most special of way.

I take with me wherever I go,
I take with me your love.
I placed it in my heart and
it warms gentle like the sun.

The Righteous Brothers - Unchained Melody / Lyrics ♫

In the Misty Moonlight

I have heard this song since I was a kid and I really never listened completely to the words. In many ways it has that folk style and happy beat to it. But also it is a simple way that says "love is all a person really needs." The right persons, supportive, understanding, loving and embracing who we are without judgement. One of the things that is so important is acceptance throughout a changing time. I have also come to understand heaven and hell on earth. Everyone in one way or another journeys through the good and the negative, it is all part of that scary thing called the mind. But in reality peace and contentment is the final score, when you finally reached that place, when you wake up in the arms of the person you love , reach over and give a kiss and receive a kiss in return, that is perfection. I think there is a world of lonely people, who have not found that soul connection. Society in general is at fault or maybe people just fail to see what is really important. I think this song represents, " when less is more" When hearts come together and souls bond, less is more. Years back a friend once said, "I would never let you die alone, I'll be there" and than we shared the poets Shelly and Byron moment, ashes blowing in the sea wind. Anyway you are welcome to day dream along with me as I sing "in the misty moonlight, by the flickering firelight, any place is all right long as I'm with you"

 In the misty moonlight

By the flickering firelight
Any place is all right
Long as I'm with you

In a faraway land
On the tropic sea sand
If your hand's in my hand
I won't be blue

Way up on the mountain
Way down in the valley
I know I'll be happy
Any place, anywhere I don't care

In the misty moonlight
By the flickering firelight
Any place is all right
Long as you are there

I could be happy in one little room
With only a table and a chair
As happy as I'd be in a kingdom by the sea
Darling if you were there

And I could be rich or I could be poor
But if you were by my side
I could be anyplace in this whole wide world
And I know I'd be satisfied

Way up on the mountain
Way down in the valley
I know I'll be happy
Any place, anywhere I don't care

In the misty moonlight
By the flickering firelight
Any place is all right
Long as you are there

One More Time

I just wanna live the dream one more time
and get far beyond the walls of my mind.
If it takes forever for the heavens to deliver,
I'll be waiting for you till the ends of time

I just wanna know if you care and if the
stars were created for us to share.
From the moment that you wake up
until you find me waiting underneath
the midnight sky.

I just wanna live the dream one more time
and get far beyond the walls of my mind.
If it takes forever for the heavens to deliver,
I'll be waiting for you till the ends of time.

I just wanna feel your lips and embrace
each blessed morning with your kiss.
To challenge everyday in this most
unusual way brings a joy to my day.

I just wanna live the dream one more time
and get far beyond the walls of my mind.
If it takes forever for the heavens to deliver,
I'll be waiting for you till the ends of time
~

Angels

I think they must be angels,
they push, they pull and 
they tug and when I try to 
let go I feel a gentle hug. 

I think they must be angels, 
they call, they whisper, they
sing and when I doubt the 
moment their voices come 
to me. 

I think they must be angels, 
loving, wise and kind, they 
directed me down the road 
and eased my troubled mind. 

I think they must be angels, 
they touched my from inside
left a print upon my heart 
and wiped the tears from 
my eyes. 

I think they must be angels, 
as I have thrown in the towel 
and when I least expected it 
they gave to me a smile. 

I think they must be angels, 
for they know me better than
I know myself and when the 
curtain of sorrow falls they 
remove the power of hell. 

I think they must be angels, 
when the storms of winter fall
they give to us a reminder
through the rays of sun they 
call. 

I think they must be angels, 
they come in many a disguise
and lend a ear so that I may
quietly confide. 

I think they must be angels, 
sympathetic and true for 
when I reached out a hand
they once more led me to you. 

I once more found myself
in the arms of yesterday,
when all was as it seemed
and happiness replaced
the gray.

I could have done it differently,
the choices I had made but with
no regrets I let go and the dreams
with the wind took way.
~

The script was written in error and 

no provisions were made and that is 

why a tear drop falls each 

and everyday. 

~

The stars go on forever, 

the mountains top the sky

and the steps that led me 

to you confuse the mind. 

The blue bird returned, 

the wren she stayed behind

and I thought about the 

strength it takes to heal 

this heart of mine. 

~

It is not strength that makes the decisions

for I have been on a course of choice other 

than my own. 

~

It just might be winter

or the darkness of the 

day, but somehow I 

highly doubt it, as the 

pain has never gone 

away. 

I placed upon my face 

a masque made of a smile 

and a band aid upon my 

heart that stuck for the 

long mile. 

~

Lavender Blue (instrumental with lyrics)

If I were Queen ....

Daisy's are raining down

Daisy's are raining down,
petals white to the ground,
happiness is everywhere,
knowing that you care.

My heart feels such delight,
and I welcome it so, as
my soul reacts to the joy
and just won't let go.

Silly the visual that put
a smile on me , but holding
to your love is all that I
need.

Daisy's are raining down
petals white to the ground,
happiness is everywhere,
knowing that you care.

You gave to me a gift
and I feel complete,
the gift of love and
the sweetest memory.

I placed it in my heart
for as long as I may live,
but to the world our love
I give.

Delphinium Blue

It seems like the snow will never end today. From the time I woke up and until now I pretty much kept busy. As long as I didn't allow myself to think, I didn't have to worry about drifting back to the days that are long gone. For a good while I watched as the birds flocked to the feeder, made some soap, cleaned up a little and then it happened. I lay on the bed and at first I thought crazy to let my mind drift and then I said to my self. "Love is good, good to keep love in my heart" and then the memories flowed and I said " memories are good, good to keep the memories in my heart." But despite the warmth of the moment a tear fell and a void weighed heavily.

Delphinium blue never fades away,
like the memories of those special days.
The delicate petals are fragile indeed,
just like my heart when you left me.

Sometimes I cry on the occasional blue,
when I am reminded of the joy I shared
with you.I can try to explain the magic of
life when our hearts came together and
all seemed so right.

~
Just a little dream,
a moment with you,
your arms around me
and the sky so blue.

Just a little sunshine
on a cold winter day,
brightens my morn
to chase the gray away.

Just a little memory
a visual of two,
embraces for all time
there is me and you.

Just a little song,
to bring you here,
like the words, it
is our hearts we share.

~
That sweet embrace,
the love infuse,
the magical moment
my dreams of you.

Hold my hand and
walk with me, we
are the happiness
that is meant to be.
~

When two people bond with such intensity, 

the deeply passionate emotion only strengthens...love. 

~

Hand to heart,
heart to soul,
tightly woven
embrace of gold.

Memories sweet,
treasures unfold,
threads of silver,
quickly un-spool.

Unfinished story,
waits to be told,
words written on
a lovers scroll.
~

My responsibility is to my heart, 

for it led me to you. 

~
Can one love more than another? I think not for a soul mate has an internal beginning,
touches the heart, embraces the dreams, teeters on eternity.

In a rather unsettled world, 

there is a calm in loving you. 

~

Compassion, love and desire...

I gathered a few pieces of the puzzle of life,
this morning I found peace and happiness
fit right. There were a few that blended into
a calm and I saw the blue sky as I listened
to our song.

I gathered a few pieces of the puzzle of life,
they came in all sizes and I knew they were
right. Friendship and the joys of life but the
one on love brought passion into my  life.


I have always referred to life as a puzzle. The interlocking pieces range from our wants to our needs. With each piece we get a view of a whole being. It is almost as if every lesson in life leaves behind a piece to be put in place. Love and compassion stroke the soul and give us a glimpse of an inner happiness. I would be lying if I said there a perfection in one human over another, as each individual as their own sort of scale of justice. When the positive outweighs the negative it changes the boarder in which the pieces of the puzzle are placed. Another version of " we are the company we keep." Each day is a celebration of our oneness with the universe, as we are merely energy on a grander scheme. I also realize that as we place the pieces accordingly, like filing away experiences to recall at a time of greater need, we also get one step closer to the completion of our individual puzzle.

Touched my heart
and taught it to sing,
revealed the dance
as if awakened
from a dream.

The mysteries of life,
lead me to you and
their on those clouds
we dance under the
blue.

Touched my heart
and taught it to sing,
revealed the dance
as if awakened
from a dream.

One more puzzle piece
snaps firmly in place, as
a reminder of all we
have gained.

Compassion, love and
desire, all the emotions
that blaze in my soul
like a fire.

Touched my heart
and taught it to sing,
revealed the dance
as if awakened from
a dream.

~

You'll see,
if you look,
your love in me.

You'll feel,
if you touch
your heart of dreams.

~

The river is frozen,
no waves to carry on
and so I ask the wind
to take to you my song.

Filled with love, compassion
and a fair amount of  dreams,
I directed it all to you as you
have sent your love to me.

The morning is filled with pleasure,
the memories are mine to treasure as
I keep them with me always as
a reminder of you and I.

Nothing  can destroy the magic
of our dreams, for you are my
sweetness and you are my
everything.

~
There is a calm to the morning
and I will tell you why. I have
a story that I keep safe inside.

It doesn't have an ending, no
matter how I have tried, for
the love of you is forever mine.

~

You and I , that is how it should be,
you and I , forever as it could be.
I can't tell you how to feel, but if
you have the courage, you'll find
I am there with you.

~
I looked on out the window
and there was snow on the ground,
temperatures equal to frozen and
memories all abound.

I couldn't hide the smile, it's been
there for some time, as you gave
to me a happiness that will remain
yours and mine.

I looked on out the window
and everything disappeared
and all I could see was the
dance that brought you here.

The magic is in loving, it is
powerful indeed, creates
an illusion that haunts
through memories.

I looked on out the window,
to find you were looking back,
and I smiled for a moment as
the sun replaced the nights black.

I can't explain the way I feel,
its rather unusual that it made
my heart heal.

There is no erasing, we can
try but there is no replacing,
the love between us, the joy
our friendship brings.

Our souls have come together
and that is not just a dream,
we are a story of love and
forever we'll soar above.

The Moon Light

Sings>A bit of wine,
the moon light
and there you'll
find me dancing.

The crackling fire,
dreams by the hour
and there you'll
find me loving.

The nightly stars, my beating heart
and there you'll find I have always
been here waiting for you.

A bit of wine,
the moon light
and there you'll
find me dancing.

The crackling fire,
dreams by the hour
and there you'll
find me loving.

January without you

There is no denying that people are social creatures. Some people have the ability to overcome the need to be with others. The frigid temperatures are on obvious test as I find myself curled up in my bedroom with a warm blanket and nothing but memories to get me through the day. Sipping on a cup of tea, my mind wondering and a smile surfacing. I suppose the thought that spring is approximately eight weeks away is rather comforting, that is the glass is half full side of me talking. Now a days with technology, we can physically be alone but as close as a keyboard. That was until my lap top fried. You can't imagine what it is like to have that connection cut off from you. Ah, well that is the era in which we live and it comes with a downside. Surrounded by my house plants, it almost creates a mirage of the islands. Reminding me of a conversation I had with my sister , she said " I am not getting younger, if we are going to do it, we better do it soon." But you know that it doesn't always work that way, that life is somehow out of our control.
Writing has away of bringing the silence to life. Kind of like how many people read, I find that same empowerment by writing. It had become in some strange way like an online diary, that some people may read or not. Though that wasn't my intention that the world may get a glimpse of my inner soul. Actually it was my escape, whether writing by pen or typing, I could travel the world, walk hand in hand or wake up next to you. Magical in away that fueled my needs, my need to be accepted, loved, wanted and in a eerie kind of way respect my privacy.
Dinner in Paris or a walk along the Hudson, my imagination carried me anywhere I wanted to go. I found my self trapped not in the world of my surroundings, but in a world of fear. Like my desk that is in a disarray so is my life. I glanced at the objects that were scattered on the shelf below my desk monitor. Some of the items had a deep connection to a person or place and others a reminder of our vulnerability under the rule of time.
It is like turning pages of an old yellowed book and finding that the pages are crumbling before you, I found my life was really without direction.
The rarity of friendship, a reminder that true friendship is strong and faithful and without doubt eternal. It seemed that it wasn't about sharing my life, but a sharing of souls. I spoke out loud" can one really embrace heart and soul." There was never a doubt in my mind that an action could call out a reaction. Well let me explain, if you have to think about what you are going to say or what you are going to do, you are only reacting by what is expected of you. When you dance without request and sing from your heart and laughter rules the day, that is indeed the embrace of souls. You ask " how do you know?" I have danced upon the clouds, listened to the voice of my heart and embrace soul to soul.
I wouldn't call it melancholy, for I feel no threads of sadness nor am as restless as usual. It is kind of like being in purgatory at the moment, I can see the heavens and feel the wrath of the devil and yet I am trapped midway between both. There is the scream of silence that cries out to no response. It might be that everyone must face their heaven and hell and I am no different.

I want to run
but have yet to walk,
I want to scream,
but have yet to speak,
I want to live ,
but have yet to make
the choice.
I want to love but have
yet to be loved back.

Good Cry

Sometimes you just need a good cry. As I work on customer orders this early morn, I find that I was able to focus better after having a good cry. I guess it would be comparative to getting everything off  your chest. Sometimes when you are surrounding by negativity it is very difficult to rise above it. I have no idea who laid the path before me or why, I left it up to destiny. But in all reality, I keep thinking there must be more to this ill laid out plan.
I have always found my thoughts and actions to be in a disarray. Thrown about until someone intervenes and a new stone is laid in the walk way. Achievements, to some they are many and yet I feel as if they are like woven fabric with loose ends.

I look up to the stars
and they sparkle back,
you are never very far
and that my friends a fact.

You are here within my heart
where you have always were
meant to be, you are more
than a dream, you are my
everything.

~

When I smile,
the world gets
a glimpse of love.

When I dream,
the world is as
it should be.

When I dance,
you are always
in my arms.

When I gaze into
the heavens, it is
you gazing back.

~

I took a moment to write in the blue,
with clouds of white I leave for you,
a story of love, a word or two of the
bonding of souls when I fell for you.

~
There is beauty in the moment,
joy in my heart, spectacular the
visions that light the darkest, dark.

The treasure not of silver nor gold,
crystal gems from the earth can't
compare with this friendship of old.
~

No particular form is needed,
these words are just for you,
a reminder of my love and of
a dream come true.

Today is just a marker to count
the days gone by and a celebration
of a love that conquered time.

~
Second by second,
day by day,
the road before us
seems to fade away.

But somethings are forever,
like the magic you bring,
when you touched my heart
and taught it how to sing.

~
I can turn the pages,
and they all read the same,
I love you my sweet, forever
plus a day.

~
Remember that I love you,
remember that is true,
when hearts come together
the sky turned a bluer, blue.

Endangered the moment
as time goes marching on
so I document our love
like a well written song.
~

I Woke up This Morning and You Were On Mind.

Gripped by this incredible chill as I think of the cosmos and the uniting of souls. Sounds like ramble but I have found that there really is a difference between what we think and reality. Two souls coming together is like the perfection of two puzzle pieces snapping together.
I wrote a piece years back " My Sweet Obsession."  Obsession or Love ? It is like snippets of songs put together to express a feeling " when I need love, I call out your name and I , please love me forever, just call out my name and I'll be there, some day when you are all alone and I love him so, people ask me how, put your head on my shoulder, " When songs become you are own, when a person controls your subconscious.
My friend Victor once said, " you are never alone for I am the smile in the stars" The night takes on a new meaning, when you can look at the sky and realize that we are never very far apart.
Couple times a year my emotions catch up with me.It is like this good cry or how much can one person take. I have never had much patience for puzzles. People, places and faces scattered like pieces of  a puzzle.What do they mean and where do they fit in the scheme of things ?
It has been a very difficult time as if every step has been in someone else's world. Controlled by fear, my choices were weak. Life is not always " black and white, sometimes you have to add a little color"
My thoughts are a bit random as I think to myself, I don't really belong here in this room at this moment, I belong in your arms.
It reminds me of a reader who stopped by the blog and said "the work is good for your intended audience" I laughed as the intended audience was for your eyes alone, but as each person reads it love has a way of living on.

Take away my tears
and my broken heart,
take away the sorrow
and hold me from afar,

Take away the loneliness,
the emptiness and fear
and replace it with the
love that was meant to
be shared.

~

We Five - You Were On My Mind - 1965

I woke up this morning and you were on my mind... and you were on my mind.

Sings>It could have been an angel...

It could have been an angel that sung to me or
it could have been the music from my daydream.
Spinning in circles around I go,dancing all
around as the strong wind blows.

It could have been magic or a fantasy but more
than likely it was your love that touched me.
Lifted my spirit to the heavens high,to our
special clouds in the blue, blue sky.

It could have been and angel that sung to me or
it could have been the music from my daydream.
Spinning in circles around I go, dancing all
around as the strong wind blows.

Blah, Blah , Blah cabin fever.

Clouds passing puffy white, 

blue skies now in sight, 

rivers frozen from the cold

have me grasping for days 

of old.

How much time do we have?

The question makes me laugh, 

yesterday is here and gone, 

like a forgotten song. 

Clouds passing puffy white, 

blue skies now in sight, 

rivers frozen from the cold

have me grasping at days 

of old.

Sweet memories bring a 

smile, warms the heart 

and bridges the distance

of the long miles. 

Clouds passing puffy white, 

blue skies now in sight, 

rivers frozen from the cold

have me grasping at days 

of old. 

 ~

The sun is shining and the snow fails to melt away, 

this false ray of light brings a little hope to the day. 

The trees are bare and they stand through the test 

of time, with spring they'll come to life, placing 

the dormant images behind. 

My heart felt sorrow, my soul knows it all to well 

from the moment you left me the gates opened to hell. 

Is there such a thing as happiness or is it a masque

for all that is inside? As I place a smile on my face

the tears from my eyes swell. 

~

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I'm Always Chasing Rainbows

I drifted back it was the very first art show I ever did. It was almost twelve years ago, my Audrey was just a little girl, possibly six years old. Things could have been a lot different that day, had I made different choices. Instead that moment in time opened a gateway to a fascinating journey. It was the second poem I ever sold, the customer sent me a thank you and a article out of the paper which said " you are exactly where God wants you to be, don't stop" I do think I have always been chasing rainbows. But this is my story, my journey, my path, my moment in time. Choice has the ability to reroute the moment, change course and lead us in different directions. I at times felt lost in my own journey, looking for someone to partner with me. My mind is quite scrambled as I look back at my parents , grand parents and those that came before them. It wasn't until this moment that it occurred to me, that we have to fulfill our own destiny, whether someone wants walk side by side with us or not. Though of course " it is the side by side, that compliments me." Each chapter of my life was meant to fill the pages that once lay blank, empty of the journey. In many ways I don't believe I chose the direction, it seems as if destiny rules. Throughout the years there have been many lessons of life. Sometimes I have forgotten the location or the teacher who guided me, but as life would indeed detail, the moment surfaces and you are instructed or led down a path. This one time , it was a little mining town, that was struggling to find a new way of progressing without the industry. Each year they had their street festival that brought the neighbors together in celebration of summer. One women that stands out, her name faded with time but her lesson, remains within me. She had lost her soul mate at a very young age. I asked her " how do you deal with it?" she said "my friends have helped me, not one person can be your everything." That lesson stuck with me, because I realized along the way, different people brought different experiences into my life. I find winter to be a troubling time, almost controlling in an abusive way. That it isn't until you figure out that we all hold the reigns into our life,to what road we travel,when to rest and when to run and of course when to walk. As I try not to ramble , I think of my own soul mate. The one who brings a smile to my face, when all you can do is cry. Who holds my hand when everyone else is eager to let it go and of course understands me better than I understand yourself. I thought I had a void within me and of course you get it when you understand that there is no void. Everything happens, happens for a reason. The touching of hearts, embrace of souls, the heartache and happiness. It is indeed an amazing journey. Friend of mine once said you are a nice person in a bad situation. But that would be true of all of us at one time or another. I was always afraid of being alone. Going to sleep alone, waking up alone. Ever since I can remember, even as a child, there was something to be fearful of in the darkness. But I am not alone as I travel, I take the magic of memory and the warmth of love along with me.

  The darkness is but space

 lit by the warmth of your heart.

Embrace

Some thought it was a story, a tale to be written down, words of fantasy that lift the spirit off the ground. Two hearts have merged together, the words document the time as our souls take to the heavens to embrace upon the clouds. .

An Empty Heart is a Loveless Soul

I wrote a poem a while back, a stanza out of it went like this " I don't need you to feel complete, I know I can stand on my own two feet, it's the walk beside me that compliments me." Yet as humans we all have basic needs. Though it does seem that some people have greater needs than others and of course there is those who seem to function with very little. I find it difficult at times to find a replacement for all that is missing in my life. The lack of intmacy, love, romance and the desire for a loving companionship leaves a void. Thinking through life I find that very little really matters if we cannot complete the pyramid of life. The security, sense of oneness with another and the basic desires like trust, happiness and the mutual sharing of a day help to unite heart and soul. I asked my heart" tell me true, what waits in the heavens blue?" "Will tomorrow a beginning bring or is the darkness the voice that sings?" To my questions there was no reply, the response was silence that toyed with the mind. Weary, I looked but could not see,for time the ruler ends the dreams. ~

Send All My Loving To You

It had been some forty years since I went to an ice skating rink. I was anxious till I stepped out on the ice. What if I fall? What if I embarrass my self? The ice arena was filled with the young and a few who were young of heart. My first step on the ice and I froze. I thought to myself do I have balance anymore. The first time around I stayed close to the wall the second time around my daughter Audrey and my son Will grabbed my arm and around the rink we went. Each time around the comfort zone came back and I felt more relaxed and before I knew it I was ice skating. I was just happy that I didn't do any unintentional triple sow cows on the ice.
My emotions raced from that child within me who had so much hope for the future, to the woman who laughed out loud as she attempted what only minutes ago seemed impossible, in all reality everything is possible if you are willing to give it a try.Thank you to my teenage children let their mom tag along.

Tomorrow is for the living
and in living we will do,
from dancing on the clouds
in a dream that waits to come
true.

We'll hold hands as tight as can
be, through the dark and gray,
we'll brace for the storms that
sure to catch up with me.
~

So close, so blue 
the sky that blankets
over me and you. 

So real, so fine, 
the memories 
the make you mine. 

So warm, so true, 
the words that 
say I love you. 

So sweet, so nice,
the day when you
are by my side. 

So close, so blue
the sky that blankets
over me and you. 
~


It is another day of dreaming, 
another morning where I awake
to find my heart still has an 
incredible and unstoppable ache. 

I can't explain exactly how I feel,
the ache inside of me that has yet
to heal,except that you are there 
and I am here. 

Life keeps on passing by and there
is no stopping it no matter how much 
we try. We have so much to give, so
much to share. 

It is another day of dreaming, 
another morning where I awake,
to find my heart still has an 
incredible and unstoppable ache. 

~
I got a chill,
I sniffled so,
a sneeze or
two and there
I go again.

I think it was
worth it, achoo!
there I go again,
I think it was
worth it,to go
on living.

I got a chill,
I sniffled so,
a sneeze or
two and there
I go again.

 The Beatlessang it best ...  Close your eyes and I'll kiss you

Tomorrow I'll miss you

Remember I'll always be true

And then while I'm away

I'll write home every day

And I'll send all my loving to you

I'll pretend that I'm kissing

The lips I am missing

And hope that my dreams will come true

And then while I'm away

I'll write home every day

And I'll send all my loving to you

Some people spend their life wanting, others dream and a few smart people spend their life doing... I think I would rather be smart.....

LOVE ME WITH ALL YOUR HEART (Lyrics) - Engelbert Humperdinck

You wonder what is on your mind when you wake up from a deep sleep singing this song. I haven't heard it in years. " Love me with all of your heart that is all I want love, love me with all of your heart or not at all.
Love me with all of your heart
That's all I want, love
Love me with all of your heart
Or not at all
*Just promise me this
That you'll give me all your kisses
Every winter every summer
Every fall
When we are far apart
Or when you're near me
Love me with all of your heart
As I love you
Don't give me your love
For a moment or an hour
Love me always as you love me
From the start
With every beat of your heart*

Snow Storm

When my daughter and I started out today for our ladies day luncheon, the sun was shining and it was in the mid forties and all was right with the world. Though she checked the weather and knew they were calling for snow in the evening, I thought we surely we would be home before the storm moved in. It is around the second year of my first renewal of my drivers license and my first snow storm. There were a lot of first since I learned to drive. Warming the car in the frigid ice cold, chipping ice off of windows, doing a 360 on a oil slick road, failed to negotiate a turn and sitting in traffic going nowhere. Oh! the list is amazingly growing. But today I was caught in my first snow storm. It was a very wet snow, the kind that quickly turns to ice. The salt drugs and plow had yet to clear the roads, so I dropped my speed as I headed home. It was an amazing first, the beauty of the huge white snow flakes that made it almost impossible to see and the challenges that await over ever hill and around every bend. I guess that is much like life. There is always a challenge that will surface in our life. It is the challenges that catch us off guard that we fail to see till we make it over the hill and around the bend. Of course there is the element of surpise that comes with the first experience.
My sister and I spoke earlier in the day. I said " I don't know the where, what or why of my life. " She said there is a future that awaits you and soon you will see where the journey truly will take you." At this point in my life I didn't believe that tomorrow had anything else awaiting me. My mind slowly slid back to the snow storm. I never drove in a snow storm that was so blinding or that accumulated so fast on the road side. Yet there I was meeting a new challenge. You might say many people drive in snow storms and that would be true. Today was my very first. There I was behind the wheel , with a train of cars behind me. I made the decision what speed to travel, how to handle the car and I was responsible for myself and my daughter. There is a certain amount of self respect one gains when meeting a challenge, no matter how simple it may seem to someone else.
Throughout the year and especially during the winter I find myself in a rutt. I battle to make it through the day and I can't see tomorrow. What does the future hold? I guess we won't know that answer until it is ready to present itself. I said my new years resolution was accepting the truth. The truth not  as I want it to be, but the truth as it is.

Simple Things

Stroll hand in hand and
a gentle kiss on the cheek,
as I am tucked in your arms
creating warm memories.

Simple things are not simple
indeed, when you share the
moment with the love of
your dreams.

Watching the sunset
and again watch it rise,
that is true love when
your are side by side.





I don't much like the signs of winter and yet I remember when I loved the snow. So I spend my days lost in a daydream, remembering when you first set my heart aglow.  The trees are bare without color, the skies are dark and gray as I look for a little bit of sunshine, from the warmth of love you left behind.
I found myself in a story.  Was I in beginning, the middle or the end? My heart felt it was a bit of a riddle and that the caution sign detoured me around and around the same bend. I kept on looking back, as today is not much fun and I can't think about tomorrow as it's not the same without you my friend.




Separated by miles,
joined by the blue,
your stars are mine
and mine belong to
you.

They are the link
that unites our souls,
look out at the night
sky and our love
will unfold.

~
My smiles are meaningless without you
and my heart an empty vessel lost at sea,
I hunger for your embrace that brings
life back to me.

~
I don't wanna hear another love song,
my heart can't take anymore pain.
I sit here feeling sad and lonely
wondering if thoughts of me
surface in your day.


I don't wanna spend my days crying nor
from the fall from the dance on clouds
with you.
I don't think to you I must matter or I
wouldn't be alone today.

I don't wanna hear another love song,
my heart can't take anymore pain.
I sit here feeling sad and lonely
wondering if thoughts of me
surface in your day.

~

I looked for the stars
and the sky was gray,
with too many clouds
as a masque that wont
fade.

I need you near me,
I wanted you close
and I kept on dreaming
I was completely engrossed.













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Orchid Bloom

 

An orchid bloom will wither
and only memories will stay,
unlike the treasure of your
love that is with me to this
day.

I can see your love in the
early morn and midnight
skies, it is always around
me like a flittering butterfly.

Acceptance is the only rule
that need be applied, as the
gift of love placed you
forever by my side.

Endless Combinations

Endless combinations to

say how much I love you.

 

I can take the blue of sky, a blanket as the river flows by,

sitting there beside you, whispering that I love you true.

 

Endless combinations to

say how much I love you,

 

I keep the happiness,  magic and  joy, sweet little

reminders of you, I tuck them in my treasure box so

that I will never sad and blue.

 

Endless combination to

 say how much I love you.

 

Whispers of the heart, that everyone can hear, like

a song bird in the wind, our love blows everywhere.

 

Endless combination to

 say how much I love you.

Fragrant Reminders of Spring

Fragrant whites,
a winter delight
little reminders
of spring.

Grateful am I,
for  today is
yesterdays
great surprise.

Fragrant whites,
a winter delight
little reminders
of spring.

I close my eyes
and the aroma
sweet play tricks
with my mind.

Fragrant whites,
a winter delight,
little reminders
of spring.

~

Your smile tells a story well, from
 your heart where our love dwells.

I saw it and I can't deny you
warmed my soul like the sun
warms from the sky.

I find my self thankful for the
magic of the day, as it brings your
sweet memory my way.

In the middle of the night, when the
angels sing, I find us dancing on
the cloud of dreams.

~
I'll write a poem
till my breath fades away,
the words of love for
all eternity.

I'll document for all to see,
how much you mean
to me.

I'll write a poem
till my breath fades away,
the words of love for
all eternity.

When I am gone all
will know the greatest
love that has ever had
the chance to grow.

I'll write a poem
till my breath fades away,
the words of love for
all eternity.

Like the stars that light
the sky, our hearts will
always shine.

I'll write a poem
till my breath fades away,
the words of love for
all eternity.

~

Smiles

Special, special indeed,
that is what I see when
you are smiling with me.

Like a child sent out to
play, I find myself a drift
in a child like way.

Special, special indeed,
that is what I see when
you are smiling with me.

Simply Red - You Make Me Feel Brand New

The Moon

I watched the moon as it looked down on me,

the secrets I whisper, the moon keeps safely. 

It found its way through the naked winter trees 

and if it could talk oh! the stories it would breathe. 

It would tell of a love that holds my heart tenderly, 

and a story of a women who met up with a dream. 

The night has a peace all of its own and yet I find

myself wondering why I lay here all alone. 

I watched the moon as it looked down on me, 

the secrets I whisper, the moon keeps safely. 

It found its way through the naked winter trees 

and if it could talk, Oh! the stories it would breathe. 

The tears that I hide behind each smile are from 

my heart the sadness when you are not around. 

I thought that time was as they say , "the great

healer" that would soothe my heartache. 

I watched the moon as it looked down on me, 

the secrets I whisper, the moon keeps safely. 

It found its way through the naked winter trees 

and if it could talk, Oh! the stories it would breathe. 

Every word in a love song

Every word in a love song,
rhythmic sounds to my heart,
touch on your sweet memory
and bring you from afar.

It was my own inclination
and a natural tendency
to close my eyes and
pull from a dream.

Every word in a love song,
rhythmic sounds to my heart,
touch on your sweet memory
and bring you from afar.

I can feel your presence
you are always by my side,
you took a hold of my heart
and have yet to leave my
mind.

Every word in a love song,
rhythmic sounds to my heart,
touch on your sweet memory
and bring you from afar.

You are my good morning wake up,
my very own sunshine and the
stars that light the sky, my
very own good night.

There is no ending to a love story, 

touched my soul and holds my heart. 

Whisper

If you could see the images
that play out in my mind
you would feel the flow of
love from your heart to mine.

Sweet happiness to replace
the sadness of the day and
the joy of loving you that
makes blue skies out of gray.

If you hear the melody the
angels stop to sing , you
would know it was meant
to heard by you and me.
~

I whispered,
so you could hear,
sent it via
the outer sphere.

I danced,
so you could embrace,
if you happened to
find that special place.

I love,
so you will know
the warmth and
magic that continues
to grow.

I dream,
to bring you near,
so that each night
you  will reappear.

I live,
to hold you tight,
to know what
peace feels like.

I say my prayers,
in gratitude that
my path directed
me to you.

Sweet Love

My needs are rather simple,
to lay my head upon your chest,
listen closely to your heart beat
and leave to God the rest.

To feel complete contentment,
and know that someone cares,
as I close my eyes to sleep and
with you my sweet love I share.

The Script

 

Simple pleasures, 

sweet desires, 

dreams of love

by the hour. 

Memories cast, 

old and new,

touched my heart

led me to you.