My Soul on canvas, "Pictorial Prose": Loneliness is its own hell

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Loneliness is its own hell

You can't help as you step forward to look back at your life and review the lessons that developed into today's memories. My son called first thing this morning, you would think I had something to do with all this excitement. He went on to speak of a woman he has had contact with for about six months now, they spent two days canoeing, hiking and playing board games. He shouted " she is perfect, she finishes my sentences,etc. She had done her home work on him, she met with his x and everything his x girlfriend complained but just made him that much more attractive to her. Soul mates? It is possible she is older and a bit wiser a but very intellectual, he just might have met his match. Six am and on the phone he hangs up with" I love ya mom. "

I think of life and all the missed opportunities and they why of it all. I think about the layers of life how separate they are meaningless but together they develop the personality of who we are today. In the English language one word can have many a meaning, this in itself leads to quite the misinterpretation. Or might that interpretation being the reflection of ones own inner soul? One of the words that came up in question was lust. The argument was that lust had no place in a loving relationship, that one who lust couldn't possibly love. That lust was emotionless desire for sex. It is true you can have lust without love and love with out lust, but imagine love and lust together.

–noun
1.
intense sexual desire or appetite.
2.
desire or appetite;
3.
a passionate or overmastering desire or craving (usually fol. by for): a lust for power.
4.
ardent enthusiasm; zest; relish: an enviable lust for life.
5.
Obsolete.
a.
pleasure or delight.
b.
desire; inclination; wish.
–verb (used without object)
6.
to have intense sexual desire.
7.
to have a yearning or desire; have a strong or excessive craving lust pleasure, desire. crave, hunger, covet, yearn.

1. Pleasure. [Obs.] " Lust and jollity." --Chaucer.
2. Inclination; desire. [Obs.]
For little lust had she to talk of aught. --Spenser.
My lust to devotion is little. --Bp. Hall.
3. Longing desire; eagerness to possess or enjoy; -- in a had sense; as, the lust of gain.
The lust of reigning. --Milton.
4. Licentious craving; sexual appetite. --Milton.
5. Hence: Virility; vigor; active power.

My heart is satisfied with the beauty of moment,

my soul is eagerness to share in the passion of desire.

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If we fail to explore all that we are and all that we can be...

There are many qualities to a friendship, some embrace to comfort, others to excite but the moment you feed the hunger you brought to the heart a great delight.

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I can no sooner strip the memories from the mind
nor remove your love from my heart.
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Some people get the chance to hold hands, I have the chance to interlock hearts.

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Light Up The Cloud

Light up the cloud,
the dance floor is ours,
if only to hold you
for a little while.

Your heart to mine,
rhythmic they beat,
spinning in circles
to memories.

Light up the cloud,
the dance floor is ours,
if only to hold you
for a little while.

Stars above us,
in the night of calm,
where we dance as one
all night long.

Light up the cloud,
the dance floor is ours,
if only to hold you
for a little while.

Your lips of sweet,
pressed gently to mine,
sharing a moment
please stand still time.

Light up the cloud,
the dance floor is ours,
if only to hold you
for a little while.

Not Only in My Dreams

Singing>I wanna hold you forever, I wanna make dreams come true.I wanna love you like no other and make you love me to.Not only in my dreams....no! no! Not only for a day, no! no! I wanna create our eternity, where you are holding me.

I wanna feel you inside me, I wanna dance the night away.I wanna make you need me .... the way that I need you....Not only in my dreams....no! no! Not only for a day, no! no!. I wanna create our eternity , where you are holding on to me.

Not only in my dreamssss

Lyrics by Rachel Charlotte Miller

The Dance in the clouds

Welcome to Prose, my daily escape, where sweet fantasy mingles with reality, to create the magical land of romance.
Dreams.....

1.
a succession of images, thoughts, or emotions passing through the mind during sleep.
2.
the sleeping state in which this occurs.
3.
an object seen in a dream.
4.
an involuntary vision occurring to a person when awake.
5.
a vision voluntarily indulged in while awake; daydream; reverie.
6.
an aspiration; goal; aim: A trip to Europe is his dream.
7.
a wild or vain fancy.
8.
something of an unreal beauty, charm, or excellence. –verb (used without object)
9.
to have a dream.
10.
to indulge in daydreams or reveries: He dreamed about vacation plans when he should have been working.
11.
to think or conceive of something in a very remote way (usually fol. by of): I wouldn't dream of asking them. –verb (used with object)
12.
to see or imagine in sleep or in a vision.
13.
to imagine as if in a dream; fancy; suppose.
14.
to pass or spend (time) in dreaming (often fol. by away): to dream away the afternoon. –adjective
15.
most desirable; ideal: a dream vacation. —Verb phrase
16.
dream up, to form in the imagination; devise: They dreamed up the most impossible plan.
Close your eyes and open your heart, and step into my world where the clouds carry us through the night sky to the awaiting sun lit mornings. ...

Soul Mates

Most people relate to the study of Greek mythology, the magical stories of the heavens and the gods that ruled them. Zeus the God of Gods, ruler of the universe struck bolts of thunder down upon mortal man. The myth that humans were combined of four arms and four legs and a single head made of two faces which struck fear into the Gods, caused Zeus to split them in half. Zeus Condemned split souls to spend eternity searching for the other half that would complete them giving them the energy and power.
In our modern day era there is all kinds of talk of searching for soul mates, a loosely used term for finding the person who has the perfect fit. Soul mates could be defined as very dear friends who have a strong bond, two people who walk in harmony, a life lasting connection, spiritual companions, twin flames that burn as one, one that has an extreme , positive influence over another or in a more romantic way some have referred to soul mates as the reuniting of
split souls.
There is no doubt in my mind that an energy does exist between people, on a scientific note, they would break it down to mere adrenaline. I believe soul mates are much deeper, it is the equilibrium that causes an inner balance of happiness.
In our society there are the expected norms, dating marriage, love an life that we are somehow predestined to perform. As you look around you find that rarely do people find such a perfection connection. In my mind is a view of all the perfect weddings that I had attended to find that very few lasted the miles.
In the bonding of a soul mate, both must be standing on common ground, that which feels comfortable and in a state of normalcy. Each knows the others moments of weakness as well as days of strength and brings out the best in all situations. The positive cognation from one partner to the next creates a platform of encouragement, promoting one to strive for better, to create a desire.
In a bond of two inner spirits there is no demand set upon the souls, but an understanding that speaks without words. Emotions rise up from the flames to possess the energy of desire and create lasting moments that lift and bond two into one.
What is the possibility that two people will find such a positive energy of attraction, both in the spiritual and physical sense? I can address no formal number to the combination of a puzzle that interlocks two souls.
Do I believe soul mates exist? I in every sense of the word believe there is a connection from one human to another that is above the normal expectation. The interaction of souls is rare and gifted with trust, respect, faith and love. The crucial ingredients must be met with self first before they can be shared with another human being. Standing at the gateway of self respect, allow faith and the trust in oneself guide you to Love.