Pictorial Prose

Pictorial Prose
Indulging my most lucid daydreams

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Autumn

Sings> There's no turning back,that's a fact, step ahead with me.
Look beyond the bend, a new start to an end and see just what I see.

Sunshine through the mountains, river to the sea, flowing steadily
your love starts a new memory.

There's no turning back, that's a fact, step ahead with me. Look
beyond the bend, a new start to an end and see just what I see.

Dreams are happening, magic is everywhere, a dance in the
heavens and your love fills the air.

There's no turning back, that's a fact step ahead with me. Look
beyond the bend, a new start to an end and see just what I see.


Autumn the month of transition, a good bye to summer and a introduction to winter. I am never quite sure how I actually feel about this season. It has a beauty of its own and yet it has a blanket of sadness as it prepares for a time of dormancy. It always seems to be a season radical with change, from cool mornings to hot afternoons and winds that are at times more powerful than those of spring.
I have always believed even from early on in life, that to be in tune with nature would reveal the most important of lessons. The change from one day to the next shows how little prepared we are for the unknown. The highlighting of our vulnerabilities is a way of turning the soul inside out.
There are many who walk a path that appears to be well planned, they know exactly what they will be doing with each minute of an hour. I found the preparedness comes with a calm that I myself had not been introduced to. If speaking to my soul , I think it would respond with a sense of peace, the peace within that I felt necessary to survive. There is a bit of irony to my life and that there was very little structure as far expectations and a true of comfort that comes from walking a journey led by the heart. Each day always seemed a bit like a rain maker, shook up and rattled. Always in different directions and guided by survival.
I was refereed to as being street wise, but I like to think of it as being more self taught. The love for learning and the wisdom that is formed from experience, hardly did I see that as street wise I find I am always trying to make sense of that which I don't always understand. The variations in people and their thoughts, the silence that seems to strangle and a journey leading in many directions.
I think of Autumn actually as a very emotional season and I relate to the colorful change that it displays. It has a feel of a battle, a battle that I myself have experienced, the letting go of a peak season of growth and preparing for the change that is sometimes necessary. I feel a certain amount of anguish or turmoil inside as I am forced to respond to the actions of others.
The leaves spinning in circles rolled forward,the adrenaline where my heart also raced, felt the entrapment of the moment. Life much like a balancing act reminds me to take a breath, occasionally to step back and when to run. At the moment I can neither breathe, step back nor run, I feel the entanglement of the dreams of the heart, the magnitude of love, the restlessness of my soul and the words in my mind that believed all was real. No tears fallen, but I felt as if I was surfacing from a flood of tears. My head above the water, I looked around and it was the truth that was standing their waiting for me. I reached out and there you were reaching back. The tears that I held back for so many years surfaced and I felt neither happiness nor sadness, but a relief. They flowed filled with dreams, the occasional disappointments, the expectations and the wisdom needed to bring true peace.
Documentation, nostalgia, truth, wisdom...
push, pull and hold your hand.
There is a certain amount of personal discipline necessary to work alone,
sometimes we have to dig rather deep inside to find the strength.
~
Supplies are in yipppppe I am off to work.

The chapters may be many, the stories quite a few,
they are all included in the book of what love can do.

It can close the gap time creates, bridge the distance
earth makes and share my happiness with you.

The chapters may be many, the stories quite a few,
they are all included in the book of what love can do.

It can dance in the heavens and infuse in outer space,
bond our souls and allow our hearts to embrace.

The chapters may be many, the stories quite a few,
they are all included in the book of what love can do.

It can take my wishes and make them all come true,
place them in a dream so I can feel you.

The chapters may be many, the stories quite a few,
they are all included inthe book of what Love can do.



There is a certain amount of sadness in that he did
not understand nor appreciate the meeting of souls...
in more common words" his loss."

2 comments:

Margie said...

Sorry I have not been around to comment lately but I have been reading and love everything you write.
It's just beautiful, Rachel!

Margie:)

Rachel C Miller said...

No apology Margie, I am honored that you find time in your busy life to stop by and read. I am happy that you find beauty in my words, Thank you!